Moooooooo
 

:moo: I just love adolescent boys, NOT!!! As my sweet 6 year old son was getting off the bus , all the grade 8 boys mooed and oinked at me. Delightful.Yes, I have a mirror and I know I am fat but thanks for the reminder anyhow.
I WAS having an okay day. I was up .75 at TOPS weigh in. I expectd it cause I had a bad eating day on Mon and wine on Sun.I will get back on track.
I loved my day to myself yesterday. I mostly puttered and did some gardening. I went for a walk.I enjoyed the quiet!

Welcome Laura~ I have caught up on the posts. I eat lean meats, 2 starchy carbs per day and then fruits and veg. I aim for even portions of carbs,fats and proteins.I try to walk regularily.

Yahoo Susie!

Annie~ let me know when you have a cheese free day challenge!! ;) The no junk is a breeze for me.

Suzy~ my house is getting in order too. Are finding eating well easier with the kids outa the house for most of the day? I think I am.I am struggling too. I know what to do but get discouraged way too easily.I eat in the evening too. I was doing better but have been sliding lately.

Take care ladies!

Susie-Wonderful news from the doc! Experiences like that make it all worthwhile. Very motivating. Keep up the great, great work! Good luck with WI tonight.

Annie-So far today I have taken your challenge to heart. I am at 32 ounces of water, lots of walking, and a small portion leftover whole wheat pasta for lunch (had butter in it so not too great but at least it was a small amt). What I need to do is stay VERY busy. I find that my mind starts rummaging the cabinets and fridge when I sit down and say aah.

Holly- Let's somehow motivate/challenge each other to stay on track. Any ideas?

I really do appreciate coming here each day and checking in with all of you. It definitely makes a difference even if I am not staying on track. I really feel a connection here with all of you. Thanks.
Suzy

Weigh-in report
 

Hi,
I had a 1.50 lost at my TOPS weigh-in last night!

It so great to see those scales go down.

I was dreaming a little this morning about this time next year. If I keep on track, this time next year I'll be in a "maintence" mode. I've not been in maintence mode since I was a teenager!

I'm so excited to be working toward that. I can't do it without your help and support. So, I know I'll be here often. Who else is with me?

Went to the movies on Wed. evening with some girlfriends of mine. We do a "chickie" movie night once a month. We saw Princess Diaries 2. Very cute movie. It just made you want to smile :)

I went out to school yesterday and got my Accounting book. I'm only taking one class this quarter. This book is HUGE! and there's a workbook. I'm a little intimidated let me tell you. I start classes next Thursday.

This weekend we are celebrating with a friend who is turning 50. She looks fabulous at 50! She agreed to a get-together, if there were no black item involved! I had to wrack my brains to do come up with something that would call attention to her 50th b-day and not be depressing. I did a search to see what things happened in 1954 and I found out that on her b-day, 9-11, the first Miss America pagent was televised. So, what I decided to do was to get her a crown (at the Dollar Store) and some fake roses, and I made a sash for her to wear that says "Ms. Birthday Queen 1954". We are going out to dinner with a large group and I'm going to present this to her. I have a list of events that happened in 1954 that I'm going to read and of course the last one will be the info about the Miss America pagent. I hope it turns out cute. My other friends thinks it sounds fun and think she will think it's funny.

Well, I better get to work.

Have a nice day ladies. I'll check in later.Holly: don't let the small gain get you down. Fight back girl! You will loose it next week. (((Huggsss)))

Susie

Happy TGIF Ladies!!!

Another beautiful day in Indy, and for the next 5 days according to the forecast. I can't wait to get outside tomorrow. YEAH!! My son is having his 16th BD party Sat night, boys and girls till 11:30, then the guys are camping out. I fear for a noisy evening. Man can the boys eat too, as it is half of his football team for the HS. Don't know how they will take to my healthy snacks.hehe.

Holly - Kids can be mean. I can remember pumping gas at a gas station and a car load of kids drove by and yelled, "HEY FAT *SS". I cried the rest of the night when I got home. A cheese free day challenge, shu weee, that one will be hard for me. Maybe next week I will throw that one out there for a challenge.

Suzie - Buck up Bucko, jump back on the wagon. A small gain is not too bad. We can do this. I have faith in you. JUST DO IT, baby!!

Susie - Congrats on the big loss this week. How proud you must be, I am proud of you. Doesn't that just motivate you to keep on truckin'? The Ms. America Pagent sound delightful. It would be kewl to make some decorations of red, white and blue, stars, etc. That would be neat for 9/11 as well.

