newbie from california :)
 

Hi guys :) Let me introduce myself :)
I am 19 years old and have been fighting my weight from the time I was about 13, before that I used to be an avid athlete. I was on a very competitive swim team I used to work out about 6 hours a day. Now that I look back on those days I remember how happy I was... Fast forward a few years I quit swimming, got lazy and pretty much stayed home most of the time. Needless to say , the pounds packed on , I lost all my self-confidence and am pretty much losing hope of ever being able to wear the clothes I want. And, to have the self-confidence I want so badly. Sometimes I want to bang my head on the wall the next time someone gives me a back handed compliment of "ow you have such a pretty face, too bad you're so chubby"... :( Sometimes I even think that the weight has made me lose the attractiveness in my face, which really gets me down :(. I feel like a bloated balloon , if that makes sense :D... :(... Pretty much the last few years have been horrible , had my first love, broke my heart (most of it had to do with my low self-confidence), I got to know some of my friends which were only people who ended up stabbing me in the back :) anyway sorry for ranting :) I'm here to meet new friends and find support for what seems to feel like a journey that will never end :(

Thanks for reading all of this if you did :) Had to get it all out there.
Hopefully, this will be the summer that changes my life , keeping my fingers crossed :).:carrot:

Hang in there! Summer has always been a great time to jumpstart positive changes. Definitely using it to kick off my plan as well. :)

:) I'm trying , hopefully this time will be different for both of us :)

Welcome! You'll find a lot of support here. Good luck.