hsmomx2 - thanks. I can't set goals anymore. I would like like 150. But I doubt it. I haven't really lost any weight in two years (only really gained), so I am trying not to set any more goals for disappointment. I would like to just be less. I am just trying to eat good and not worry about losing anything, though it is hard to not think about it :/ I do have a doctor's appointment for tomorrow to talk about my birth control and my struggles with losing weight and gaining it so easily. I doubt he will have any answers, but just to talk to a doctor might help me to feel better. I know one of my problems is weekends, I have a hard time staying on track... but I don't think that should make me gain weight when the rest of the week are perfect.
Unfortunately the family problems will not go away and I am just going to have to deal with them... or continue to try and ignore them. At least when I got the call this weekend I ate some pizza but would have otherwise. Earlier this year when the problems were really bad, like every other week I was a mess and my eating would just completely go down the drain for like a week. But now I guess I am just immune to them, LOL.
It's not that big of a deal, but I just wonder what it really does to me inside? like I hold it all in and don't really talk to anyone about it and wonder if it causing problems and I don't even know about it. I don't think it is effecting my weight too much anymore, but still - I am sure it causes some stress.
I am really not as depressed as this post sounds, in fact I feel pretty good. Just frustrated with what is going on... wish I could post about it, would probably feel better - but I don't feel comfortable posting all my family problems on the internet for strangers to read.
Wow, so many posts! I'm impressed! I don't really have time to do a full post. Just wanted to let you all know I am HOME from my last trip to Seattle - kind of sad to leave.. but soooo tired!! My brother's movers came at 8am, so I was up at 7:30 to shower and get my stuff out of the apt before they packed it! I will be back later.. or tomorrow.. and will reply!
I didn't get that valet job and I'm madder than a bull seeing red! They say I'm not qualified. How can I not be qualified for a job where the only qualifications are a valid driver's license?! Something stinks. I think the probably all male panel has a problem with a little lady parking cars. Also my friend says they might not have liked the fact that I don't have a Texas driver's license. I've been working for the VA for two damn years and you're telling me that I can't get the job because I have a valid DL from another state?! Are these people on crack?! *breathe* We'll see. I'll take this to the director of the hospital if I have to. I HAVE to get out of food service before I go crazy!
shari - that sucks about the job. But I do know jobs require you to have a valid license in the state you are currently residing in. I think the law says you have 30 days to change it. I remember when I had just moved to GA from CA, all the jobs I applied for stated that I needed a valid GA license. So I got that changed ASAP. That could have been the reason why they told you no.
aimee - sorry if you've said it already, but why is this your last trip to seattle??
courtnie - that sucks about your family. family does equal stress so that could be why you haven't been losing. But you most definitely cannot give up. You just have to keep with it. Dont set goals, just concentrate on eating right and moving more until it becomes second nature to you. And I bet when you least expect it, the scale and the inches will start flying off. Why not keeping a journal when you're feeling stressed? Since you say you hold stuff in too much. I know when I'm feeling like that I write it all down and it makes me feel a bit better.
hsmomx2 - how's it going with your points? lol I've gotten way better at tennis. I play with my bf and he taught me a lot. I'm going to be the next Jancovic!!! lol But yea it's fun and it keeps me moving. But I haven't gotten to play these last days because the weather has been gross. I'm sure you've seen it. Darn rain!! I hate rainy days. Especially when I'm itching to go out on the courts.
so I've been really bad with eating and the whole working out thing. Haven't made much of an effort. But I'm still going to keep on fighting the good fight. It ain't over til it's over, ya know? Since we moved I can't find my stinking SI6 dvds. But that's still no excuse for not getting physical. I have just been really lazy. I was planning on going to LA for Halloween since my aunt is throwing a halloween party and since I love Halloween, I wanted to go over and be with my family. WE'll see if it happens though. I don't have money but get this, my little sister said she'll buy my ticket. How sad is that? My 16 yr old sis who works at mcdonalds buying me a plane ticket? LOL whatever...it's not set it stone yet, but I do hope it happens.
