I feel like I'm at the end of my rope. Our finances have gotten even worse, and I don't know what we're going to do. I love my DH, but he's very selfish and there's no convincing him of that. He has $2000+ saved up for something that he wants, but I'm not on that account, and he won't spend a dime of it for anything, even if it means keeping us afloat. However, I don't have my own savings account, just what is in "our" savings. We're going to owe out the wazoo for taxes because he didn't change his marital status at work (and he got a big settlement from a law suit) and our savings that would normally pay for that is gone because he racked up a huge credit card bill.
On top of all that, if I could financially do it, I would walk out of my job today and never come back. I'm tired of people telling me how to do my job, that they need something before what someone else needs (even though that someone else asked me to do something first,) and treating me like I'm ignorant.
I have kick boxing tonight, so I hope I'll be able to take out some aggression because I seriously have been borderline nervous breakdown today. I'm telling myself that cigarettes and a log of chocolate chip cookie dough will just make me unhappier, in the end, but part of me doesn't want to believe it.
For those who pray, please pray that I find a job that will make me happier and pay me more, because that would just wipe out all the problems I have right now. Oh, and pray for skinnyness.
Doesn't hurt, right? Thanks for letting me vent, chickies. I just feel like I'm walking on a tight rope of sanity, and I keep teetering like I'm going to fall off, but I'm just barely hanging on with one toe.
Lisa
to all you Bodacious Broads!!!