Here's to continued losses. Cheers!! My WI is tomorrow. I feel like I will have a good one! May you all have a terrific weekend, and enjoy life. Keep smilin'

((((hugs)))) Annie

Suzi !I joined in the Halloween challenge this week. Under Misc Clubs thread. So far its not helping. it is almost too busy there.
Do you have any ideas for a challenge? Maybe for each day?
Like~ for Sat~journal everything that goes in your mouth on fitday.com.

Let me know, H

Wow! That was a lot of sugar
 

Last night I went out to a local festival that my town is having this weekend. It's "The Corn Festival". I had a free weekend pass, so I thought "why not, DH is in Cincinnati at a business dinner", and so off I went to the festival.

I looked at some crafts and the quilts and talked to a lot of people. I got a buttered ear of corn to eat, and some french fries.

I walked around a little bit more...watched the egg throwing contest and decided to head home. Before I left I thought to myself "I want a funnel cake or maybe some cotton candy". I choose the cotton candy and I ate the whole bag while I was walking out!

Now, I don't really feel bad about it. I mean, it's a one time thing and it was sort of the "right" place to have it. But I can feel that sugar today. My stomach feels yucky; I itch. Luckly, I don't feel like I'm about to binge. I was worried that it might set it off.

So, today I'm pouring in the water. Got to get this sugar out of my system. I already have a big salad planned for lunch with lots of cucumbers and green peppers in it.

How's everyone else doing today?

Holly: I think daily challenges are good. I took a look at that Halloween challenge and I thought about joining it but I thought I was busy enough with the postings here and on the TOPS boards. If you find it to busy there maybe we could have our own challenge on this board? I was thinking of an Election Day challenge. Any ideas for that? What would help you in that sort of a challenge?

Anybody else have any input?

I'll check in later today.

Let's do a daily challenge here!!!!!!!! I find our group wonderful!!!!! I am Canadian, when is your election? We could start on Monday! Should it be an individual challenge or a group challenge?(we all try to focus on the same thing for the day).
Yahoo!! I feel hopeful.

Holly: Sorry I didn't realize you were from Canada. Tunnel vision on my part...sorry about that! Our election day is Nov. 2. I think a daily challenge would be good. What do you think we should do for the first one?

I think Monday would be good. What does everyone else think. Come on..we need input and participation.

New Member!!!
 

Hey guys - I am new to this website, just found it this morning! Love it so far, and am looking forward to finding new friends and staying motivated. A little bit of background information - I am 23 yrs old, I live in Texas, and am married. I started my diet weighing in at 280 lbs. I have a long way to go, huh? Well, my first week I have completely cut out all sodas, fried food, and candy. It was hard, but I have noticed that I have so much more energy!!! I have been walking at least 1 mile a day, and sometimes 2. Can someone tell me what exactly a diet "buddy" does, and how can I get one? That would be awesome. Anyways, check out my profile for my fitday.com website, it is pretty neato!!!!

Challenge
 

Welcome Samantha!!!! you will love this site and group of ladies. I dont have a specific buddy.I follow this thread and I also journal on this site. I have made some true friends along the way.I haven't had a lot of success losing weight so far BUT I have worked through some major issues of "what was eating me". I find the support irreplacable and hate to think where I would be at without it.I use the recipes and other stuff on here too.

Susie and I have been talking about a daily challenge.Something to strive for each day, starting Monday.
Here's my idea for the first day~~ limit serving of breads and starchy carbs to 2 a day and not eating after dinner.
Let me know what you think. :?: :dizzy:

Have a wonderful Sunday.

I will not binge on bread, I will not binge on bread, I will not binge on bread, I will not binge on bread,I will not binge on bread.............

I'm In For Challenges!
 

Good Morning Ladies,
Welcome Samantha. I have found this group to be great and you will too.
I am back from my walk to the bus stop and I am definitely in for some challenges to help motivate me. The bus stop is not a far walk by any means but it is more than I was doing every day. I had a very busy weekend with constant cleaning, shopping, cooking, my son's birthday party, and guests in for the weekend. I found that I was not able to keep up like I normally would. By the end of each busy day I found I could hardly walk. Part of the reason is that last year I spent 6 months not being able to walk from breaking my ankle and then having to get surgery on it. I gained at least 30 pounds from lack of activity and poor diet. All those excuses aside, I did not like not being able to keep up with what needed to be done. It made me feel fat and awful. Sooo... I am finally ready to get my act together. A daily challenge sounds great! Should we all follow the same challenge and report back here next morning? Or should we each set our own daily challenge and report back here next morning? I have tried to limit my carbs by eating less starchy stuff and switching to high fiber/no white stuff and find that I do feel better when I am successful with it. I guess the 2 starchy carbs challenge is a good one but that still leaves me with a lot that I can eat. I personally would prefer to make a daily challenge to plan out my menu for the day and follow it. Let's do it, ladies! Let's set some challenges together and for ourselves. We can do this! Here is my challenge for today:
I will plan my menu for today.
I will drink at least 2 tall glasses of water
I will walk to bus stop this afternoon and will clean up house from weekend visitors
There that wasn't so hard. I can do this.
Suzy

Fantastic Suzy!!!!
I WILL stick to my plan for today,only 2 starchy carbs and no food after 7pm.
I did very well yesterday but had a handful of chips at 9pm. I want to quit the evening snack!!
I will check back later, H

Good Morning Holly and Suzy! Your challenges look great. I do think we should report back the next day as to how we did with that challenge that we set for ourselfs.

