Yes, I'm going decaf for the most part - ever since I've learned that the caffeine, antibiotics, preservatives that we consume and then...er...issue forth as waste are polluting good ol' Mama Earth. This is typical of me. I can give up meat and caffeine, fine, if the earth is affected, but giving something up 'cause it's no good for my body? Naaaah. Maybe if I tell myself that large food portions and no exercise affect the fragile ecosystem I'll actually get somewhere. Hmmm.
All right, then. Enough boo-hooing about the state of chaos my life is presently in. I'm going to start a list: "What Can Cerise Do To Feel Better and More In Control Of Her Life?" Then start ticking things off, I guess.
Kaylets, I'm continuing to send positive energy your way. Keep your chin up and exude all the best traits you possess: energy, matter-of-fact-ness, a curious mind, excellent intuition, strong will, and a kind heart. You're totally in!
Amarantha, I'm sorry that the dark clouds are hovering. I'm hoping for little beauties to catch your eye today, to gladden your heart. You are such a bright light to the rest of us - I hope that you'll receive support and joy in an equal measure. Here, have another banana:
Arabella, landry.com sounds good. Here's hoping that it's The Thing that resonates with you in just the right way, that it'll change your life and habits for good. I know we do that for ourselves, but pushes are essential. Hey, can you post that wellness checklist again? Please? Can I use it? Hmmm?
Eydie, "cock-chafer" sounds like some sort of husband-punishment. In fact, ... no, I'm not going any further with this line of thought. I hear you on wanting to eat everything in sight. Are you figuring out why? Do you think it's psychological, having to do with having "made it" into maintenance? Or, perhaps it's hormonal, perfectly natural...who knows. No fear - it's probably some sort of stage that will either wear off naturally or is something you can get to the bottom of and successfully fight off, right? We're all with you, dear.

wsw, thanks for your kind words. I hope that you're having a good day today, darling. How's life in your new place?
All right - I'm off to work and thereby feel much better. Keep busy.
Love to all and thanks for your patience with me - I swear that I'd have posted more often if I weren't convinced that each post would say: "I feel like crap. Life's in chaos. Haven't the strength to do laundry. I'm a big loser."
Never mind. Happy, productive days ahead!


). Then, lo and behold, Cerise requests that very list. 


Punkin, that's your cue, babe. Git on out here and declare it Friday! Or I will, dammit.
I'm not quite off caffeine - I'm drinking the tea and coffee that I have at home until it's gone, but I won't buy more caffeinated stuff and I won't drink what's provided at work. Weird little rules we give ourselves, but it makes me feel better. And that's what matters.
Thank you for posting that list, darling. I'm looking forward to implementing it.
Uh, okay. She could be lying, of course, to keep me at her side (monetarily it wouldn't do her any harm, and if I compete she'll look really good), but I trust her. And I need her. And more importantly (I'm sorry, I really can't be modest with you, my sisters), I've never doubted, really, that she's right. I could be great. But lack of discipline will kill a talent just as much as gargling battery acid, and that's what scares me. That my work ethic will always be this bad and I'll never amount to anything.
Thanks for listening, dears, and for not thinking I'm the most arrogant puss on the planet. Singer's Ego, but I can't help it.
That's me drumming up positive energy for you.