I joined this community about 2 weeks ago and only now have actually gotten around to posting (i was kind of scared to do it...dunno why). I don't know if anyone else out there is like me...i have a difficult time sharing about my weight-loss. Its hard to say i'm proud of myself and what i've achieved but its time I pull myself out of whatever hurtful rut this is and give it a go. Maybe by sharing with others i wont feel the shame I tend to feel at having been morbidly obese.
Here is a little back history:
I had been overweight since age 7....so basically my whole life
In 2005 I weighed 306 lbs
Today i weigh 168
I moved away from home (out of state) for college after i had lost 125 lbs in 2006 and ended up staying here. I didn't know anyone here, no family, no friends. It was what i always wanted...a new beginning! Only now i've realized how lonely i feel. I have lots of friends who feel like family and yet my past is something i struggle with sharing and I feel like i have no one to talk to about it who actually understands. only 3 people know about my obese past, but i see it in their eyes...they don't get it. they don't understand why i "haven't gotten over it". It feels like a dirty little secret.
Its been a long rough six years filled with a roller-coaster of emotions, diets, and eating disorders. I don't think anyone would understand and it always feels like i'm hiding. No one knows about my unhappiness and i wonder if i should share my past at all...does it matter? would they care?
Thats why I'm glad i found this site. I'm hoping here i will be able to find others who understand my weight-loss and maintenance struggles and I hope i will be able to support others and be supported.
I want to overcome these feelings of sadness and shame and i look forward to the future.
Welcome and congratulations on your great weight loss. 3fc is a great support system. I am sure you will find many who can relate to your story. I have recently moved to a new community, didn't know a soul here. I am gradually meeting people, nice people but they are not like the old friends I left behind. I know the feeling of being alone. You have no reason to feel shame but every reason to be proud. Good luck, keep posting and let us get acquainted with you.
You definitely shouldn't be embarrassed or feel uncomfortable about your past. You've overcome the bad. If you feel that leaving it in the past will help you move on, then do, but not because you feel bad about it.
The last thing you should feel is shame. You've lost almost half your body weight. You're amazing!
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