Cheryl, I hope Jake's boo-boo is better! Trips to the ER are fun with kids! Don't feel bad, it is better to be overly cautious then to have something serious happen and not know it. We have paid some pretty hefty ER bills in our time but it was worth it for the peace of mind.
Please continue to pray for mom, she has been in hospital twice in last two weeks. First was internal bleeding from her blood thinners, that is stable now. On saturday we went to visit her and she was in a lot of pain, dad took her in later that night, she has fractured her ribs from sleeping on her side that night. She has ostio from taking predizone in the spring. They gave her high doses to keep her lungs from shutting down and now she is paying the price. The cancer is running through her body quickly, she looks so tiny and old. It breaks my heart to see her and even to hear her voice on the phone. This is so hard to go through. My mind keeps wandering and thinking of mom dying. We don't how long she has as she hasn[t seen the specialist yet that will be early next week. Please pray for her and my family as we struggle through this.
Dee, you and your family are constantly in my prayers. I love you!
Janice, Jake is better now, although I am going to have to stop letting Stewart take him anywhere alone--he took him back to his mom & dad's house Sunday and Jake fell off a riding lawn mower (which was, luckily, sitting still). He came away with two scrapes on his forehead. Poor baby--he's going to get scars early at this rate.
Dee, praying God will comfort you in this time. May God wrap his loving arms around your mother, guide her and ease her pain and suffering.
There is a song: Shepherd me, O God, you can probably find it on the net. The music is haunting but seems to fill me with peace. I hope it can do the same for you.
Isaiah 41:10
Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
Gayle thank you for the verse and song. I looked up the song on utube. It is beautiful and did comfort me. From there I listened to other songs and one being my favorite was Ava Maria. My cousin sang that song at Aunty Sally's funeral (grand daughter to sally). Sally and I would go to church in PV and sometimes there was a guy at the cathedral that would sing it. I cried everytime. My grand mother also loved this song. My mom has picked two mexican songs for her funeral.
I just got off the phone with her. She wants to die and said that she isn't coming out of the hospital. I am not sure is she is right. I don't want her to suffer much more but I don't think the lord is taking her home yet. I will go visit her tonight.
Thanks Cheryl and Janice for the prayers. It does give me strength. Please continue to pray. This is by far the hardest thing I have done. It is hard to focus on the moment and not my mom dying but I am ttrying to get through this. I know that everyone has to die but it is hard for the living to let go.
Cheryl let us know how it goes. Your getting closer....
Gayle thanks for the prayers. My emotions are like a roller coaster. This last week my brother Garry and I have been planning mom's funeral with her. Today I am getting the music ready
Janice what are you up to? We haven't heard from you in awhile.
Shelley my dear come and post over here. Leave facebook games to tell us what is new in yhour life. We miss you.
My mom sees the oncologist this afternoon. Dez and my sis, and bro and dad went with her. I felt that there was enough people that I didn't go. We will see what she says but mom wants to die now. The morphine isn't controling her pain. this all seems surreal.
i don't know about you guys but we finally got summer about 3 weeks ago. It is nice and hot out. Too bad Larry took down our pool for good yesterday. The summer was so crappy I swam 4 times in my pool. Last year I think it was 6. We aren't home much so I think it is the best thing. When I am home I am swimming at the Y. If we really miss it we will put one in after a year of doing without.
Enjoy your day and tell the ones you love that you love them.
Dee, please let us know what the doctor told your mom today. Cancer is a horrible disease that takes everything from a person to the point they lose hope also. God bless your mom, dealing with the pain. Are they allowing her any treatment for pain control? Do you guys have Hospice set up to help out? I know it seems like alot of questions, just concerned... Prayers continue sweetie...
Dee - I can only imagize who you must be feeling. I am praying for you and your family. My heart is with you and breaks for your sadness.
We had wonderful weather last week, I was in the pool everyday. This week is much cooler, still sunny and nice just not pool weather.
I got two kittens on Sunday so have been working it out with Maggie and Angelica trying to keep them from being jealous. The girls don't have names yet. Any suggestions. One is black with white under her chin, and the other is gray with tabby stripes.
Cheryl - that little peanut is growing. How did the ultrasound go?
I am sitting here crying. I don't even know what to say.....thanks for the concern and love guys. This is the toughest thing that I have done.
Gayle I don't even know what hospice care is....is it palitive care? Mom is on morphine that is unlimited, she will be put on haldrol (sp?) for her mood. I am not sure if I like what it does to you. She is seeing things from the morphine and she is really tired. No good news yesterday. The dr said that it is estrogen based cancer and there is a pill for it but it takes two months to work. My sister was quite upset about that as they knew about mom's condition since spring but cause of summer holidays they didn't do anything about it. Basically what the dr is saying is that she has less than two months to live. She isn't eating and only drinking abit so I know it won't be long. She said that she is dying this week. After the meeting with the oncologist yesterday my dad, brother and Dez came over. Everyone was pretty upset. We did get the music ready for the funneral and other things were put into place. My mind doesn't let go of the fact that mom is dying and I can't stop thinking of it. I cry so many times in a day by myself cause no one else cries.
I just want to thank you for the continued support.
I went to see mom last night with Jason. this is the first time Jay went to see her. He is scared of hospitals and seeing Gramma sick. My dad ended up coming at the same time. We had a wonderful visit. She was happy and for the most part dealing with the pain very well. We even laughed and joked lots. It so hard to believe that the end is coming. I want to see her as much as possible when she is still herself and is realitively ok. I know that yesterday was a really good day and it might be different today but that is ok.
