hey all. I've been home since Tuesday. Had a good time. My cousin said his last cat scan showed his tumor is smaller, but stage 4 cancer, his dr gives him more time, that is all. He was in good spirits and said he wasn't afraid to die. Then he cried when I left, saying he will never see me again, which in turn made me cry. He is more like a big brother to me, than a cousin.
Vickie, hope you get good news for Jim.
Rhonda, that salad sounds so good, except I would have to pass on the cottage cheese. It has always reminded me of sour milk. I tasted it once, but could only think of sour milk, lol. Congrats on the weight loss. You sure do deserve it, with all you do.
Sandra, hope you are good as new tomorrow. Must be allergies??
Maryann, I agree with the other chicks, don't climb that ladder. I have those aches with the weather change too.
jojo, woop di do, on your big loss this week.
I gained .2 this week. After all the good food I ate while in Michigan, I will take it. We weigh at 6 pm, which I do not like. Rather have a morning weigh in.
Hubby got new glasses today. His eyes were bothering him, and his one eye went from 20/40 to 20/80.
After walking around the fair, my feet feel as if I have a size 5 foot in a size 3 shoe. No Tejas no maypole, Just loud noisy generators and trucks the size of a bungalow. I'm going to have a go at your salad this evening, sounds delicious.
Maryann GET SOMEONE ELSE TO GO UP THAT LADDER FOR YOU
Vickie Good luck for the cardiology visits. Let us know how it went
Have a good one everyone. We are going to see my mum this morning... crash hats on everyone
Woke up late as I was so tired going on the shopping spree yesterday. Going to the movies at 3 to see Fast Five,than out to supper.
Going to try something new in my daily food journal. Its really an old WW trick of distributing the calories into 4 meals. So in my case to lose 1 lb only having 1413 calories daily dividing into 1413 in 4 will leave 353 per meal. Does that make sense?????
Have to get these pounds off as I can't breath probably when going up & down the stairs.My afraid that I'm going to whined up like Leo where my lungs will collapse if I don't that the fat off that that part of area.
VICKIE-I tried to used my picnic bench to climb but I was too short for reach it so I called the handy man.
SANDRA-I did call the handy man,as I didn't want to fall after I saw that I couldn't reach it.
RHONDA-The chicken salad look delish thanks for sharing it with us. Congrats on another 1 lb lost.
PAM-Sorry about your cousins cancer,its always hard for the person left behind,glad hes in good spirits . No I decided not to take further action on my climbing to reach the gutter.Hope the handy man will return my call soon.
JOJO-Don't worry I already called the handyman when it was impossible for me to reach it.
Have to go and read ready for the movies and a wonderful day and evening.
Hey Chicks. Jim saw the Internist today. He wasn't panicky but said Jim definitely needs to see the Cardiologist. The appointment is for May 16th. We just have to wait and see.
Sorry I haven't posted lately.
My friends have been keeping me busy with
activities & travel but I am worn out and ready to just stay home more and get caught up on paperwork that has piled up and start the estate paperwork.
The house feels like it is falling in around me with rotten trim, leaking showers
into the kichen ceiling and such but once I made a list and divided it into months it seems less overwhelming. This summer I am going to focus on outdoor things & the leaking shower and then the indoor things in the fall & winter.
My trust in God got shaken by this. Not so much that Robin died but events in those last few days that I trusted God with ..like that mistakes would not be made & similar things. I had a hard time not worrying about those things but was finally able to trust that God was taking care of the details. I know he was but just not the way I was thinking.. I am working through all that..
