yesterday was up, down, up, down. mixed bag. i worked hard (and i mean HARD) to avoid the monday doughnuts in the office kitchen. another hard-won battle to give myself NO CHOICE. it worked! yay! then another, getting my butt to the gym for yoga and running. had a headache and was feeling generally blechy, but i decided when i started training that the only things that would keep me from the gym were injury and illness. feeling "blechy" doesn't meet that criteria, so off i went. had a crappy time in class and only ran 2.3 miles instead of my planned 3, but i went and did so credit moi. ate on plan all the way till dinner, then went off the rails. aaaargghhh! whaazzaaah???? i know, KNOW, i won't lose weight eating this way. three months of empirical evidence tells me so. trying this, trying that, but i know it's the food that's holding me back. back to beck - again. i'll work some of the later lessons, since i lost steam both previous times through. have a notebook for things like the 7-question method etc. i'm absolutely healthier and smaller than i've been in a long, long, time, and this is wonderful. i can fit into my smallest-sized pants. credit moi. it's just that my smallest-sized pants are 14s, a considerable distance from where i'd ideally be. i've got a few more months before we start TTC again, and i'd really like to be down 20 lbs by then. so. this is the focus for my advantages.
later night than i'd planned - was putting away laundry and watching a cake challenge on the tivo when i had an idea about using luster dust with isomalt to make edible jewels. so i was cleaning sugar off pots at 11:00 last night instead of sleeping. (sigh!) the good news is that my next cake (coming up in three weeks) will have some really cool bits and pieces. still not sure if and when and how i'd transition from obsessive, paid hobby to fulltime job (
sciencequeen, it's just a part-time gig - i have a non-related fulltime job) but i don't have to make a decision about that anytime soon.
onebyone! go ON, you badass! i bet you're feeling it today in your abs and chest and all those muscles that woke up yesterday. hope you like that feeling!
keep at it and eventually you'll have one day when you're looking in the mirror, and you see muscles flexing when you lift a weight. it's AWESOME. i wish i could work out with you! how wonderful that you found a good place to be. that's so important, and underrated. you've got to feel comfortable going or you won't go. big shout out to nadine. i also understand that horrible, visceral, i'm-so-fat-and-ugly-i-shouldn't-even-leave-the-house feeling. it can be completely debilitating. have to give that one the old "oh well" and think of it as a cold. it comes, it goes. oh well! i also like the idea of making one small diet improvement at a time. i have a hard time with this - i'm either "good" or "bad". ironically neither is good (have to agree with
bill on this.) need healthy middle ground that allows me to lose weight. still haven't found it. maybe
barb can help with insight on this - you seem to have nailed it!
heidi, i would love to send you a cake!
not sure how one would ship it, but there are folks who do. that would certainly open up my potential customer base! maybe i can work on reduced fat and calorie versions. wouldn't THAT be something? pretty, decorated cakes that are healthier than the ones normal bakeries put out? i never use trans fats anyway - maybe there's a way to make the rest of it a little healthier. hmmm... if push comes to shove, 24 hour fitness is selling bodybuggs at reduced prices since the new versions are coming out in the fall. it might be more affordable.
MAZEL TOV
freer! that's fantastic! enjoy your pedi! what color are you going for?
shrinkin, nice work on talking yourself out of "making up" for the extra calories and just getting back on plan immediately. that sounds like a thin person talking.
bill, nothing to be disappointed about! you just discovered an exciting new goal. when i was 10, we had to do this demoralizing "presidential fitness test" at school, and if you passed all the tests, you got a medal. i couldn't do most of it and the one that really flattened me was maintaining a chin-up position on a bar for some set amount of time. it was just my build - very unlikely that i would be able to support my mesomorphic body with my arms. the whole test put me off fitness and training for oh, maybe 25 years? i hope they don't put kids through that shame these days. if you can take that disappointment and channel it into working even harder, i salute you! and can't wait to hear that you've done a full chin up. i might try the gravitron out today myself just to see where i am...
i did recognize the circle game yesterday, but had no idea who sang it originally (we used to sing it in sunday school, of all places.) have no idea on neither song nor artist today. again, i could cheat, but, naa. won't do it!