Good morning everyone. "Tag" is when a gang member or wannabe marks their symbol on something. Usually walls, railroad cars, etc. This time, they scratched the mark into the side of my car. If they want to mark their turf, why can't they just pee on the trees?? I live in a large city that is a suburb really of Milwaukee.
Well, I did make it to the gym today. I almost didn't. Was half undressed and heading back to bed for a nap when I looked down and saw my girl dog looking at me all confused like she was saying "What ARE you doing? Haven't I raised you right?" I got redressed and went to the gym.
I loved CSI, RAven. I get the feeling we will see that female prisoner again, don't you? The whole thing gave me the creeps, as I don't like tight spaces. And then the dead dogs??? No way!
By feeling as if you have been "owned" (a word my teens use all the time that seems to apply here) by this gang, it's exactly what they want to accomplish. So, just get some touch up paint and move on, I guess. I haven't heard of or seen any talk about gangs of any kind here in NH, but there could be some in a few of our largest cities - but here in NH even our largest of cities is not equal to small cities in other states.
We're still fairly rural and "country" up this way, for which I am glad. Yet, the "urban sprawl" shall find it's way here as well, I guess.
I was on program all day yesterday, I used up all my ww points, but didn't end up eating extra, plus I worked out. So, I am feeling somewhat proud of myself!
We were going to head up to "the lake" today (where my family's summer cabin is) to kind of get things rolling for the beginning of the season, but the weather is supposed to turn nasty. I'm bummed out as I'd like to get away. I truly felt like I needed a form of "escape" this week. But, I suppose we might be able to go see a movie or something later on if it's raining. My daughter saw the new Starwards movie last night and said it was really good.
Linda
Well good for me. I did Week 4 Day 1 of Couch-to-5K today!! I ROCK! If I may say so myself. My quads are still sore from my weights WEDNESDAY! I didn't think I'd be able to do it, and it did kick my ***, no doubt about it. But I did it.
I've realized that Happy, you're right. I need to have some faith in myself. Sometimes we don't understand our fears till after we conquer them. I need to step outside my safety zone to move forward. Again. So I will. I can.
Food yesterday was indulgent. I had wine, wonderful french dip sandwiches with italian spiced beef, provolone and swiss cheese, and the best bakery bread... *yum* Oh, and then a piece of raspberry creme cake.
Today, back on plan. Water good so far, food ... I need to eat. And exercise was much more inspiring today!!
Hey all. Real quick message before I head to work. They changed my hours to 12-8. Good, because I get home earlier. Tough because I have to move my butt a lot quicker in the morning. I did however get everything done I wanted to. Made it to the gym. Had a WONDERFUL ride. The "interval" training I am trying is working. We are working through our issues without either one getting frustrated. It was a beautiful ride.
Heh all. Bumping up the thread. Not doing very well here at all. Damn, why is it always gung-ho for a few days, then work bogs me down and I can't do anything, then am depressed because of it and the viscious cycle continues....
I am tired of my own voice....
Trying to pull myself up off the floor again.......scrape..scrape....sticking to it bad....oh well, I'm outta here, to the track again. Maybe something there will pump some air into me again.....take care, all!
Hi all. I hear you Red. Oh wait - that is the sound of ME scraping MYSELF off the floor. My eating has been horrid. And, because I sat up late eating last night, I couldn't get up this morning and run. I am going to do my yoga tape when I get home tonight.
I can report a very small NSV. I somehow decided that a gas station sized bag of M&Ms would go really well at work today. I was stopping to get gas anyway, but . . . . I paid at the pump so I wouldn't go into the gas station. Now, if the craving comes up, I have to find time to leave work to go get crap - I don't just have it ready to go. Small save, but a save none the less.
I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend. Off to walk the dogs and go to work.
Heh, jolly, that was a good save. That's what it's about. And maybe I should start looking at those "small" saves too because I know I do them as well. I feel better today (considering that I was out late, too much big, little sleep and now must go to work, again without exercise and not even much time to walk.....but I am determined to walk a bit.)
