Well, I missed posting yesterday, but I was thinking about it! It's just gotten alot busier here. I worked until 4, then had class from 5:30 - 7:30, and when I got home, DD was waiting for me to go the gym. We went and "brought on the pain" as she calls it ... I got home around 10 and after a shower, collapsed into bed. DH has classes on Monday and Wed from noon until 9:30, so he wasn't around to try to get me off my diet.
Today, I started out the day spilling my breakfast - eggs - all over my foot - before they were cooked! I just stood there, wondering if this was really happening, or if I was still asleep. Turns out I was awake. After I got than mess cleaned up, I went to work where I proceeded to be S L O W all day. I'm sure it was very frustrating for my boss, but she's great, so she took me to the cafeteria and we both got big ice waters.
I came home and had some leftover taco bake (yummy) before I went to class at 5:30 again. Luckily, it was the first day, so we just wrote a short essay and got to come home at 7:30. I started working on my homework and DH ran to the store for a notebook for his class and came back with .... yes ... the biggest, double-chocolate-chip muffin they sell at the store next to target. How do I know? Because he held it up just for me to see as he was sitting down with his muffin and glass of milk.
I was on the phone with my daughter, so I just ignored him and by the time I got off the phone, he had gone upstairs. crazy. My other DH went to the gym without me tonite. I am going to have to miss Mon and Tues at the gym because of classes, but I'm going to make it the other nites. Everytime we go, we weigh on the way out and I've lost a little more. DH always says "yeah, mom!" She's the best.
Ok. So now I'm caught up - I'm working on my homework for tomorrow then, off to bed.
Thanks for reading my posts, Gail. I'm inspired by everyone here.
Oh dear, so sorry about the eggs, yuck!!! Yeah for you on some more loss, you are doing wonderful....especially w/ your hubby being a total turkey holding up that big choc. chip muffin high and mighty like...good GRIEF!!!
Just keep up the great work and so glad that your daughter is totally on your side w/ this...she sounds like a super help!! Keep up the great work!!!!
Today was a much better day. I got up in time to fix my eggs w/o spilling them and I made it to work on time! We took one of the ladies in our office to lunch for her birthday and I was a little worried about it. We to a place I had never before. When you walk in the door, you have to pass thru their bakery to get to the tables. I tried not to even look. But the menu was great. I had an open-faced sandwich with turkey, ham (?) raw spinach, and white cheese on it and red onions. I ate around the bread and had a salad instead of the fries.
So when DH heard I went to a new place to eat, his first question was "did you go off your diet?!?!?!?" when I told him no, he didn't pursue it any further.
I came home and had some more taco bake (it's been my lifesaver this week) and went to school. We got out early, so I came home and got DD and we got our new water bottles from the fridge and headed to the gym, where we "brought the pain" ... it wasn't too bad. I took last nite off and I'm glad. Drank about 50 ounces of water at the gym - no air conditioning, lots of humidity - i think it's about 82 degrees in there. On our way out, we stopped and weighed, as usual and this time, I stayed the same, but DD lost 1 pound! I was so excited. She didn't think it was a big deal, but secretly, I think she was happy.
Came home, jumped in the shower, going to get my English book and read my assignment for tomorrow nite's class (I am off work tomorrow) and go to bed.
DH called and he is on his way home from his school, which is across town. I wonder what goodie he will bring home tonite to show me ... last nite the giant double-chocolate-chip muffin ... tonite?????
Wow Andrea, what an inspiration! Keep up the good work. I don't know what I would do with someone constantly trying to sabbotage my efforts. I have a hard enough time with myself!
I live with my BF and I have one child and he has 2 teenagers, so there's no way to keep the house stocked with just SB food. So, I'm around candy and chips and non SBD food all the time. Sometimes that makes it a little harder to stay on track, but so far I've managed. I guess sometimes it's just a mindset.
Today was kind of a weird day. I think it was because I am out of eggs, so I was kind of lost at breakfast. Had some FF yogurt, but it seemed like I was hungry all day. I didn't cheat, but I really wanted to. Luckily, DH was at work all day and I had class this evening, so he didn't try anything. He did call me about 10 times though ... I was trying to read my english assignment and it was like he could tell when I was just getting into it. I know that's not the case, but it seemed like it.