I think others can use the same challenge that we post for ourselfs, or make up one for themselves. What do you think? I think the reasoning behind a daily challenge and reporting back is what it important here, that reasoning is so that we stay on track EACH Day. Agree?

I also wanted to Welcome Samantha to our board.

My challenge for the day is that I want to start journaling again. I bought a small notebook that will fit in my purse so I can write whenever I have time to do it. My challenge is to make that time. Along with that challenge I'm going to answer a question relating to my weight-loss effort. For me it's not all about food but what is going on with me mentally.

So my journal question for today is: I want to think of my body in a positive light. Even if it's something that I want to change. So my journal challenge today is to name that body part and to write about it in a postive way. I'll let you know tomorrow what that was.

Ok..everyone..let's get rolling on challenging ourselfs!

Good Morning, Good Morning!!

I really missed reading all the posts this weekend. Great news ladies. WI - down another 2.5 for a total so far of 12. Not bad for 3 weeks of SB. I am so excited. Reached my first mini-goal of 250. Looking forward to my next mini-goal of 225. I went to my brother's house for dinner last night. They are doing SB also. His GF fixed baked chicken with mushrooms, grilled squash and zucchini, salad, oh and served shrimp and nuts as an appetizer. It was all very good, I felt like I was cheating, but all was legal. Managed to make the no bake cookies with splenda, natural peanutbutter, rolled oats, ICBINB, etc. They are marvelous! Didn't put the cocoa in them as I don't care for chocolate at all. Brought two little ones to eat with lunch. YUMMY!!

I love the challenge. I am in. Limit breads and starchy carbs to 2 a day, and nothing after dinner. I love the challenges. It keeps me on my toes.

Another bright sun shiney day here in Indy! Wish I was out in it rather than in my office.

Keep smilin'

Annie

Well, I have had my 2 serving of starchy carbs at breakfast and snack. It is lean protein and veggies all day for me!!!! I have ripe tomatoes in the garden,finally. I will eat those for lunch.
Wish me perseverence and luck!

Good for you Annie~literally.What wonderful success.

Have fun with the Journal~Susie.

Suzi~ hope you are sticking to it!! sounds like a good plan.

Sign me up for the race
 

Of course for me it seems more like a marathon. I've been coming to 3fc for quite a while now. Mainly lurking and sometimes posting to the journals. Just joined the forums last week for the Halloween Challenge and think they are just GREAT!! Right now my main goal is to get below 200. I am pretty much just starting out (again). I've decided that the best way for me is to make daily goals for myself. Weekly just aren't working so if I make myself daily goals in my journal every night and then check back to compare the next night that is my best answer. Food wise I don't think I do too badly. Main downfall is I hate eating breakfast or any set meals for that fact, but have been trying to force myself. Before I wouldn't eat anything for breakfast or lunch and then when dinner came around I would eat like a wildwoman - but no more. I am trying to eat breakfast, bringing lunch to work and working on my dinnertime portions. It's all about portion control and controlling the speed in which I eat for me. I also have to get into the whole exercise thing. My goal for today is to get moving. no more sitting around watching tv. Get out there and do something so after work I am going to the lake to walk. Anyway, glad to join yous. I hope I can add something to this group, I know just from reading through so far that I have so much to learn. Thank everyone!!! :wave:

((((((((lauralynn))))))))))))) I am sorry you feel so sad.
I am 50lbs heavier than when I got married.I was never thin but fit and curvy. My husband has never, not once ,even come close to alluding to or commenting on my weight.We have amazing,mindblowing sex weekly if not more.We are affectionate.He doesn't tell me what to do about my weight but will listen when I talk about my plans and struggles.I am thankful for this every day.
What your husband does sounds cruel.
You are a beautiful woman(from your pic) on the outside AND beautful on the inside from how you write.Your weight really shouldn't have anything to do with your marriage at all.
You need to be strong and take care of yourself and everything will fall into place.
Hope this makes sense.

