Weigh in every day challenge - Day 5 completed No eating during the night - Day 5 in progress
I weigh the exact same as yesterday at 156.6 but I'm still feeling good because I was totally expecting the crazy losses to stop or slow down. I did actually eat a little more than I would have liked to yesterday too. Anyway so I'm staying on plan going to try and have a great, healthy day today.
Didn't eat anything last night. I think it's very slowly becoming a habit. Well it's given me a boost in confidence anyway, just knowing I'm not stuck and can change if I want to.
Redballoon, for almost finishing the no alcohol challenge!
And yeah I was eating a lot of salty and sugary things before. I feel better already just for cutting back a lot. I totally agree with what you said about only realising what you're really doing to yourself until you stop. It's funny how that works.
Well, last night was a wash and I didn't even enjoy it after a while. Bad choice to go out drinking. I'm just so discouraged. Anyhow, I won't go into it here.
And now I'm sitting here crying because I just don't understand how I can not be losing weight. I really have been good and yet nothing seems to budge. And I look horrible. What is going on? I feel cursed.........
Eat Clean Challenge -- Round 2 Day 12 completed, 1 pause left
No Alcohol Challenge -- Day 20 completed, 3 pauses taken
Well, I finally got out in the neighborhood to go to the store. I WILL keep trying. I am craving sweets, not just the sweet taste but real sugar. Not good. I feel like bingeing. Maybe it's pms. Maybe that's the reason for the lack of weight loss and even gain. But it's hard to tell these days...getting old and all.
Still, I am sick of my moping around etc. Maybe I just need to get out and really sweat, something I haven't been doing. I go to the gym and do weight training and then try to walk. But it's just not enough. I will keep at it. I will. I will.
Went for another walk, feel a little better now. Still craving sweets or something. Don't really know why....God, this is hard. It's SO tempting to just go back and enjoy myself by eating lots of junk....sigh. But I need to hang on today because I still have 10 days left on the eat clean challenge and only one pause left.
I can finish the alcohol challenge today and will for sure....
Didn't eat anything last night. I think it's very slowly becoming a habit. Well it's given me a boost in confidence anyway, just knowing I'm not stuck and can change if I want to.
Glad to hear you're doing it, Dianee! Good for you!!
Weigh every day Challenge - Day 6 completed No eating during the night - Day 6 in progress
Up 0.2 pounds today to 156.8 which I knew would happen so I'm not disappointed. Just need to be consistent and things should get going again.
Ate nothing last night. It's definitely getting easier to break the habit.
Redballon, sorry to hear things aren't happening at the moment. Just remember that it's better to be trying and not be getting anywhere (temporarily) than it is to not be trying at all. Never let yourself give up.
And wooohooo for finishing the no alcohol challenge!!
Well, I got through the day and what a wash it was. My only real day off these days and I waste it totally in depression instead of really getting out and trying to make a difference by exercising hard and making progress. It's just that I feel I have been doing this all along and nothing happens. I had better start logging all food and exercise to try to get a better pictuer of things.
Eat Clean Challenge -- Round 2 Day 13 completed, 1 pause left
No Alcohol Challenge -- Day 21 completed, 3 pauses taken -- CHALLENGE COMPLETED!!!!!
I will start another alcohol challenge and continue with the eating clean challenge. I hate to make a journaling challenge because I really hate "having" to do one more thing, but it may be necessary. Will stealth it at first and see how it goes....
************** Dianee -- You're really doing well. I can't say anything about the scale since I am in a far worse situation. You had the loss in the beginning which was probably due to your body letting go of a lot of fluid (which LOOKS like fat and acts like fat so is JUST AS GOOD ) and now will come the hard part of the fat loss, which as you can see from me, is often slow and painful. I hope you lose more easily than I seem to do.
I am just too disgusted with everything and don't think I can continue on...but, I will try. I will try to take my mind off the whole thing WHILE STILL trying not to overeat and stuff.
Trying and not getting anywhere is just too much for me now. It's what is happening in every other aspect of my life and that's why it's bothering me so. If it were just the weight, I may not find it so horrible.
The other night out drinking was awful. My coworker, who I thought was a friend, laid into me something horrible with criticism. I think she was drunk but if that's the way she gets when she's drunk I don't need it. So, that was a real shock and sent me into further depths along with all the other sh it happening in my life. OK, just wanted to get that off my chest...
Last edited by redballoon; 11-26-2011 at 05:46 PM.
I do tend to lose weight quite easily (if I have enough willpower to stick to healthy eating, that is, which isn't often!) but the thing is I gain it back insanely fast!! My main challenge is maintence rather than losing but I don't feel quite there yet.
Anyway sorry to hear there's so much going on in your life which is stressing you out!! Keep up the fighting spirit and keep going. If you keep fighting you'll feel so much better in the long run. You may not be losing at the moment but you've made a commitment to living a healthier life and that's an accomplishment in itself. It'll happen for you with persistence (at least that's what I tell myself if I'm stuck).