Went to physical therapy for my knee, where they worked my butt off (I wish ... you know what I mean). I have one more session in the office, then I meet them at the gym and they show me what weights and exercises I can do on my own. That will be good. I told my therapist that I am doing SB to lose weight and help my knee out some and that DH was trying to sabotage me ... she said it doens't surprise her (she has met him a couple of times) ... makes me wonder about ME. Why I feel that I can change him, or have a good affect on him. He can be really nice, but then, I don't think the nice part is real. I KNOW the selfish part is real. It's almost becoming like a science project to see what he does next.
All I know is that I'm sticking to this. The past couple of days have been really hard. I think because I'm off my normal routine, but I've been drinking more water and eating pretty well. I chew a lot of SF gum.
Well, I'm going to bed. It's getting ready to storm here, so we should have lightning in a little while. I had better shut down my computer.
Andrea...Bless your heart! I can relate in a way. My fav is blackberrie cobbler and I mentioned how good one would taste so every week DH is buyin blackberries and asking me to make him a cobbler! Then covers it in ice cream and sits beside me to eat it! Men...Like I have said can't live with 'em and you just can't shoot 'em! lol I'm stayin tuned for tomorrows saga! Best revenge...stick to your guns! Oh wait I mean new WOE! lol Hang in there you will make it!
Thanks, Bamiegurl. It's good to know my Dh isn't the only one who does stuff like that ... today has just been a terrible day! I started out pretty well, got up early (for a day off) and went to the grocery store for eggs and to bank and came home and fixed my breakfast and just when I was starting to relax, the phone started ringing! My middle daughter called and said she has such bad cramps that she can't go to work and she needed to see a doctor. Well, I'm in Nebraska and she is in OK. So I got her to call around and see who could take her today. She has no insurance and she called in sick to work, so everytime she would call someone, she would have to call me and report what they said ... then, my oldest daughter called and said the AC repairman can't find the replacement part for the unit for the house and replacement unit would be about $1700. She is living in my house while we are stationed here. So I called the guy and asked him for the part number, so I could find one here and ship it there. Then, oldest daughter, Kary, called back complaining because she needs a new car. I told her if she wanted to get a car, she needed to get a new job - being a waitress and depending on tips for your living isn't very reliable, "but I like working there!". I told her she must like it better than a new car because until she could have a steady income, she couldn't afford a car.
So in the middle of all this, DH calls. I'm trying to deal with the girls, do some laundry and I want to clean up the kitchen. I tell him that I'm having a bad day and I don't want to talk about it, because all I've done all morning is talk about it and he just clammed up and said he had to go. FINE.
The AC guy called back and said he found a part in Tulsa and could fix the unit either tomorrow or monday and it would be around $150 ... I told him to DO IT! Kary calls at least every other day to tell me that she's melting.
So DH calls to say he's coming home for lunch. I have to admit I was a little short with him - my frustration level was way up there. I get off the phone with him and my youngest daughter comes home for lunch and me to go out with her to get a salad or something. I tell her the DH is on his way home, and when he gets there, we can go ... so I unload on her, telling her about her sisters, she listens and understands where I'm coming from. So by the time DH walks in the door, I'm laughing with DD and FINALLY getting the dishes done, the laundry is going and things look like they are finally settling down. But DH is upset. He doesn't want to go eat. So DD just looks at me and says 'bye mom' - she only had an hour for lunch and she left.
In case you didn't notice, DH is kind of controlling. Or rather, he TRIES to be ... I guess he asked DD to clean the kitchen the other day and she only loaded the dishwasher. But the kid has a job cleaning hotel rooms - I know I wouldn't want to do my job at home on my day off. And I really dont' mind doing the dishes. It's mostly my mess anyway. So he's pouting and I ask him what his problem is and he says he's mad because I won't tell him what's bothering me and he's mad because I'm doing the dishes for DD.
That doesn't sit to well with me. I tell him that I would rather do the dishes to get them done - it doesn't matter and that when things calm down, I will tell him what's been going on, but I just need some 'quiet time' to regather myself and of course, he takes it as some kind of personal insult and tells me he doesn't want to talk to me anymore. WHATEVER!
He finally went back to work, without talking to me again. Middle daughter called and said she got some meds for her cramps, I called Kary and told her the AC would be fixed by Monday, finished my dishes, swept the kitchen floor, almost have the laundry done and now I'm going to work on my homework!
