frouf, thank you for sharing your seminar with us. i love positive ideas. i feel terrific today! i'm definitely using that one. i have been saying, "it's a beautiful day." but i like the positive emphasis on ourselves instead of just the day in general.

It's 1:15 a.m. and I've just finished watching all of the World Series post game celebrations and interviews. I still cannot believe that the White Sox won the World Series. Jim and I are beyond happy. We're very tired still from last night so we're heading off to bed now. I'll be back in the morning to read posts, respond, and get my patoutie back completely on program.

Hugs to you all!

Yea Vickie--I mean White Sox! :cp:

Just popping in to say good morning. I have to admit that my eating is not core, but at least I don't feel like I've gone completely berserk. No major blowouts, just little ones. :o

Kathy, I felt this way when I lived with my step-father (both as a teenager and as an adult). I was always paranoid about what would set him off. You can't live that way, and I hope that Judd will realize soon how he is making you feel.

Sandra, I would love to get together. Wouldn't that be crazy? Meeting someone for the first time that I already know. :lol: Aaron's bday is the 15th though, so I don't know how that would play into things.

Frouf, sounds like you had a positive day. You're doing great! (Oh, and yes, everyone is invited to KY!!)

Must work...

First of all, it's a beautiful day and I feel terrific! God made me special and I am very grateful for that.

So thanks, everybody, for your kind words and for worrying about me. I'm wondering if it's Judd or if it's me. I mean, am I imagining that things will be horrible so I anticipate them, no matter if it comes true or not? He got home from bowling and ate his LO fish and vegetables from the night before. He was still raving about it, and said it was probably his favorite of the dishes we have made so far. The recipe is posted, so if you like fish and zucchini and onion and carrots and wild rice, check it out. It is also very easy to make and comes out perfectly when made in the foil packets. So anyway, then we sat there and watched the WS game. It was pleasant and he didn't mention anything at all about the uniform or program. He did say that the remote I had tracked down wasn't needed anymore, so see? I had worried about it for nothing. The kitchen was all cleaned up, laundry was done, and everything was settled down. Oh by the way, I did go to DDs room and clean it up. My rule is keep your door closed if it's a wreck, and don't have dishes in there. I make sure we have tons of paper plates and bowls at all times. Judd's rule is if he doesn't see it, it can be messy but there had better not be dishes in there. Basically the same as mine. We have no reason to go upstairs ordinarily, so we don't see it. Anyway, this morning both uniforms were laid out neatly on the kitchen island. I'll ask her later about the program.

I have learned a few things about myself. I did quite a bit of research last night on anxiety and panic disorder and irrational fears. It seems I might be suffering from perfectionism, a touch of OCD ... I go back and recheck things constantly, and if I am filling in a form, you know, like writing in little blocks, I *must* make certain that all loops on o's and e's and a's are all closed, and that the writing is done with perfectly formed letters. Wacky, huh? I've always been that way, ever since I was a little girl. Another for instance: for many years, I HAD to be dressed before the water drained out of the tub. If not, I panicked. My parents should have taken me to therapy but I was too scared (or stupid) to tell them about my craziness. And later, I went thru a few years where I wouldn't drive past a civil defense siren. I knew where every one of them in town was and re-did all routes so I would never have to pass one.

Why on earth am I telling you all this? Now you'll think I'm TOTALLY whacked, but maybe it feels good to get it out. Now on to better things.

Vickie, WOOHOO GIRLFRIEND! I'm sure you cried many, many tears of joy last night! What an awesome win -- well deserved and long overdue! I am so happy for you all! Now you have to get some rest, climb back on the wagon, and most of all, GET WELL! We miss you being your normal self!

Frouf, I have copied excerpts from your report and emailed it to a few of my coworkers, ones that struggle with this type of thing. I know they will find it as helpful and inspiring as I did. Thanks for sharing what the speaker said, because I am truly going to try and take it to heart. And I don't think you did all that poorly yesterday, in spite of being "trapped" in a place where you couldn't choose your own food! I guess it can be done, huh? Congrats on the scale drop.

Melissa, you had better rest up too. Job stress will wipe you out ... I know you wish you could find something else so hopefully you will soon. Meanwhile, hang tough.

Sandra, we'd like to see some of those pictures if you can! Did you get to Hillsboro very often? My ex-SIL who lives in Grandview and I used to go shopping and always had a great time. I miss that.

Well, I was just hit with a 60-page change to one of the lessons that is totally hosed, and goes to test in a little over a week. They want it RIGHT NOW so they can try and run it on the trainer to see if it works. I know there will be many more tweaks but they had better cool their jets because it'll be afternoon before I'm done. With that, I'd better get outta here.

