Ok now I want to cry because I wrote out huge replies to everyone and then I closed the window by mistake.. haha, eugh!
Let me try this again
VermontMom I can understand that, it's usually difficult to tell close people for some reason. I'm so glad that you're happy though, that's wonderful, you deserve it
I think this time I found it so hard to admit because I've been through it before and it's been up and down my whole life. I was just in denial because I wanted to be ok so desperately. I'll figure it out eventually. No, not someone professional, I've had bad experiences in the past but I know a lot of people who benefit from it. I can't afford it now anyway and the free ones have such huge waiting lists. I have a friend that's doing a group therapy thing and she finds it really great. You should look into seeing someone, it's probably a good idea
AuntyJam Wow, the fact that you can run at all is amazing to me! I can run for like 20 seconds haha! So well done. And don't beat yourself up about not always doing it.. that's life, sometimes you'll be able to do more and sometimes less.
grneyedmustang I hope you're feeling better too, thanks! I'd totally recommend giving up alcohol for a while. It's a depressant and really bad for mood swings. Especially if you're considering taking some alone time, it's important to make sure you're doing it for the right reasons. I'll be honest I've done something similar but it was just my depression isolating me from people even more, under the guise of "figuring myself out". Although if you honestly feel positive about it yeah maybe it's not such a bad idea but you have to be really clear about what you're doing/want to achieve and have a plan I think.
hope4meIs that strange? I remember that from when I was on antidepressants years ago.. felt strange to me. I hope they're helping you anyway.
It's late so I hope that everything I wrote makes sense!
I just got home after a few days back visiting family. It was tricky to eat normally (and I didn't) but I didn't eat anything too terrible that I gained.. next time I'm going to take more control of what I'm eating. One day we stopped at an American style diner for dinner and there was nothing healthy on the menu. Sucks.
Mood wise I'm feeling really up and down. Finding some of the decisions I made when I was emotionally vulnerable quite difficult and now I'm not sure how I feel. Bit mixed up really. Trying to focus on positive things in my life though.
Hope everyone's doing well