Whew! Seems later than 1:30. I think I need some caffeine!
Hope everyone else's day is going better than mine ... at least I can stay on the diet and feel good about doing it for me!
Wow Andrea you make me tired with all you have gotten done by 1:30. My DH is pretty supportive of whatever I want to try to do even though he keeps telling me I'm not fat. OK so I have decided he is blind but I guess he is just showing me he loves me.
Any way he did try to undermine me this week by making carmel rolls. When I came home and could smell them baking it really made me mad. He knows how hard it is for me to stick to P1 and he goes and does something like that. Needless to say I was ticked off all night and when he asked me what was wrong I let him have it with both barrels (and I don't hold anything back). After we cooled off from fighting with each other he applogized and told me that he was sorry. That he didn't think about how it would bother me having them in the house.
I think he is feeling insecure right now and was trying to do something nice for me. That is how he does things. When he starts feeling bad about something he starts doing nice things for me. Go Figure?!?! Any way maybe that is the case for your DH maybe he is feeling insecure because you are going to be smarter and thinner and thinks you are going to leave him. Unless you're past the point of being able to talk to each other anymore maybe you need to tell him exactly how you feel being overweight and why you feel so much better doing something about it. Who knows anything is worth a try once.
Karla, I dont' know if I could have handled the carmel rolls. I hope my DH doesn't think of that. We have talked about how I feel being overweight and he always agrees to help me - at first. But he is overweight too and when he stops going to the gym, or can't quit eating junk, that's when the trouble starts for me. I think that you are right about him be insecure about me being thinner and smarter. I think he's afraid that I'm going to leave him, so he acts this way.
Last nite, DD and I wanted to go see "Mr. and Mrs. Smith" and DH heard us talking about it at lunch, so when he came home from work, he went straight to bed. When I was getting ready to leave, I asked him if he was sick - he said he didn't feel good and just rolled over. I asked if he wanted to see the MMSmith movie - because I would have waited to see if he did - he just shook his head no. I asked if he was going to the gym with me and DD later, he just shook his head no. So, after the movie - I really like the new diet coke, by the way - we came home and he was leaving. He back into the house and said he was going to gym. I told him me and DD were getting ready to go too and would he come with us? He said he would. So, we all went to the gym. He picked a bike all by himself, then after he was done, he just wandered off and didn't say anything, so DD and I continued on our regular routine. When he was ready to go, he came asked what else I had left to do, then just wandered off again. It's like he isolates himself and then says he feel like an outsider. I feel like he's always forcing me to make a choice between him and everything else. I refuse to let him control me that way.
So after we came home, I took a shower and he stayed up playing a game on the computer, then came to bed after I was asleep. This morning, he is already at the gym. It's hard for me to figure him out. He did ask if I wanted to go to lunch after he gets back. I'm sure he will pick somewhere that's hard for me to find a decent salad. But, I will stick with it and I hope he understand that is has nothing to do with him. I might try to talk to him about it later. But i always end up feeling like I'm doing something wrong. He's very good at being a victim.
Ok, I'm going to fix some eggs. I'm starving!
Thanks for the encouragement. I always feel better after I've posted here.
Andrea the carmel rolls were nothing compared to what I had to deal with this morning. My mom (she lives with us) decided we should go out for breakfast and OK so I was tired and agreed and let her pick the place. Big mistake!!! There is a little hole in the wall place here that makes the absolute best belgium waffels. They are so lite and fluffy and wonderful and she didn't stop there she added strawberris, whip cream and syrup. Man of man I love those things but........I was good and had a salad and a veggie omelet. So another hurdle down.
I have to agree with you that it is so nice to have found other chicks on the beach to help support all of us.
Hang in there with your hubby and maybe he will see the light.
Sadiespies, you look great. How long have you been on the beach? Karla, I don't know if I could handle the waffles! Lately, I've been craving sweets. I have one of the P1 chocolate shakes about everyday, but sometimes, I get to thinking - oh, what's the use - BUT, then I remember that I've actually lost and I'm going to the gym and I feel better than that bad food will taste! I'm proud of you for having the salad and veggie omelet.
