Hi guys
Let me introduce myself
I am 19 years old and have been fighting my weight from the time I was about 13, before that I used to be an avid athlete. I was on a very competitive swim team I used to work out about 6 hours a day. Now that I look back on those days I remember how happy I was... Fast forward a few years I quit swimming, got lazy and pretty much stayed home most of the time. Needless to say , the pounds packed on , I lost all my self-confidence and am pretty much losing hope of ever being able to wear the clothes I want. And, to have the self-confidence I want so badly. Sometimes I want to bang my head on the wall the next time someone gives me a back handed compliment of "ow you have such a pretty face, too bad you're so chubby"...
Sometimes I even think that the weight has made me lose the attractiveness in my face, which really gets me down
. I feel like a bloated balloon , if that makes sense
...
... Pretty much the last few years have been horrible , had my first love, broke my heart (most of it had to do with my low self-confidence), I got to know some of my friends which were only people who ended up stabbing me in the back
anyway sorry for ranting
I'm here to meet new friends and find support for what seems to feel like a journey that will never end
Thanks for reading all of this if you did
Had to get it all out there.
Hopefully, this will be the summer that changes my life , keeping my fingers crossed
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newbie from california :)
