Hidey hey folks! Wow... today I slept in. For a big half hour. What is it with me these last couple years? Can't sleep late no matter what. Bah. Ohwell, got all my forums read, swept and mopped the kitchen floor (to include under and behind the refrigerator and inside the pantry!), have done two loads of laundry, fed and walked the dogs, eaten breakfast and had coffee... now what? The weather was SUPPOSED to be sunny and beautiful. Yeah. Liars.
I want a job where I can be wrong nearly all the time and still get paid good money for it.
Red - Hey! Last time we talked, you were co-owner of your halflinger mish-mash and your co-owners were opting out. Did you buy her outright? What is her name? When do we get to see pics? OMG Bored? Of horse talk!? Gah! Blasphemy. Ok, well, maybe I'm just speaking for myself there.
We're up from one to three now... I'm a glutton for punishment and financial woes. Horse poor, that's me. But my kids agree, we'd rather be broke with the horses than well off without them.
And wow... the habit controlling you issue. That is something I went through with an entirely different addiction about 7 years ago. That was the first time I realized that I was not the one in control, my addiction was. That was the first time I made a commitment to myself to never let any other addiction, emotion, situation control me, to the best of my ability. That was when my life started to turn around. It's been a long road. I've got a long journey left to go... I don't think it will ever end, but that's ok. I've chosen a different path than the one I was on, and even if it's not perfect, it's MINE. Realizing that something external was controlling me was, like you said, a big blow to my pride. Dressage! Personally I think dressage - at least the low level stuff, like you said - is great for everyone, horses and riders! My daughter wants badly to start into it. I think she and Shadow will be beautiful together. Then my son is big on speed and jumping, sooooo... stadium jumping, anyone? He's not there yet, and Eve certainly isn't, but it wouldn't surprise me if that's the direction he takes. Me? Bah.. who knows. I just want to have fun and train my horse to do cool things.
Happy -
to you, woman!! You are doing tremendously well in my book! I can relate to the job thing. It's terrifying. I think the unknown is the most horrid part. What will happen? What if ... Like you, I don't want to be rich. I just want to have a home, have my ponies, and be able to pay the bills. Right now I'm making nearly half the income I was making 3 years ago, but I'm grateful to even have that. It's steady, I have benefits, and I'm slowly, agonizingly clawing my way out of the financial black hole I've been in for the last 3 years. Yeah, it would have helped if I hadn't gotten the horses. But there are some things that are worth the price. It was either them or a therapist and anti-depressants. Just try to take a deep breath and remember that things will work out. Maybe not the way you think they should, or want them to, but they will work out. Each day brings the possibility of change, of surprise, of a new beginning. You know that. I understand the fear, the hopeless feeling, the "why bother" syndrome. Because we have to. *huge hug*
Chachee Chickie! - You are such a cool woman. I'm so glad we met, and I'm hoping we get a chance to visit again when I deliver my son to AK this fall. We're hoping all that's wrong with our Shadow-girl (or as my daughter likes to call her, Hikage
) is an abscess. That would be about the most minimal issue - so we're soaking the foot at least once a day - it's hard when you board 40 minutes from the house - and the farrier is coming in two days. He might be able to dig it out if it hasn't busted through by then. Once the pressure is relieved, that's the biggest part. Then depending on the abscess, maybe a little more soaking till it starts to heal, maybe a bell boot to keep yuckies from getting into it, whatever. Like I said, I'm just keeping my fingers crossed it's nothing more serious than that. No swelling, heat, or anything to indicate otherwise, but still... it's like with kids, you worry, you know? More information than you needed?
I agree with you that hunger does not necessarily have to be a part of losing weight. As a matter of fact, this is the first time in my life (since I found 3FC) that I realized I was always eating too little in the past to actually lose fat. If I get hungry now, I know it's because I've forgotten to eat for way too long. Tsk. I had to chuckle when I read the part about your scale screwing with your brain. Sometimes I really do believe that. Whatever the weight is, just take a deep breath and keep going. It almost seems that weight loss is directly and negatively proportional to how important that next lower number is.
Jolly - That was a great post. I know I've done that too... I don't think I'm AS bad as I used to be about it, but it's still there. The "if I were slender just think how much better *fill in the blank* would be." It's like being overweight is the great delimiter of life. You gave me some good stuff to think about there. A 5K in October, eh? *ponder* You want to play a game? *blink* I haven't been running for over a month now. I was up to 3 miles, but not at a solid run. I'd gotten to the point where I could run/jog a mile without feeling like I was going to keel over, but ... I'm essentially starting over now. Let me know how the jogging looks, maybe we can set up a challenge together to get ourselves to that 5K run, hm?
Kathy! - Nice of you to pop in and say hi, but how are you doing??? How's the job? Are things better with the boss? How's your daughter doing? Is she riding still? How's the new baby doing? Did you keep him? C'mon, talk to us, girlie!
Hippy, Sassy -
Today I'm anxiously awaiting the ground training manual I ordered on horse training. It's supposed to be here UPS today... but of course I have no idea WHEN.
I figure today is clean the house and visit the ponies day, then tomorrow morning early I go grocery shopping, take the kids to the horse supply place, more horsie play time, V's riding lesson, out to dinner with the kids and then to Van Helsing. I've seen it already, I loved it! But that's the kind of movie I tend to enjoy - I know the kids will think it's a great ride, too. Let's see, then the farrier on Friday, so horsie day nearly all day, then maybe off to get V's tongue pierced. Or that might be Saturday... Machine needs his hair cut, I need to pick up dead mice and things, blah... too much to do, thank goodness I'm off work for 5 days!!
Happy Wednesday folks! Hope everyone's week is going smoothly (and a special hug for Happy who is studying for her final like a crazy person).