For the challenge~ you can pick your own daily challenge. Just post it here and let us (and you) know how you did each day.
Take care, sweety.I feel a lot of compassion for your struggles.Never apologize for your thoughts and words. This is all here to help you work it out.
((((((((((((((((more hugs)))))))))))))))))))))))

Hey LL...I am proud of you!!! First off, you are eating well and moving despite your tempting environment. The weight will come off, so don't get discouraged with the weekend gain. The scale isn't always the most accurate source of results.

Kudos to you for being so open. I know you touched on several things that I have expereinced or thought about. And I'm sure that's the case with many others on here. Believe me, this negative energy will change! You have inspired me in the short time we have talked. I know this will only continue. You have a lot of your plate now (no pun intended) and I know you are being very thoughtful and deliberate as you sort out things. So just hang in there....and continue to give yourself all the love and attention that you deserve.

I'm here for you!!!

Ang

.....I'm looking forward to hearing your cd!! :)

Good Evening Ladies,
I hope everyone is meeting their challenges for the day. I have succeeded on 2 out of the three that I set for myself. My eating stunk today but I drank, cleaned, and walked to and from bus stop. Tomorrow my challenge will be the same. Plan my menu, drink water, and walk/clean.
LauraLynn- I am so sorry that you do not have a supportive atmosphere at home but you do have all the support and caring that you could ever ask for right here. Please remember that you are a terrific person worthy of taking care of yourself. We are with you all the way.
Welcome Kelly- We are all setting daily goals each morning and reviewing progress the next morning. Please join right in.
Susie-Journaling is a great daily goal and I love your idea about getting a more positive picture of yourself. We have to like ourselves enough to take care of ourselves and lose this weight.
Holly- We are going to do this!
Annie- Great, great news on the loss. Congrats! You are an inspiration to me. Your upbeat posts are a pleasure to read.
Have a great night all.
Suzy

Hello Everyone: I didn't get a chance to get back on line last night, but it's nice to see that you all were here talking care of each other.

LauraLynn: I just want to give you a hug (((huggg))). I'm very lucky that my husband has always been very kind to me, thick or thin. Just remember that you are worth the effort you are putting in for yourself. Also remember that we are here for you. So, pour your heart out when you need to.

Also, just because you are overweight, doesn't mean that you aren't attractive. I'm a good 40 lbs heavier than one of my best girlfriends, but I'm confident in myself and that is a very attractive quality (I'm told). I know that when we go out about every two months to go dancing, I get a lot of attention. She calls me a man magnet! Lol.

Suzy: Thanks for being so honest that you had troulbe with one of your goals. I think it's hard to admit those things...to ourselfs, much less to a group. But you did great on the other goals and I bet your eating wasn't that bad. We are usually our worst critic. Anything we can do to help you with your eating better goal?

Ang: Nice to see your post. How are you doing?

Holly: How did you do on the carb goal? You are such a wonderful person and an inspiration to me. You are always here when we need you.

Annie:This SB diet is so good for you. I'm glad you found it for yourself and that it is working so well. Thank you so much for all your positive energy. How did you do with the carbs?

Ok...my goal was to journal. I tell you ladies, I didn't get it done until 10:30 last night! and if I hadn't told you all I would, I know it wouldn't have gotton done.

I picked my stomach to focus on. Here's my journal entry: I can't believe how much stomach I have! I see those flat abs on others and I think there is no way I'll ever get mine back. Why? Age, to many surgerys, but I can get the fat off it. It can be smaller, and I can tone it. Even though there are things I don't like about my stomach, I'm greatful that I do have a waist there! I keep thinking that when I get this weight off, I'll be curvy again..and that's what I want. Curvy..like Beyonce! I'm also greatful that my stomach doesn't give me healthy problems. I know a lot of people who eat and then have problems because there stomach doesn't digest things the way it should. Mine works just fine in that area. I also think I have a cute belly botton. ha! ha!

My goal today is to journal again. I'm going to try to picture myself at my next goal, which is to be at 229 by Thanksgiving. I'll write about that. Also, I'm going to make sure I include my abs into my workout tonight. I am so bad because I usually skip them. Well, skipping them won't help me to tone them, now with it?

I'll check in later. Have a good day. Be kind to yourself and dream and plan!

Mornin'
I didn't quite reach my goals . I had a small serving of pasta at dinner. I did NOT eat after 7 pm. This is still a pretty big success for me. I will maintain the same goals for today since this is where I struggle and I didn't quite do it.
I had a hard day( you could read my journal entry on this site) and it seems a rough few days. Lots of change going on in our household and the troops seem to be balking at it.
HUGS to everyone. What wonderful inspiring posts from all!!!!!!!!!
Have a glorious OP day.

Good Morning To Everyone! What a neat day to be alive!!

