Hi Raff, hope you had a good Christmas
Well, I'm well and truly fired up and ready for my new lifestyle. Had a good long discussion with Nick yesterday about all of my "issues" which I've already told you about so I won't bore you with details again! We've sorted lots of things out and I'm feeling much happier and more positive than I was a couple of weeks ago
I know I've been totally stupid and feel rather silly now that my feelings are all out in the open, but at least he understands how and why I feel the way I do. He's been able to reassure me about my concerns and promises to help me as much as he can. And when his charity walk is over (and no more intensive training involved) we're going to spend more time together at weekends doing the things that he thought I wasn't interested in
I've kept up my walking since Christmas night ... although I must confess that the reason I walked for so long that night was due to anger
... But it obviously helped because it finally got me off my big fat butt!!
Must dash now because I'm off for my daily walk before dinner
... and I'm determined not to give up this time!!
Nichola
I have however tried to be good ... not too much pigging out! Looking forward to the New Year so that I can really get stuck into a new healthy way of life 
