Heather, that inhales. I hope it is just a minor, quick-healing injury. A little ibuprofen can go a long way.
I had a better run than I planned to have today. I went to the gym and got my superstitiously-favorite treadmill. I did my warm-up, went to potty and came back thinking, "Heck with this, I will just go to the elliptical and be done." As I thought about why I did not want to run, I realized it was fear of failure. "Just don't fail. It is that easy."
So I ran my 20 pretty easily. I decided to call it quits and started the cool down. Then all this happened in my little head:
What are you doing? You are not sore, winded or tired. Start running. (so I did).
Go for three more minutes. (I did)
You can make it to the five. (I did. Then I started doing math in my head about tenths of mile in how many seconds and how far and long, etc etc etc. Remember--the treadmill would tell me all of this, but I am a number cruncher by nature.)
Kick it up to 5.6. See how you look at 8. Eight will be 28 minutes total. Are you some sort of weenie? Just don't stop. All you have to do is not stop. (I make it to 8)
Your longest is 29 minutes, surely, you can do that. And if you can do nine, then do 10. (At ten, I was at .8 something miles)
One mile. All you have to do it complete the mile. Can't do it? Make it to .95. (I did) All you have is 5 one-hundredths of a mile and you are not sure you can make it? Seriously? Are you that pathetic? What is your prob..... (I hit the mile at 11:01 and hit the cool down button)
31 minutes!!! If my head would just grasp that I can do it without stopping, I could do three miles. While calling myself names works sometimes, I am thinking about asking people on treadmills around me to insult me. "In two minutes, could you look at me and tell me that I am a pathetic lump? Thanks."
"If you see me hit the cool down button before 30 minutes, could you sneer condescendingly at me and say something like, "On your way to Burger King, Pudge?"
"When I slow down, could you whisper to your friend over there, 'I knew she wouldn't last' and then laugh?"
Maybe there is a podcast out there to humiliate runners into performing better!