Laura Lynn - There is no one more important to you, than you, make yourself a priority. My heart goes out to you as I came from a VERY verbally abusive childhood and a very verbally abusive marriage, which just ended last year after 21 years of hearing the same kind of negative comments. I was beat down to the gutter. You area beautiful person inside and out. Don't ever forget that. Take on a positive attitude, keep smiling, it does help and when you project a positive attitude, you will be surprised how easily it comes after a while. It has taken a lot of praying and remembering to be positive, to get up and out of this gutter I was beat down into. You are doing the right thing by taking care of you. I will keep you in my thoughts daily and hope for the best.

Suzy - congrats on the keeping most of your goals for yesterday. What an inspiration, as I ate too many of the carbs. Drinking the water does help, I can tell the days I do not, I feel fat. Isn't that strange?

Kelly - Welcome to the SB board. Great to have you. Come and post as often as you like. I love to read others successes and downs, as we are all here to support each other.

Holly - Great idea. Ok, my challenge for today, to drink all my water and to move for at least 20 minutes, if not longer. Thanks for the boost.

Samantha - Welcome, I don't remember welcoming you to our wonderful world of support. This is a great bunch of ladies. Enjoy!

Susie - I loved your your journal entry about your stomach. I related to it so much, I could of written it. What a marvelous entry and a great idea. I look forward to your next body part story.

Ladies...I didn't do so well yesterday. I ate OP, but ate too much OP. Those dang SB no bake cookies are so good. I will NOT make any more of those. I ate so many, I am concerned with not losing this week. HOWEVER, I am back on track today and going to be great at this. I even plan to move my body toward exercise.

Everyone have a wonderful, OP day! Stay focused. Be happy!

Annie

I stole this from another post on this website. Go to this site and read this article, it is very good.

http://health.yahoo.com/health/cent.../_20031137.html

A new day a new goal
 

Well, I didn't meet my goals that I set for myself for yesterday. I did great food wise. Didn't eat over at all. I drank 4 32oz bottles of water (128 oz). I didn't exercise though. I had planned on going for a walk at the park after work and that didn't work. BF started his BS and instead of getting into an argument with him I just went home. He told me he wouldn't help me with this, but I didn't think he would be this much of a jerk. Anyway - my goal for today is to walk for 30 to 45 minutes and to do the 20 minutes exercises that I found in magazine. I just won't talk to him until after I get home and he can't start a fight!! Good luck with all your goals today!!

Hello Everyone,
How did you do with your goals yesterday? If you met them, GREAT, if not...it's a brand new day!

I did my ab work last night. And I wrote a short journal entry. Basically, I wrote about how posting to the board and sharing our thoughts is so encouring to me. My goals for today are: journal, deep some deep breathing thoughtout the day and to not slump when I stand or sit; to hold my abs in. I'm really bad about sitting like a bag of potatoes!

Looking forward to hearing from everyone today!

Afternoon Ladies,
I once again did not stick to my goals completely but did manage to maintain some control. Not a total failure.I ate about a 1/4 potato at supper. And I made and canned salsa last night and had a few crackers sampling it.I weigh in tonight at TOPS. We started a new contest last week and if you have a gain you get bumped out.The prize in the end is an exercise ball and tape.
I ordered the WATP dvd and it should be here soon. I have been thinking about it for months. My food is really under control so it is time to move more. I HATE sweating so I need to embrace the sweat!
My goals for today are the same again ( until I get it right) 2 starchy carbs a day and no food after 7pm.

Susie~ great workout.You made me sit right up. I am definitely a sack of potatoes. I did some yoga today. I was feeling tight.

LauraLynn~ you are brave to be so honest. Hopefully it will bring you healing.Sending some healing ,peaceful energy your way!

How's everyone else doing?

I have to get to a client meeting in a few so this is going to be quick. Didn't reach my goal of walking last night. When i got home to change I realized I had locked my keys in the laundry room downstairs and I had to call bf to come home and open the door so with him home i didn't have a chance to go walking. Food and water were right on yesterday. Actually dinner time I wasn't even hundry at all so I had an orange. BF took me out for a drink last night and then when we got home I guess you can say I got my exercise in another form than walking!! I can deal with that!! Well gotta go. Wish I had time to reply to others. Hopefully tomorrow.

Good afternoon all.....what a wacky wednesday.....got my directors out the door to Denver, so I thought I would write.

I have met some goals for today, not all, trying to eat OP but not as much OP, if you know what I mean. So far so good. All the stinkin no bake cookies are gone, so maybe this week won't be a total bust. Hope to at least stay the same this week, as those cookies were my down fall. Dang it.

I know we can beat this wicked weighty witch. Keep on reaching for the stars!!

