Don't get me wrong, I am no where near goal, I still have a long ways to go. But I am feeling so confident today, I had to share pics! I didnt think I ever would, maybe when I hit 100, but aparently I am about to haha.
The first pic was taken 2 years ago with my little cousin who has a very interesting look on his face haha. I never wanted anyone to ever see this pic of me, but whatever. Yes it was 2 years ago, but its the most recent before I have. I was a size 22 and 274lb.
These two where taken today. At 184lb
Only thing is though, I still feel like the first person. It's almost like I am fooling myself and the second is just a person, not myself. I have used every excuse to try to understand the last two pics. "Oh the pants where sucking my gut in", "it's the angle of the camera not really me". "Black is slimming". "Those size 14 pants only fit because there pants and not jeans, it's the type". I've even used well the camera is more zoomed out in this pic thats why I look smaller lol.
Did any of you go through this? It's almost like while everyones camera adds 10lb, mine takes it off haha. I don't feel like the last pics, at all. And I dont even think I look it when I see myself in the mirror. It's like the camera is lying to me.
I knew my goal was to lose weight, but I don't think it really registered in my mind, that, that actually meant looking different. I know it sounds really strange, but I guess it's just becoming more real now? Maybe? I don't think I ever thought I would make it this far. Last time I was 184lb I was maybe 10, and thats just sad. I now will be 21 later this month. It's like a different person. If it the camera is not lying to me, that really is me, I love it!
90lb forever lost!!! Pics! :)