Shari- What a bummer about the job. Hopefully something else will come along better.
Courtnie- I ditto Ro's suggestion of a journal to get it all out. I've done it a few times when I just felt nothing would ever go right. Hang in there! Vent when you need to, we're here for you.
Ro- I've only used about 10 out of my 27 points today. The a/c wasn't working well so I didn't really care for coffee to much. I've surely been chugging enough water. Tomorrow is weigh in for me. I hope its good this time around. We'll see. That would be great to go visit and spend time with your family. I bet you miss them alot.
Well, dh is home and going to work on fixing the a/c. Yay! Gotta to run for now. I hope to have time to check back in tonight after church.
Well, it's a good thing I had alot of points left for today. Dh chose to eat at Moe's tonight. I'm sure that's the most points I've ate in a meal this week and the night before weigh in. At least I did eat the nachos covered in cheese even though I wanted it.
I found out today that it wasn't the driver's license. So maybe the three guys didn't like my face. Whatever. That department has a huge turnover rate and Joseph (HR guy) told me that several people haven't accepted the position yet AND they are putting more positions on the board. He's been really nice to me, he's going to help me with my application for the next position. Hopefully another position will be open really, really soon. I need to be in a full time position by December so I can start school. I'm getting a temp roommate later on this week so I can save up money faster to get my computer! Hopefully by the end of this month! Miss you guys!
Shari - sorry to hear about the job, hopefully something better comes along! Yes, get a roommate, and get a computer!
Rosario - my brother is moving tomorrow to San Francisco, so no more weekend trips to Seattle.. mostly because I don't wanna pay 200 bucks for a hotel! I am going to San Fran in October, I need to do that this week actually! Your sister's income is probably 100% disposable, so if she wants to pay for your ticket, I totally say go for it! We are going to a theme party, they are kind of fun... I totally need ideas since it's an 80's theme, got any?
hsmom - GL on your WI! a/c? What a concept, it's quite cold here... I'm aching for some hot weather so I can go to the beach one last time before the winter rains start!
Courtnie - sorry to hear about the family stuff, if you need to talk, find me on msn! Writing definitely is a good idea, helps to get it out without having to tell everyone whats going on.
So I'm SUPER discouraged about my weight gain.. err.. loss? I'm gaining like NOTHING else, so so frustrating I'm really starting to see that I've got to cut out the bread/rice, and cut the sugar out. So I've been looking into south beach again, it really has worked for me.. but I've often thought that I should be able to lose the weight with eating regular foods, just less of them. Yup, not true for me. So I'm frustrated, and also depressed that I have to be so strict with my diet.. the other option is to keep getting fatter, and that makes me want to cry. Thats whats going on for me the last 2 days.. tonight I made this thing called taco bake, that should get me through the next couple of days!
Shari- The next job offer maybe better for you anyway. It's great that dude is going to help you out.
Aimee - I chose to stick to ww's because I know it works if I follow it. So why try something different if you know it works. Ykwim. I'm sorry to here your so down. Gee, I wouldn't be happy with cold weather coming on so early. No wonder why I live in the south. Find a diet that works for you and just stay with it. Your efforts will pay off in the long run. You can do this.
Drum roll please: I lost 3.8# this last week! I guess I show the 3# gain last week how I felt. Well, dh is home so I need to run for now. I hope everyone has had a great day so far.
Well, I thought I would be able to post more, but we're off to the park. The kids are going to ride their scooters around the track while I walk. Hopefully, I'll be able to jog some of it even thought I'm already tired and it's only 7:38. I'll check back in later.
Ro & Shari- Are you already working out for the tbl challenge?
Courtnie- I hope your less stressed today.