Annie

Hi,
I got a minute to check in this afternoon.

Laura: You have been through a lot girl! Have you ever seen talked to any one professionally about all you have been through. I'd say you are one tough gal...you made it through all of that...so I know you can and will meet any goal you set before yourself.

As for setting the same goal..by all means, I'll race you...and I'll run beside you to....we can cross the finish line together and if you get there before me, yell real loud that I can do it and cheer me own...I'll do the same if need be!

Holly: You are doing fantastic, even if you aren't meeting your goal excatly as you set them. You are learning something more important..how to live and deal with it and go on...what a wonderful lesson..and I would say it's something we will all must learn to do, if we want to keep our weight off once we reach our goal..and WE ALL WILL MEET OUR GOAL!

Sparked: I'd say that your "alternative" excercise worked out just fine! :o
:lol: I'd opt for that any and every time!!

I tell you girls, this sitting up and standing up straight is taking a lot of work. Not easy at all..I've been a slumper for years...but every time that sit up straight..I feel the energy flowing there. Feels good.

Keep trying for those goals!

Hi Girls,
It is nice to see so much activity here. I have been busy and I've been avoiding a bit. I can not seem to get control of my eating. Every day I set out with my mind in the right place and before I know it I am binging. It is usually not junk food just real food. I have made changes in my eating in the past month or two but I am even overeating on them. I switched from real mayo to light mayo, white bread to high fiber multigrain bread, butter to smart balance, real cheese to reduced fat cheese, soda to water, seltzer, or diet decaf iced tea, etc. I know these are all positive changes and I am moving more also. The bus stop walk and making myself more active around the house is helping. But the eating thing is way out of control. I recently started making quesadillas for me and my family. The kids love them. Realizing that they are very fattening, I bought the tiny 98% fat free tortillas, reduced fat cheddar and mozzarella and cook them in Pam. All good changes right? Well, I figured I would make one with a salad for lunch or a dinner. Even two would not be bad at all. Nope, not me. I eat 2 at lunch AND 2 more late afternoon. That's what I mean about binge. Normal portions are just not good enough. I never feel full. I just want to eat like a normal person. I can be fat or it can take forever to lose this weight if I could have some sense of portion control or any self control for that matter. I can rationalize all of this out to have a positive spin by saying that at least two sandwiches on high fiber/multigrain light bread with light mayo are better than 2 sandwiches on white bread with regular mayo but the truth is I have no control regardless of what I eat. Sorry to be such a bummer today I'm just pissed at myself and feeling more like a failure with every minute. I thought that if I "confessed" maybe it would help. My daily goal has changed. It is now to:
1. Exhibit self control over eating at least one time during the day.
2. Explore lack of self control through journaling.
Thanks for listening everyone.
LauraLynn- I really admire your openness. I hope that it helps you. You have inspired me to be more open as well. It kills me to think that you let your hubby sabotage your efforts with the cupcakes. You are more important than to allow that. Men can be very insecure you know. Just because he says mean things and treats you badly doesn't mean that he isn't afraid that you will lose all the weight and attract tons of attention from men who value you as a beautiful human being. Keeping you fat might just be his twisted way of keeping the good thing he has with you cooking and cleaning for him. I don't know if that makes sense or not. I just know that sometimes bullies are bullies because of their own insecurities.
Susie- Great job meeting your daily goals. You have inspired me to try journaling too.
Holly- You are doing great even if you aren't totally meeting the goal you set for yourself. Good luck with the WI and let me know how you like the WATP dvd. I have been thinking about it for a while.
Annie- You are doing so well. I really enjoy your positive attitude. I do that thing like the cookies too. I will make or find a snack that fits right into my plan but then eat too much of it which defeats the whole purpose. Then I can't have that food around anymore. Pretty soon I won't be able to keep one single solitary morsel of food in this house. Lol.
Kelly-Alternative exercise is still exercise in my book. Great job not eating over argument with bf.
Have a great night all.
Suzy

Hello Everyone,
I met my goals yesterday. No, I didn't hold my abs in all day, but I did think about it a lot and tried to keep my posture straight.

My goal today is to stay calm! Tonight is my first night of class. I'm taking Accounting this quarter. I'm always a little uptight about starting back to school. Numbers are not my strong suit, so I'm a little anxious. This has caused my IC (Interstitial Cystitis) to flare up a little bit. It hurts! and I keep feeling like I'm going to have to "go" all the time. I'm hoping this calms down sometime today.

Suzy: The journaling is a good way to see what's "eating" you. Someone once told me that when you are pushing down food, you are really pushing down an emotion that you don't want to feel. Maybe with that thought in mind you could journal about that and start exploring why you want to eat more than you think you should.