I realized just how connected my eating and motivation is to the rest of my life. I guess this is normal. I mean, at this stage I am not really bingeing, but I don't knock the weight off and do healthy things like eat good foods or exercise. But I am not hogwild with the food either. I suppose this is where the vast majority of people are. Their lives have problems, some quite a few, problems that is, and they kind of just go through life trying to deal with those or hoping things will get better, trying, trying, hoping, hoping, and the big moves, the ones that require real initiative, just don't happen. OK, I see it. I am NOT a special case and utterly undisciplined and whatever. I am doing other things outside of eating and exercising and so, naturally, you don't see changes there. But, I AM doing other things....OK, I am going to try to do a little bit more in the eating/exercise category, that's all......... not get all bent out of shape about it.
Floating. Just kind of drifting along. Dealing with things as best you can as they come, without being proactive and setting your own course. That's kind of how I feel right now. I am almost 35 years old, and I feel like I still don't know who I want to be when I grow up. What am I waiting for? Rather unsettling actually.
Here's to a hopefully great week all. what can we do to make it so?
Well Jolly - I'm 45 and I just figured out this year what I really want to do with my life. And now I wonder if it's too late and I'm kidding myself. *shrug* All I can do is keep trying, though.
Yesterday was kind of tough. A very good friend who lost three horses to a lightning strike last year had to put a foal down. The mare suffered from a placental infection, and the placenta separated from the uterine wall. They induced, and the foal was born a couple weeks premature. But the damage had already been done by the swelling of his brain. They kept him going for 4 days, hoping and praying he would make it, but he started to really go downhill yesterday, and she had to make the very sad decision to put him down. It was particularly heartbreaking, because this foal was the half brother of the yearling she lost to lightning last year. It was just serendipity that she even ended up with the mare, who had already been bred. I guess it just wasn't meant to be, but .. it still broke my heart. I felt so bad for her.
Anyway... so yesterday wasn't the greatest. I kept intending to do my chest/back split, but never quite got around to it. Food wasn't BAD, but it wasn't great. Water sucked. And then I had this weird attack of chocolate cravings last night late and hit the M&Ms. That's really weird for me. I can't even remember the last time that happened.
So today is a new day. I did my pilates! My butt was still kind of achey, but nothing like the stabbing pain of a week ago. It felt really good to stretch out my back.
I have my water and my oatmeal, and I'm off to a good start. Hope everyone is doing well this Monday morning!
Today remained good. Water wasn't great. I need to really try harder with that. Food was fine.
Exercise was the pilates this morning and then trimming Eve's hooves tonight. She did great. Front hooves are starting to look better, just waiting for the new hoof to hit the ground and get rid of that crappy stuff. The rears are coming along slowly... a big flare on the right rear. But again, I can see the new hoof growth line, and it's coming in much tighter.
Oh and don't forget running the length of the arena several times working with Shadow to get her to stand still for the fly spray. She was in rare form tonight, but we ended with her making a nice slow trotting circle around me several times, and coming when I asked. I think I made good progress with her.
Wasted time on another board this morning and killed my time to run. So...
I did my chest/back split instead. Upped it to 15 pounds plus bar for bench and incline presses and deadlifts, 2 sets of 12. Dumbell rows, 7.5 pounds plus bar, 2 sets of 12 on each side. Flies *spit* 2.5 pounds plus bar, 2 sets of 12.
Yesterday, in addition to the pilates, I ran the length and breadth of the arena several times working with Shadow, who was in rare form, until she'd finally 'round pen' around me, and come when asked. Took a while. Lots of running. *pant*
Then I trimmed Eve's hooves. Sweated more than when I run, I think. Forearms and hands get a workout from hoof trimming. Tonight I'll trim Arashi, and perhaps work Shadow more. We shall see.
Food yesterday, very good. Water - oy, abysmal. And considering how much I sweated... *shakes head* Today MUST be better. Exercise - eh.. a little scattered around, but definitely getting done so I can't really complain. I *need* to run tomorrow. No getting online first! NO Marian, BAD Marian. *rolls eyes*
I didn't think I'd be able to do it, and it did kick my ***, no doubt about it. But I did it. 