This weekend wasn't too bad. Yesterday me and DH got into a deep discussion about everything (except my diet). It was tough - not fun, but at least we were able to be honest. And either he's been reading my posts (I doubt it) or he is feeling better about himself, cuz he has been very considerate of my diet. He ate breakfast before me this morning, he hasn't been waving food in front of my face. Today, he said he would wait to eat because he didn't want to eat bad food in front of me! It was very nice, but I'm still on guard.
Tomorrow I should start P2 and I'm really nervous. I don't think much will change for me. I would like to add oatmeal back into my diet, but it's so hard for me to control. I think I will start with something that isn't my favorite food. Something easy to eat at work. Maybe I will add flavored yogurt. That would be so much easier than mixing the FF kind. I could have that in the afternoon for my snack at work. I need to look for some portable stuff I can grab between work and my classes.
I'm so glad that Coke finally came out with the new diet coke! I used to hate the old diet coke, but the new kind w/splenda is great!
Well, my brain is fried from an afternoon of math homework. I'm going to bed and read my English for Tues.
Andrea - WOW! You are doing so great with your DH to deal with but it seems maybe he is getting better. I noticed you said you were stationed somewhere, your dh is military?
My dh is military and failed his last PRT so he has mandatory PT (he works out 3 mornings a week, not by choice, for at least an hr). He lost more than me in a less amount of time and he can basically eat whatever he wants as long as he is working out. He has finally stopped saying "A few bites won't kill ya" every day. He would never last doing SBD, he'd cheat in the first 10mins.
I am only doing it because my doctor suggested this along with medication to help me lose weight, I am glad he did.
Andrea sounds like things are a little better for you. I know how hard it is to sit down and have a discussion about everything with your hubby. Very stressful and usually tearful for me but afterword we both feel better and start communicating again like we should (and OK I'm the one that usually stops talking when something is bothering me and he has to pry it out of me).
Still on P1 for another week but feeling good and not having cravings yet. I think what helps me is I can remember how crappy I feel when I don't eat right so it helps me keep on track. Good luck on p2.
Andrea, you are my heroine! You are the stress queen. Good for you for sticking to it. I did P1 for 5 days and couldn't take it, and now I'm back onto my beloved Sugar Busters - which is very much like P2 of South Beach. I hate the way they post on the Sugar Busters forum - its just one long thread for a week, so your comments and questions get lost - so I thought I'd join all of you, since the diets are really very similar.
I'm not getting on a scale for a few weeks because I'm driving myself nuts. However, would you mind telling me how much you lost on P1? I didn't loose too much and I'm hoping that is normal - not the 13 lbs talked about!
Keep up the good work warding off the dark side/evil spirit DH! He'll be OK once your a babe and you're still with him!
Hello! It seems like I've been gone forever, but what has happened is that I'm so busy with homework, I haven't even had time to check my email at home. What was I thinking? taking Eng. Comp 1 in 5 weeks! at the same time as Inter. Algebra!!!!! I'm glad I only work partime, or I would be dead by now!
I got my first essay written and my prof really liked it, so that's good. My final draft is due tomorrow. My first test in math is next monday, but I've been doing all the homework as we go, so I should be ok there - except for @(*#*%@$@^%# functions. I don't understand them at all! But she said it's only 6 points on the test and we get partial credit for our work, so I should be ok.
Well, I'm a complete failure at P2. GAIL - I lost 10 pounds on P1, but I'm afraid to weigh since I haven't been eating right! It's driving me crazy. I am going to spend some time this weekend making food for me to eat next week. I am doing better drinking water. and at the gym, I rode the bike 5 miles in under 20 minutes at level 8!!! That is like completing the marathon for me. That's one thing I have been doing right - working out. DD and I still go every chance we get.
DH is at school right now, so things are kind of quiet. He has been doing better, but I haven't seen him much. ANGELA - my DH is AF. He is going to apply for a guard job in Florida, which will allow him to retire and give him a better chance at a civilian job. I don't understand how exactly it works, so I will see how it goes. I hope we dont' have to move again. I really like Nebraska. KARLA - you sound just like me when I'm upset w/my DH, I just don't say anything until he finally gets it out of me, but then he's usually sorry!
Well, I am going to change and go to the gym. Tomorrow is a day off work - yay! So I can sleep in and work on my homework.
Guess I'll weigh tonite at the gym. I can tell if I gain because I can't manipulate their scale like I can mine - shame on me!!!!!!
It's good to be able to write again! I missed this board!