Also, if you are truly hungry (and you might be!) be sure to have some sort of protein with your meal or snack. I was told it helps to keep hunger away.

I hope everyone else is doing good. Set those goals for yourself. We are worth the effort!

OH Suzy~ I am in the same boat. Since June I have been seriously changing my eating habits.I have learned by journalling that I had some buried stuff to let go.I didn't lose a single lb until August. I am down a few but am hovering again.I do feel the food is in control so now I will focus on getting moving. That had to be what is missing.I live on a busy highway so I need to drive, to go for a walk in town.I am thinking the WATP will help.I can do it with kids here.

Susie~ great goal!!

Kelly, Annie, LauraLynn~ hope you had success yesterday and meet your goals for today!

My goal will be the same and I will try to stay calm. I did some yoga yesterday to release some tension. I will aim for that today too.

I journal every day on this site.That is where I pour my heart out. It really keeps me from imploding and binging.It is so wonderful to release stuff and hopefully put it behind you.

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Happy Thursday to All!!

Got a late start on the day and have been behind all day. Shuuu Weeee!

Our state fair had all those fried things too, I didn't get to the fair this year, but a couple of guys I work with said they tried the fried oreo and said it was very good. You might try holding out as long as you can before indulging into the "bad" food. Maybe then you won't eat as much. Just a thought.

I didn't do well with my goals yesterday, but doing better so far today. Just trying to not eat as much OP food as I have been, I feel I won't have a loss this week, and will do good too stay the same. On to kicking butt with the beach. YEAH!! Eating a big salad for lunch right now and getting full. That should help. However, as mention before by others in here, my evenings are the worst. I need to find something, say like exercise, to take up my time. Or even a walk. ANYTHING to move would be great.

My son got hurt pretty badly in football practice yesterday, so I was up tending to him most of the night. Poor baby, he really whammed his shoulder, the trainer said it should of knocked his shoulder out of the socket, but instead just crammed it all into his neck and shoulder blade area. Very painful.

Here is onto a brighter and better on program day! I know I can do this! and so can you! One baby step at a time to a slimmer you. AMEN.

Hugggggs to all....annie
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Hey everyone :)

I am fairly new to this site. All of you are such a great encouragment to me. Its nice to know that there are other fat chicks ;) that can relate.

I have been going up and up and up for years now. I never could lose that extra 15 lbs I gained after my babies were born and I have 5 kids. :yikes:
In Dec. of 2001, five weeks after my son was born, my daughter was diagnosed with cancer and I ate to comfort and sooth my emotions. I put on about 50 pounds. I was on an extreme roller coaster ride from **** :devil: . I'm definetly an emotional eater :( ...forward 3 yrs, an anti-depressant and 1 year that my daughter has been out of treatment and doing wonderful :)
My breaking point was when I put my size 20 shorts on and my rolls were being pushed up so much I thought I was wearing a push-up bra around my waist. I thought to myself, "There is no way I'm going up a size", not to mention I no longer noticed the person in the mirror looking back at me. I then decided to not only change the way I ate, but the way I think as well.
I was athletic as a teenager but life has crept up on me, putting others before myself and making that my excuse not to exercise or eat right. NO MORE OF THAT!! :D
The difference is this time I'm all out of excuses and tired of being a fatty. This is something I want for me. I know that if I have that fattening dish it's only going to hurt my goal and that is choice I make. I know that if that devilish side of me says, "I don't want to exercise" I do it anyway. Self defeating behaviour and talk are the things that keep us all from being the person we want to be. So to all the other wonderful ladies out there that find themselves struggling or thinking this is too hard, I say WE CAN DO IT~!!! Many things may get in our path but we can step over them, shove them to the side or dodge them alltogether. ;)

Good luck to each of you!! :goodluck:

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WELCOME Wildblue Yonder,

You will love it here, post any time. This place is great for support!

Annie

My day yesterday was interesting.
I was OP all day and had a good morning with my kids and got them on the bus without incident. I had 2 toddlers here all day. They were great and when they napped I got lots of housework done and did some yoga.When the kids got off the bus they were both incredibly tired,crabby and whining.It was the meet the teacher picnic at 5pm.I was afraid to take them because they were so off.Anyhow, it went alright. A couple of meltdowns from my son.I got fantastic reports about both kids.Hubby met us there .He was edgy and confrontational. He has been having troubles with a guy at work and it has been consuming him.Hard for the rest of us. He and our son butt heads until bed. I was exhausted ands totally drained.Every night for a week now when everyone goes to bed I sit a tremble with stress and frustration. It takes every fibre of my being not to scream and flip on the whole lot of them.None of this is my issue but I am the one left to take care of it all.I hate it. Normally I would eat and eat til bedtime. I haven't been doing it but it is VERY hard.
I know these issues are small potatoes. I have been through much worse and dealt with things fairly well.I think the constantness is wearing me out.
My son came in to me this morning and proceeded to kick, whine and argue with me berfore I really opened my eyes. Then I heard a loud crash and a scream. I went running to my daughter and she was on the floor pinned under her bookshelf.She was climbing it to get a bunny.It scared ther crap out of all of us.
This how most days begin.with some type of total chaos.
Today I am being interviewed by a DR. Ours is retiring. There are no Drs. available but I found one who might take us on. I truly dont know how you raise and care for children without are a fammily physician. I am nervous about it.
Off to put one miserable little boy on the bus.