Aimee- Did you decide about the sbd? You can get thur this little rut. I know how frustrating it can be.
hsmom - congrats on the WI!! Thats awesome, you must be happy I started eating like I'm on South Beach, I think I need to come to some realization that I can't be like everyone else.. and that in order to lose this weight I will have to cut out bread/rice/pasta/sugar.. it'll be hard. But it will be worth it. I am a total sugar addict, but I can be something different. I just need to accept what is, and realize I can't change how my body reacts to sugar and wheat products. So thats what I am up against, hard one! The weather here is hard, fortunately it's been sunny the last couple of weeks, I am hoping it stays like this! Josh and I might go to the beach tomorrow... fingers crossed for some hot weather!
Today was good, no sugar! I ate good, it was hard, but I did it! No working out, but I will get that started tomorrow. And hopefully these pounds will melt right off - because the scale is nearly at the highest its EVER been! Yikes! As you can see in my ticker I've weighed, and had gained 4 pounds.. can't wait to see them gone! I am now off to bed.. goodnight!!
Ro - thanks. My biggest beef with a journal is that it takes time to write! haha I did used to keep an online blog but deleted it when I realized I would horrified if my family found it. I agree with Aimee - you sister's income is 100% disposable! I had more money when I was making less, but now I spend more money on food and bills, lol.
Shari - sorry to hear about the job.
Aimee - it's only been 2 days! Give it a chance!
hsmomx2 - congrats on the loss! yay!!!!
Tonight we are ordering pizza! blah and getting ready for our Garage Sale tomorrow! I am going to get up early and make a low fat lemon blueberry or raspberry loaf so hopefully if my mom brings donuts over I can resist with my tasty fresh loaf haha. We hope to sell a lot of stuff so I can have my garage back and get the junk out of the inside of my house. My spare bedrooms are full of stuff that one would normally store in a garage, but my garage has been STUFFED full of Grandma's stuff for the past year. SO we hope to sell that stuff - and some of my stuff - make some money and then turn the garage into a place where I can exercise without bothering the tenets in the basement. I am looking forward to setting that up. THe garage is kinda ugly but hopefully I can make it look nice over time.
So I went to the doctor on Tuesday and he was totally useless. Gave me a stupid diet and wouldn't talk to be about my birth control concerns. (there is a post in support about it) So I am not taking birth control for a little while. That way I can tell him there is a problem with it if there is. Yesterday I was supposed to start taking it again and I didnt! I am so nervous and scared but feel good about it at the same time.
They say I'm not qualified. How can I not be qualified for a job where the only qualifications are a valid driver's license?! Something stinks. I think the probably all male panel has a problem with a little lady parking cars. Also my friend says they might not have liked the fact that I don't have a Texas driver's license. I've been working for the VA for two damn years and you're telling me that I can't get the job because I have a valid DL from another state?! Are these people on crack?! *breathe* We'll see. I'll take this to the director of the hospital if I have to. I HAVE to get out of food service before I go crazy! 
I'm really starting to see that I've got to cut out the bread/rice, and cut the sugar out. So I've been looking into south beach again, it really has worked for me.. but I've often thought that I should be able to lose the weight with eating regular foods, just less of them. Yup, not true for me. So I'm frustrated, and also depressed that I have to be so strict with my diet.. the other option is to keep getting fatter, and that makes me want to cry. Thats whats going on for me the last 2 days.. tonight I made this thing called taco bake, that should get me through the next couple of days! 
I started eating like I'm on South Beach, I think I need to come to some realization that I can't be like everyone else.. and that in order to lose this weight I will have to cut out bread/rice/pasta/sugar.. it'll be hard. But it will be worth it. I am a total sugar addict, but I can be something different. I just need to accept what is, and realize I can't change how my body reacts to sugar and wheat products. So thats what I am up against, hard one! The weather here is hard, fortunately it's been sunny the last couple of weeks, I am hoping it stays like this! Josh and I might go to the beach tomorrow... fingers crossed for some hot weather! 
with the garage sale Courtnie! 