Hi guys,
It's been a LONG time since I've posted. Long story short, I went on a weight loss journey in 2009 and went from 205 pounds down to 125 pounds in summer of 2010. I did it all the right way, no fad diets. Very sensible eating and exercise until I reached my goal. Well, as you may be guessing, the scale has steadily climbed up, up and up, and as of my last weigh-in, I'm back around 172. All overeating. Only myself to blame. No real excuses. UGH!
Needless to say, I have clothes in all sizes, but actually, I got rid of the bigger sizes, so I'm "squeezing in" to some of my clothes. I fully admit that. The past 2 weeks, I've been on a real health kick, and the scale is moving downward. I'm proud of myself for being back on track, but mad about the regain. I'm sure a lot of you know this feeling.
Well today I was walking in a parking lot at Old Navy near my house. A stranger (a woman no less) yelled from the car, "Excuse me, excuse me! Can I have those jeans??? Girl, you are WEARING those jeans!) Then, she laughed. I don't know if that's a backhanded compliment, a making fun of me or what. And yep, the jeans are tight. Believe me, I know it. I didn't know what to say, really, so I said "thanks". LOL. But, oh boy, I felt crushed. I mean, I'm pretty conservative overall, just a little larger for my colder weather clothes. If I'm attracting attention from my jeans, that's not a good thing for me. It's not like I look good in them. I'm a short pudgy girl at 172lbs and 5 foot 1. I am "blessed" with a large rear and it's much, much larger than it used to be. I half-heartedly looked through a few racks, looked as some clothes for my kids and pretty quickly went home. I just was dying to change my clothes. So, now I'm in some sweats.
It was just....humiliating. I don't want to buy bigger pants either, because my goal is to go DOWN, not buy a bigger size yet again. I'm actually doing well these past few weeks, so I'm hopeful my size will shrink a little. I know it will, I've done this before. I can do it again. I really want to, because I miss the skinny me, even if it only lasted awhile. I miss my old wardrobe too.
Thanks for listening to my embarrassing experience today!