Good Morning Everyone and Happy Friday,
Yesterday was a little better with the eating but I still overate. I did meet my goal by exhibiting self control over some reduced fat Wheatable crackers and garlic and herb whipped cream cheese. That was my lunch and I could have eaten more and more but stopped myself. The portion I did eat was probably still too much but at least I stopped. I also stopped at dinner with my pasta and homemade tomato sauce but I overate on way too many string cheeses and duplex cookies. Sad to say but that's improvement. I didn't physically journal but I did think an awful lot and came to a few insights. My goal for today is to remain acutely aware of my portions and remind myself of what is "normal". Have a great day all.
Suzy

Well, the scales weren't kind to me last night I really thought I was going to be down, but I gained .75 lbs. I know it's not a lot, but I really wanted them to go down. I think maybe my IC flare had something to do with it. Because I really felt like I had lost. Oh, well. I'll get it next week.

I'm feeling better today. I was able to stay calm during the day. (A lot of prayer helped!) I try to be positive about this disease that I have. I know a lot of other women who live in pain with it everyday. And I'm a lot better than I was last Jan. It's just that when those days come, it really gets me down. I think it's because I have to manage it everyday. I take a lot of meds for it, and I've had to change a lot of my lifestyle to be able to function with it. But I keep praying and I keep doing the things that I know help me to feel better. I can't just give up!


On a positive note, I went to my Accounting class last night and I'm sort of excited about it. Numbers and math scare me..so it's going to be good to learn the therory's behind Accounting and I've learned in life that when you confront something it's not so scary anymore. I'm really trying to overcome things in my life that intemidate me and hold me back.

Holly:You did well to not eat when you were stressed out by all that was going on. Good luck with interviewing the doctor.

Annie: How's your son feeling. How did you do on those goals you set for yourself?

Laura: Feel free to be "real" anytime. I feel like we all need to be more open and honest, most of all to ourselfs. It's scary to do that sometimes isn't it? i know I am. But I'm trying to work on that.

Welcome to Wild Blue.

If I missed anyone, I'm sorry to have missed you.

I've got to get busy at work. The mail just got here..time to go and sort it.

My goal today is to be more positive about things I can't control. I'm going to journal about that and I'll let you know how it comes out.

To continue.....
I did not eat supper last night and I had a small snack around 8:30.I dont remember ever missing a meal in my life but I just was not hungry.I am not hungry this morning either. I may wait it out until I feel some real hunger.

Suzy~ I am with you on the cream cheese and crackers. I think you did very well to stop. I also eat a healthy diet and OP food all the time but tend to over do it. Portions, portions, portions.

((((((HUGS, SUSIE))))))))))) You ARE doing well and you are positive and motivating!!!

My goal for today to to be at peace with my family.

Good Friday morning everyone. The last few days have been so busy here at the office and my home computer is down so this is my first chance to write. I've been doing alright food wise. Last night bf and Iwent to dinner at a great steak place. I didn't do too bad. Didn't order an appetizer and had a small steak with broiled scallops. Instead of the loaded baked potato (3 cheeses, bacon and scallions = yummy) I had the rice pilaf. I finished my plate, but it was worth it. Plus for breakfast I had 1 piece of toast with pb and a cup of cantaloupe and lunch was just a roastbeef on pumpernickel sandwich and water so I really don't feel bad about finishing my plate. Still haven't exercised but I am purchasing the WATP tapes this weekend. Then I don't have to worry about waking up before bf goes to work to go walking I can do it after he leaves. I'm up to make his lunch every day anyway so now I just won't go back to sleep until it's time to get d ready for school and me ready for work.
I haven't had a chance to read through any entries yet. I wanted to make sure I got a chance to write before chaos happens (selfish of me, huh!) I hope everyone is doing well and meeting goals. I'm not being too hard on myself for goals today because Fridays are bf and my night out to indulge in alcoholic beverages while d is with her father. So my goal will be not to order chicken wings or philly cheesesteak to bring home from the bar. Off to read some posts!!! Happy Friday everyone!!