I wrote a book, didn't I?

Hi and I FEEL TERRIFIC (okay at least I'm trying!) - also trying to use more visualization cuz this is supposed to work, but will get more resources on this as well!

Kathy - glad to hear things went well in the end - but I do agree that it is probably not healthy to fret so much over things that are not life altering issues. Sounds very much like you did suffer from OCD - but not sure if that is the case now? I think it is an excellent idea to do some more research to figure out what if anything is bugging you and if you want to do anything about it.

My dd has also taken to shutting her door - cuz if I can look in you can bet I"m going to say something about the overflowing open dresser drawers (why is it so hard to shut a drawer?) and piles of clothing on the floor. ...and all kids are well aware of the no food/plates in bedroom rules. Both were told this at a young age when fear of "bugs" was high so this has stayed with them - ha ha ha!

Vickie - you must be in 7th heave - congrats to your FAVORITE TEAM for winning! I bet Jim is walking on cloud 9 too!

Melissa - sounds like you are doing okay despite some blips on the screen - as long as you are not going crazy and overeating you should be fine! Hope you got some well needed rest.

I have decided I need to follow up on all the positive thinking and advice I got yesterday so I am going to buy myself a lovely little journal (I saw some half price at chapters!) and begin documenting all those 300-400 special gifts of mine! I will also practice repeating them to myself and adhereing to the concept of being special and unique (I am thinking of taping a banner with this on top of my computer monitor so I can see it every day while I work!). I am also going to search for some of the books/cd's on e-bay to see what I can come up with.

...oh and of course I did not win the lottery, but someone in Alberta won almost $55 million (and we don't get taxed here on winnings). I kinda wish more than one person won tho - cuz that way more people could have had a better future! I did however win $5 - yippee!

Okay - I have just spied a box of Timbits (donut holes) that must have just appeared on the communal printer table only a few feet away from me! Someone sure has nerve! ha ha ha Ryan (our token male) is not in yet - but I shall have to try and get him to eat them all up!

Was almost going to stay home today as I felt very crappy this morning, but at the last moment I leaped out of bed (I feel terrific) and got myself here. I really, really need to get to bed early tonight as my poor little frouf eyes are looking red and tired! May go to a movie tonight, alone, while dd is dancing (movie theatre across the street and she dances for 3 hours). Dh is not interested at all in seeing North Country so I will see if that works into the schedule!

Frouf

Kathy, I used to/still do some of what you described. When I was younger I lived in constant fear that something terrible would happen to my mother. I used to challenge myself with things like "If I don't climb all of these stairs before the commercial is over then something terrible will happen." Does that make you feel any better? :lol: I still struggle not to tell myself stupid things like that. And I am completely OCD regarding locked doors and unplugging things.

Whew! What a relief! Well, sorta ... either I'm normal or we're both messed up!

Hey Chicks. I just wanted to say Hi! I only have literally 2 minutes. I only had 4 hours sleep before the phone started ringing at 7:30 this morning. This is on top of already being sleep deprived. We're VERY happy but tired. We are now invited to a World Series party on Friday in the far northern suburbs at the home of the Sox Organist. It takes us about an hour and a half to drive there. I have to bake a dessert (I'm making something sinful) and some Core pasta salad (for me) and of course have NONE of the ingredients. I also have my Sister and BIL birthday party on Saturday for which I haven't finished shopping or bought any paper to wrap yet. That party starts at 3:00 on Saturday. So this is my long way of saying that I have no real prayer of being back online with all of you until Sunday. Sorry that I didn't ask in advance!

I'm doing OK.....NOT great. I'm in a bad place emotionally and physically and I'm too tired and the heel is too sore to exercise. I haven't been on the scale in about 2 or 3 days which is a VERY bad sign for me. I'm going to be as good as I can between now and then, but Sunday will be my recommit day. I haven't cooked in forever since I don't feel good. That's not so good. So....sorry to be a bummer, but I'll be back when I have time to read and reply properly.

Kathy, I hate to say it, but I think the odds are that we are just both messed up. :lol:

Vickie, I hope that you enjoy yourself the next few days and try not to worry too much. You have a lot going on! Enjoy your victory celebrations (cause I know the party won't be the only time that you are celebrating!).