Thanks, Dianee. You have a great attitude. I need to get out and do things I enjoy but the work has kept me from everything. So, when I have some free time I tend to just hang around my room and that's the worst thing because it doesn't take me away mentally from the problems, which is what I need most.
Well, off to the racetrack today for a big race and more work. I will try to stay away from the post-race drinking and realize it is NOT my friend even though it feels like it at the time.
My weight is WAY up today because I ate a lot of salty things yesterday and overate in general. Then, late in the evening I had a big salad. I need to set some other goals, something that has nothing to do with weight loss. I mean, heck, I should start worrying about improving my life even if I'm overweight. It's not all about weight, after all. In fact, since I'm not unhealthily obese, it's not really a problem at all. I just get hung up on "getting what I want" and that ruins everything else. OK, analysis finished!!
Weigh every day Challenge - Day 7 completed No eating during the night - Day 7 in progress
156.0 today so down 0.8 from yesterday, have a feeling that it will go up again tomorrow though.
Wasn't tempted at all to eat last night which is a good feeling. If I don't eat later... I mean when I don't eat later, that'll be one week without giving into my little habbit.
Redballoon, you should definitely start other goals which are nothing to do with weight loss. They may actually help you out in an indirect way because you'll hopefully end up less stressed out and you'll be able to lose weight more easily because of that.
This really doesn't work for me (but it may for you because we're all different) but perhaps you could try not weighing yourself for a week or a month just so you can get on track nicely without being worried about numbers.
You're right saying you should never get too hung up on weight loss. A happy life should be everyone's first priority. Just hang in there and it should get easier.
Awww i'm sorry to hear that. I hope you can find the strength to pick yourself up again in the future. Don't be too hard on yourself right now because you're obviously going through a very hard time. Hope it gets better.
Dianee, don't worry. That was posted way too early in the morning to be thinking straight. I will be back. Having a binge here and then it's back on track...better and improved though....
Ok, I have atoned for my sins and am coming back with more of the same. I think I may have been too hard on myself in that I didn't release the right rein I had kept on myself for nearly six weeks. And, since I had added the alcohol challenge too I really was doing a lot. OK, so I may not have seen great results weight-wise but actually I did see results. I was just not looking at the whole. I have a lot of upper body muscle now and it looks good, but the fat and loose skin around my midsection was what I was focusing on. In fact, it was loose because I had lost weight but it just didn't have time to bounce back. I realize it may not do that since I'm older now but so what, I don't want to go out on the beach in a bikini anyhow. Also, I know I was retaining water and that makes me look like jelly. So, I am just going to go at it again!!
So, here are the challenges! I am considering two of them (alcohol and cigs) as stealth because I've not had either for a couple days (since Sunday) and I really wanted to smoke yesterday but didn't!
Eat Clean Challenge (this means no processed foods, no white sugar, no white bread. I will allow a little white rice if I really have to, but I should prepare so I don't "have to." This also means no deep-fried foods and no rice crackers. These were things that I was allowing before because they seemed borderline) Day 0 completed, 3 pauses left
No Alcohol Challenge (this will take effort because I am going to Hong Kong and there is always a lot of free alcohol around and there will be a lot of yearend parties over the next few weeks.) Day 2 completed, as few pauses as possible, max 3 allowed)
No Smoking Challenge -- Day 2 completed, no pauses allowed (I have to be serious about this. It is connected to health. How can I work out and do cardio if my lungs are compromised!?!?)
Write It All Down Challenge (just what it says. I hate writing things down but I have to because otherwise I have nothing to look back on when I feel I've done "so much!" Day 0 completed, no pauses allowed.
Oh, and ONE MORE!!! I was looking at all these very difficult challenges and I know I can do them. I have done them before. BUT, I need to do something that I rarely do and don't get from anyone other than my cyber friends. I need to acknowledge my effort and my accomplishments and lavish myself with praise. So...
Effort Recognition Journal (And I must write something every day and it must ONLY be positive. Even if I took a pause, it must recognize that I did it so that I could continue in the long run or whatever....) Day 0 completed, no pauses
I am clear on ALL the challenges. The no-smoking one was tough, but I did it.
I was walking along and thinking how tough things were and then I thought, heh, why don't I just change my thinking and say, "it's not tough. It's something I want to do." And that was like a lightbulb going on. Because when I WANT to do something, there is no stopping me!! I may have found my mantra!!
Eat Clean Challenge Day 1 completed, 3 pauses left
No Alcohol Challenge Day 3 completed, as few pauses as possible, max 3 allowed)
No Smoking Challenge -- Day 3 completed, no pauses allowed
Write It All Down Challenge Day 1 completed, no pauses allowed.
Effort Recognition Journal Day 1 completed, no pauses
Well it's given me a boost in confidence anyway, just knowing I'm not stuck and can change if I want to.
for almost finishing the no alcohol challenge!
Good for you!! 
challenge completed!!!
) and now will come the hard part of the fat loss, which as you can see from me, is often slow and painful. I hope you lose more easily than I seem to do. 
Day 0 completed, no pauses allowed.
lightbulb time! let's hope it lasts!
