Well it has snowed all night here in glorious Blair, NE. The snow is beautiful but also deadly. Getting back to Omaha is going to be fun
Wow I don't remember what anyone wrote yesterday except Christy got a Jeep!
I worked on my step work last night, finally UM crying uncontrollablly in my office didn't seem to really be working for me so the next 2 days I am off I think I will spend it doing some major me and step work time
I think I will try to hit the Abs and Chest of Stell tape today and Yoga tommorow. Mostly I am just wishing for a safe journey home. But hey I live in God's care and whatever will be will be
I love and appreciate you all! Have a great day, see you this afternoon
Chris -- Stay safe on your way home! I'm glad you have some time off now so you won't have to get back out in the mess for awhile.
I'm tired this morning. I stayed up past my bedtime to watch Survivor. I absolutely despise reality television of all types, but a friend of my husband's is on again. He's our local "celebrity" and it is sooo bizarre to actually see him on TV!
I'm off to do breakfast and a few procrastinated teacher things before I must get the family up. I hope all of you lovely ladies have a wonderful day!
Hello everyone! I'm new here to the Eating Disorder Forum (but not new to 3FC).
I have been struggling this past year and I don't know where to turn. I have been a member of TOPS (Take Off Pounds Sensibly) for the past 18 months and I have GAINED almost 30 pounds. I feel like I have lost all self control. I am constantly eating whether I'm hungry or not and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating. When I overeat I feel so guilty. I have been taking anti-depressants for the past four months because I got to where I couldn't function with the feelings of remorse and guilt from being overweight. I want to get my weight under control before it kills me. I am at my all time highest weight of 285 pounds. I checked for OA meetings in my area but there are none. Please help.
Alot of us go to meetings on-line, please check out the OA section in this forum. Mostly we offer each other support and acceptance. You will find no challenges or weigh-ins here, those of us that use the OA program as a guide hand those things over to our Higher Power with trust that once we become abstinent the physical recovery begins to take care of itself. For me it is the spiritual recovery and the acceptance that I have a disease that I am powerless over that makes me believe that "half measures have availed us nothing" and makes me willing to do whatever God asks of me for recovery. If that seems a little heavy right now, let it go and just come back and post and enjoy our friendship Steph. We are happy to have you!
Ellis- How was the Dr's visit? We need an update here! I am sitting down and getting my mail donw and your on my list girl. Why do you gals think of swapping V-Day cards? I thought it might be nice as that will be a rough day with all the chocolates and things about.
Christy and Jenelle- I hope you had a lovely day at school!
Where is Miss Kat and Sarah? We need weekend updates.
My plan journaling, stepwork, and possibly a movie today. The snow is deep but it is up to a whopping 17 F right now (about shorts weather right Christy )
Welcome, Steph... I'm not doing very well right now, either, but these girls have wonderful words of wisdom, and I'm almost ready to start listening to them. Come and join us regularly... we're glad to have you here.
Chris, I'm glad to hear you're still alive. How are the roads? Crying in your office, hmmm? Listen, sweetness, this just will not do. Are your meds working alright? What can I do for you... besides praying?
My psychiatrist has taken me off my meds. I'm pretty nervous. We lowered them two weeks ago, and he's going to try me on something new next week. I hope I can make it through this week without killing anyone. I think I'll just have to tell everyone to be tolerant of me, ask them to give me lots of "alone time", and do a lot of sleeping. All prayers graciously accepted.
Hun the crying was good for me! I am just becoming an old softie, after all these years of being hard my sensitive little soul is creeping up and that girl crys especially when she is thinking about how mean she has been to herself and others. Pray that I get what I need out of my step work
Off the meds for a week? Aren't we concerned about the deep plunge then? More than 3 days off my meds usually leads to the infinite hole of despair So now I am a little worried. Pick up the phone hun if you need it ANYTIME CALL COLLECT! E-mails, PM's, posting here whatever it takes to preserve your sanity. Sending those 's
Thank you, sweet thing. I will keep that in mind. Yes, I'm anticipating a meeting with the devil this week. One good thing... at least I'm actually prepared for it this time.
Okay... prayers for you during your step work. Give it all you've got, hon!!
Hi Stephanie - Welcome to our little corner of the 'net! I'm also in Mississippi (Southaven). Where are you? (You can PM me if you don't want the whole world to know. I'd also like to suggest that you look at this link: http://www.oa12step4coes.org/welcome.html . It's got all kinds of helpful OA stuff, including links to online meetings.
Chris - Drive safely in that mess! I worry about you!
Steph -- Glad to have you with us! I'm sure you'll find that nothing you can tell us about your eating habits would shock us. We're definitely a been there done that group. Post often...it's a wonderful place here!
Chris -- I'm glad you're at home safely. Give that step work you know what! Isn't amazing how freeing it is to get some of that stuff down on paper and out of your system? It's such a wonderful release.
Enjoy your time off! Hey, I'm all for a Valentine's Day card exchange. I love getting mail that doesn't have a return envelope for me to slip a check into!
Ellis -- Hang in there without those meds! Remember that we're here to listen to any venting you need to do. I'm sure that your psych has your best interests at heart and I'll pray that whatever he's trying with you will make your depression more bearable. (((big hugs)))
Jennelle -- How'd Monday go for you? I got a new student today and that kind of upset the routine for the day. She'll settle in soon enough and we can get back to business.
Kat and Sarah -- Still recovering from your exciting weekends? Check in and let us know how things went!