Hey Chickies,
First of all,,,,congrats Vickie!! I heard the news on the radio this am and thought OH Vickie must have went nuts! Have fun at your parties,,,hope you feel better soon. We will miss you till sunday! Try and get some rest.
Kathy, I used to have to count to 10 all the time doing things...walking between cracks on the sidewalk, that sort of thing...I just thought it was a bad habit though. I did eventually stop it.
Step Away from the Donuts Froufy,,,,Step away from the donuts... I havent checked my tickets yet.......I hope its a bunch of people on one ticket too....could you imagine how excited that small town is right now!!
Melissa I was having little blow outs too recently...not sure what was going on but seems to be more under control now. Im proud of myself for not giving up though...keep on keeping on.
Volleyball tonight, survivor and Er with some popcorn and diet pepsi, tomorrow I will see if there was any damage from this weeks little blow out!
have a good night everyone!

YEA WHITE SOX!!!!

melissa, if we get to meet in person that would be great. if it doesn't work out, that's all right. we're still good friends and good friends understand each other and aren't demanding. (am i wording this right? you know what i mean.)

i am doing core but will have to use some wpa's tonight. we're meeting my friend and her hubby this evening for margaritas and nachos then coming back here to watch "survivor" then to hot tub. curtis and i have been very lacking in the social hemisphere. this will be our "date" for this week. it won't be long till we'll be "in training" and won't be able to do the drinks but we'll be able to keep socializing. life is good.

kathy, your post made me smile. this positive feeling is very contagious. it's like in archery--when someone on the line makes a bad shot and says something negative--that's contagious. positive stuff is much better to pass on. kathy, you're not whacko. we all have our little tendencies. i go to hillsboro shopping some when i'm down there. i know we'll be going to the sas shoe store (it it's still there.). i used to go to that mall quite a bit when i lived down closer.

frouf, i wrote out a long paragraph to you about not "trying" to be positive but to just "be positive" but i decided i was coming across as too much of a "know-it-all." i am proud of you for being positive. curtis and i both told ourselves and other folks we met today what a terrific day this is. it worked, too. we were at the archery shop (it's raining outside.) and a young man came in complaining about the rain; then he started giving us all these "excuses" why he wasn't going to shoot well. i told him it was a perfect day to be shooting indoors. he immediately started being more positive when he saw i wasn't going to fall into negativity. oops! looks like i typed one of those long "know-it-all" paragraphs afterall, doesn't it? what i'm mainly wanting to say here is, "thank you for reminding me to be a positive person."

OH MY GOSH, VICKIE!!!!! YOU'RE HUMAN!!!! girl, i am so proud of you for staying as focused as you are. i know it hasn't been easy with not feeling well--excitement of the world series--parties, etc..... i have no fear at all that you won't be back on core 100% sunday. i am as proud of you as always.

Girls Girls, GOOD MORNING! Let me just say that this has given me renewed hope! I am a compulsive weigher...and knowing how my weight fluctuates...I take that in stride. I peeked this am to see if any what the scale said and I am soo happy! It is down (waterweight) 3 lbs. Ok.....I wanted to say that yesterday I didnt eat (had to go to the store) from 11:30-5:45 and wasnt even thinking of food while preparing dinner (ok, a little but munching on some green beans took that away). I fought the demons last night for I REALLY wanted some candy or brownies BUT had a snack planned and had a caramel apple. I only used 5 wpa points yesterday and had a nice sized salad w/dinner. I want to say thank you for having me and helping me. Today is a BEAUTIFUL day and I am a Beautiful person! I am on program today and going to have grits for breakfast with a banana and some icbinb spray. Here is to an OP day!
Have a great one!

Wow, Kelly Jo, that is great! We're so glad that you are feeling good and that reading about our crazy selves may have helped.

Sandra, I know what you mean girlfriend! :D I think it would be fantastic to meet though, so maybe we can work on that when it gets closer to time. I hope that you had fun on your double date. :)

Patti, good luck with getting over your "blowouts." I had another one this morning, but I am okay as I don't plan to eat much the rest of the day while I am at work.

I'm planning on going to the grocery today and stocking up on CORE foods! The cabinets have been bare for the past week or so as I have been busy and lazy and unwilling to go do the deed. But I get off work early today so I will be doing it then. I'm going to surf the recipe boards while here at work to find out what I need to get. I've got to get back op! You guys will notice I have already started a ticker for my thanksgiving goal, even though halloween isn't over yet. I know that I am not going to lose any more before Monday and wanted to go ahead and prepare for a re-start. Another goal of mine is to drop some more weight before the middle of november, when we are going to our college homecoming. DH's class is having a reunion of sorts while we are there as well. So (while it isn't a dress-up event or anything) I would like to drop at least 2-4 more pounds before then. So onward and downward...:goodscale:

Hope everyone is okay, I haven't seen the boards this quiet since I started!

As I am reading through all these posts I am reminded of why I love it here...so encouraging and inspiring! Just reading through and catching up makes me want to work harder to reach my goal. Thanks for sharing ladies!