Back with my tail between my legs
Its been a year since I left 3FC, and in that year I have gained back almost 20 pounds of the 60 I lost. And I still wasn't at goal then.
Last year I hurt my back and went through physio and was out of exercising for 6 months. Then I started a new job and started struggling with how to make the meals I use to make and when to make it to the gym. But I still tried to watch what I ate and managed to keep my weight at 168. Then in August we went to my in-laws for 12 days and it was the worst visit we had ever had with them. I wont go into details but I will say that my husband said to me that he would never go back there again. We began to eat our stress about this time I think. Then my stepson moved in and he looooves chips...and so does DH (who lost 45 pounds with me last year). Things just seemed to spiral from here. I started buying the cakes and cookies again. Ice cream always in the freezer. I lost control and I'm not sure how to get it back. I know I really have to "want" it, but I just don't feel that drive I felt last time when I started this journey. I really want to do this. I just want to cry when I look in the mirror. My clothes are too tight (or dont fit at all) and my gut is poking out and looking pregnant again. I just feel like crap.
I did join a running club and am now training for my first 5K the end of May. I'm so excited. I have always wanted to run just not sure how to start. I'm also hoping this will help re-motivate me. Well, running and 3FC that is. I loved this place before. I may not have posted a lot but I did try and I always read everything. I learned a lot here and found inspiration in a lot of great people. Lori Bell for one. We ran neck-in-neck for a long time. Guess I have a lot of work to do to catch up. Glad to see you kicked your goals butt.
So now I'm back, just needing that little bit of support and reassurance I guess. I look forward to traveling down this road with you and hopefully getting to know some of you better. Cheers to all of us.
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