They're calling for more freezing rain mess here tonight. Sigh...I wanted a couple of snow days, but the reality of what they do to the "flow" of our well-established routine at school is really starting to hit home. (Plus, they make me so lazy. )
I'm off to help the little one get some of her Valentines ready for school. She's a slooow writer! I figure if we start now we have chance of finishing before the big day.
Well, my sister and her fiance came up Saturday, and we all had a good time up until walking into the club in Noho... and me being told by a friend that my ex-girlfriend of 3 years was there.
To my credit, I did not turn around and leave, though it was very tough to watch her put on a show with other women she was with, "dirty dancing" with them not 10 feet from me. Yep, nothing so fun as watching the only person I've been in love with getting down and caressing the thighs of another woman... She seemed to be only on the dance floor when I was, and only at the bar when I was. Within seconds of my getting there, she approached me at the coat check to "chat" and look me over.... and before the night was over, I got sucked into a dance with her during last call. It was miserable. I felt nauseous all night.
After my past weekend, I thought the gods were done messing with me, but in retrospect, I think this was me being forced to acknowledge her and communicate with her... I have been avoiding her since early December, when she was cold and dismissive after I extended friendly invitations to her. Ugh... it is so hard to be in the same town with her, and know she lives less than a mile away. I still have feelings for her, but it is a big god-awful mess of anxiety and pain too.
But... it was fun to dance, and THANK GOD my sister and her boyfriend were there, and my friend Becky from work. Otherwise, I'm sure I would have puked my guts out in the bathroom and left.
Today I took a day off from work to deal with the situation, and my mental health, and wrote her an email where I explained why I had not been in touch, and why I don't plan to be in the future.
Tonight I am going to watch a brainless comedy (Shanghai Knights) and try to put all this crap behind me...
And gear myself up for dating again... because I know that the best way to get over an old love is to find a new one. And it's about time for me to do that I think.
Phew... so that was my drama-filled weekend... Blech!
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What a wide source of experiences and people we have here
Sarah- Sometimes we just got to spend the time loving ourselves before we can give that away again. Those first loves are hard to move on from (mine occasionally pops up after almost 14 years of marriage) . Right now learnig to love myself is creating a new relationship with me and the whole world, I feel like my eyes are more open to the good in people than they have been in a long time, and since I no longer take responsibility for controlling everyone and what I WANT THEM TO DO I can be more forgiving. Thats a good feeling. You do what's best for Sarah and love her as much as you can
Christy- PM me with your address and I will make up a list so whomever wants V-day cards we can get em out. I know what you mean about glitches in ours schedule. The snow stresses me not just the driving but I have to leave earlier, eat earlier, and just not my natural flow. COE hate change, did you know that?
Jenelle- I talked to my dad tonight about that whole not letting kids grade each others papers thing. He thinks it sucks too so he has been giving completion grades. Do your homework get the points, don't do the homework get none. The grades are weighted 80% on test scores and 20% on homework points. The kids that do the homework(and don't copy) can do the tests. I still think the whole thing is stupid But at least your wonderful How is your program going?
Oh, Sarah... what a horrible thing to go through. I'm so sorry, sweetie. Here's to a new love. A new life! Look forward, not back!
Thanks for the hugs and support, Christy. So far so good. (considering I took my last dose this morning, I guess I shouldn't expect too much evil until at least tomorrow. )
Kat is obviously still recovering from her house guests.
Chris - I grade homework almost the same way - either you did it or you didn't do it. I only give homework three nights a week and give one overall weekly homework grade. If you turned in homework all three nights, you get 100%. If you turned only turned in 2, you get a 70%. Only 1 gets you a 40% and none obviously gets you a zero. We are required to weight our homework as a percentage of classwork...it's odd how it works out...still, if you don't do your homework it will affect your grade.
Christy - Routines....man, the week we had practice state tests, our routine was shot straight to h-e-double-toothpicks and the kids were INSANE! Progress reports come out Thursday and I have a LOT of kids who are going to be very unhappy. Since we started reading groups, there have been a lot of kids who've decided they don't want to turn in their required work. I think I've given more zeros this past few weeks than I have in my whole career! Unfortunately, they've been babied their whole school careers...sucks for me.
Moving Monday- 2 Feb 04 Daily Thread
UM crying uncontrollablly in my office didn't seem to really be working for me so the next 2 days I am off I think I will spend it doing some major me and step work time 
Hello everyone!
I feel like I have lost all self control. I am constantly eating whether I'm hungry or not and when I'm not eating I'm thinking about eating. When I overeat I feel so guilty. I have been taking anti-depressants for the past four months because I got to where I couldn't function with the feelings of remorse and guilt from being overweight. I want to get my weight under control before it kills me. I am at my all time highest weight of 285 pounds. 
I am sitting down and getting my mail donw and your on my list girl. Why do you gals think of swapping V-Day cards? I thought it might be nice as that will be a rough day with all the chocolates and things about.
Come and join us regularly... we're glad to have you here. 
How are the roads? Crying in your office, hmmm? Listen, sweetness, this just will not do. Are your meds working alright? What can I do for you... besides praying? 
So now I am a little worried. Pick up the phone hun if you need it ANYTIME 
CALL COLLECT! E-mails, PM's, posting here whatever it takes to preserve your sanity. 
One good thing... at least I'm actually prepared for it this time. 
)
Well everyone but Kat has checked in!
How is your program going? 
A new life! 
Progress reports come out Thursday and I have a LOT of kids who are going to be very unhappy. Since we started reading groups, there have been a lot of kids who've decided they don't want to turn in their required work. I think I've given more zeros this past few weeks than I have in my whole career! Unfortunately, they've been babied their whole school careers...sucks for me.
