Hi Christena,
Welcome!

I don't have a lot to add to what Jack and Meliris have said...I agree that joining a Gym is a good idea for all the afformentioned reasons and also because, once your there, you kind of 'have' to work out. There is no (or less, anyway) chance of getting distracted by the TV or phone or just starting and not finishing.
My biggest challenge, as well, is the eating clean part.

I love the working out part..,no problem with that, but once I get derailed from my diet it is a struggle to get back on track. I am in the process of 'regrouping' myself. I have found that once you do it (eat clean) for awhile, you "feel" so much better... your body reacts differantly. You sleep better, your workouts are better etc. The cravings do tend to subside. I don't know if it is physiological (like your body is getting what it needs) or psychological (your so happy , you just don't want it) or both, but the cravings do get less.
One swim in the sugar lake (ie: refined carbs),though, and your blood sugar and insulin are thrown out of whack and it's craving city.

Been there.....
I am just starting back on my own clean training diet after a 3 day 4th of July eating festival and I can feel the cravings going away. My body is saying "Thank you!"
Point being, it DOES get easier. Just get back on that horse. Even if you have to do it again and again. It will get easier. We are all here to help
P.S. Wer'e all here to GET help too!

It's an awesome support network. Welcome, again....
XOXO
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