You are not alone Nancy When I get up to heaven, and before they turn me away, I have some very strong words to say to God before I leave. I expect some answers from him or her and several apologies and explanations on why we had to suffer Maggy Hilda Thatcher and Tony Blair
What a shock we had yesterday. Friends of ours have just come back from a Nile cruise. They had a wonderful time so much so that they were booking up next week for another later on in the year. We haven't seen them since they returned, just talked over the phone. Thursday evening, the husband felt a bit tired and turned in early. When his wife went up to bed a little later, he had died in his sleep. He's not been ill, is a very active 67 year old who walks everywhere instead of taking the car. Yesterday was a dreadful day. It hasn't helped that it will be our first anniversary of our daughter's death on May 26th and this has raked it all up again. I know I sound selfish saying that, but I'd only say it to my friends on here
Nancy, I understand about not agreeing with how God answers our prayers. When we lost our son I was so angry at God for taking him. But over time I realized that when he was in CICU those weeks I never prayed that God would keep him with me, I prayed that Ben would be healed. Sadly the healing he got was the perfect healing but just not here on earth. Keep praying and leaning on God, he won't let you down. He just may take you down a trail you didn't even know existed let alone ever wanted to go down. Having faith is never easy, but you have to just keep leaning on Him. HUGS to you.....
Jim is definitely not an emergency situation but then all the Doctors do is guess anyway. We are going to have a quiet weekend. I'd be happier if he could go to the Cardiologist next week but they are busy folks. Next week he sees the Ortho for his degenerative disc disease. Sigh.
Nancy, Jojo, Paula, thank you for sharing your feelings about the loss of your loved ones. I've been there too, with the loss of my DH in 1986. Nancy, it took me a good three years to feel fully human again. I don't thing that is particularly unusual. Most of us manage to function and get things done, but feelings are something else entirely.
I've had a good week with eating "clean." I'm not getting on the scales for a while, but my clothes are fitting more loosely and I can wear pants that were too tight a few weeks ago.
Had a beautiful sunny day to walk along the beach was able to get 20 mins in before my lower back started to hurt.
Got some of my winter clothes out of the closet to make room for my Capri sets,and summer church clothes.
Didn't to to well at W-I this morning I went up to 170 again,being back back restaurant going this week. The movie Fast Five was really a top action movie. Went to the 3:15 show and than out to 99 to eat.
VICKIE-Sorry about your DH having to see the Cardiologist,but if its necessary it best to see him,even if is not an emergency situation. I know these doctor are very busy even on the Cape my friends have to wait weeks before seeing one. Have a wonderful Mother's Day a day set aside for relaxing.
NANCY-I agree with the ladies on this thread just keep on believing and have faith in God he will protect you and be with you always.Just trust in him,he'll get you thought everything.
Have to go,when to watch the rest of the golf game.
I tried to work on the yard & pool but today everything I tried was turning out terrible. I ended up crying and working at the same time determined to get something done. Then I had a good meltdown..
My daughter & son are going to help tomorrow..Lesson learned is to quit trying to do it all myself and accept help from those that offer.
One son is coming home tomorrow and one daughter lives here, so we will spend time tomorrow.
I am trying to go through just a few of Robin's clothes occasionally so there won't be this big dreaded day of "going through his clothes" Tonight I put about 10 of his shirts that he didn't like anyway into the Goodwill pile. That was easy enough. I threw out his socks & briefs the other night..
Even though I know he is gone it still feels so weird that he doesn't need his clothes..like I should save them for him...
I still spend a lot of time thinking about whether I want a small home or town home when I sell this place. I have a cat & dog and love having a hottub & fireplace so maybe a small house . One friend reminded me that
for what the dues are at a townhome I could pay someone to mow my grass if I were in a house.
There isn’t a time limit on grief Nancy, nor a formula for getting through it. I wish there was. Sometimes, I think those old Victorians knew what they were talking about. They went into unrelieved black and went through a mourning phase which had rigid rules. These days, we live in a slick quick world, often there is little time to think before folk are onto the next whatever. After the funeral, it seems that there is an attitude with non-family members of ‘Well, that’s over then, time to get on with life’
Take your time, cry whenever wherever. When people ask how you are, tell them the truth, putting a brave face on takes it out of you. We cleared out our daughter’s clothes and CD’s etc while we still felt numb. We didn’t want to create a shrine. That was the right thing to do for us, but it might not work for everyone. Remember too, that at the moment the memories have hard, sharp edges which cut deeper than any knife but time has a way of rubbing off these hard edges so that the memories become warm and comforting.
