Confession Part 2

  • Haven't been OP in several days and have gained a ton of weight. I'm really depressed right now & am going to try to make an Overeater's Anonymous meeting tonight. There's one not far from my office. DH & I carpool & the car is parked at his office, but he has promised to leave on time so I can make it to the meeting. I see a therapist but feel I need a group setting as well. Does anyone have any experience w/OA, good or bad?

    Sorry to whine, I really want to get back on track & will try very hard to do so. Wish I could get back the motivation I had just a few months ago. Whenever I make one little mistake (not diet related: being late for work, saying the wrong thing, etc), I head for the chocolate. I had to go into the clothes I had packed up because they were too big, in order to have something to wear to work today. I really don't know why I can't do what was second nature to me just 6 weeks ago. I realize with all the s**t going on in the world my problems are trivial, but I'm afraid if I don't get a grip soon I never will.

    Jennifer Whiner
  • Hugs to you Jennifer!! You are not a whiner, you are simply stating what many of us, myself included are feeling right now!!

    I just went to the gyno and I was telling her all my troubles and symptoms...dry skin, weight gain, irregular periods, fatigue, irritability...she immediately gave me a test for hypo-thyroidism and told me that 1 out of 20 women have it and don't even know it. I am sure is this is what is wrong with me it will not solve all my problems but it may give me some answers at least. I also have to go back and have cholesterol, sugar tests and a mammogram. What fun!!

    I think we should all not only attend our meetings OA or WW or whatever we choose, but each and every one of us should have a physical and rule out all health problems!!!

    Hugs to all!!!!
  • hey jen!
    hey there girlie!

    i know that we email each other - but I just wanted to say here that I am praying for you!

    I have several friends (and have met several people here) that go to OA and they love it - surely something positive would come out of going to the meeting!

    You go girl! and keep me posted!

    luv ya,

    cathy
  • Ah Jennifer, I so know where you are coming from! Boy we're really having a hard ride of it, huh? I'll help you if you help me, OK? I am determined to make it better for myself and leave off the fear that came after Sept.11th. The fear infected my goals and my strategies and I let terrorism win in my heart because the fear and the anxiety started to take over!

    No more, no more, NO MORE! Now I'm angry--especailly at thosewho truned my world into chaos and let me feel the fear and let me feel unworthy or unsuccessful--and you need to know that too Jennifer. It isn't you who is doing it--it's the terrible people who started all this--shook our faith and our confidence and most of all our security. And what do carb addicts reach for when feeling insecure--FOOD! So if you need to find someone to blame--blame the terrorists because without them I wouldn't have a reason so be so darned determined to fight right now! So here I am declaring war on fat--who's with me!? CHARGE!!!!..............
  • Jen,

    Boy do I know what you mean and how you feel...........SHOOT the wind blows the wrong way and thats excuse enough for me to go off the diet.

    Hang in there, your with friends here so don't be ashamed or worry about talking to us.........thats what friends are for.

    If you need to talk PM me.

    Love Leens
  • Jennifer

    Hang in there my friend, you can overcome this. I agree with Leens you are here with friends and when you feel like whining do that, we will listen and we all understand exactly what you are going through. That is what friends are for!

    Remember how you helped me through my chocolate ordeal, let us all help you now.

    In my eyes, you are a wonderful, unselfish, loving and giving person, you were willing to send me low carb chocolates from Texas to South Africa just to help me out. For that you will always have a special place in my hart.

    SPECIALY FOR YOU!

    SOMEBODY IS THINKING OF YOU AND SMILING
    SOMEBODY IS VERY PROUD OF YOU
    SOMEBODY WANTS TO BE WITH YOU
    SOMEBODY IS THANKFUL FOR THE SUPPORT YOU HAVE PROVIDED
    SOMEBODY WANTS YOU TO BE HAPPY
    SOMEBODY WANTS TO HUG YOU
    SOMEBODY ADMIRES YOUR STRENGTH
    SOMEBODY WANTS TO BE YOU SHOULDER TO CRY ON
    SOMEBODY WANTS TO LAUGH WITH YOU
    SOMEBODY PRAISES GOD FOR YOU FRIENDSHIP AND LOVE
    SOMEBODY WANTS TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH THEY CARE
    SOMEBODY’S GLAD YOU’RE THEIR FRIEND
    SOMEBODY MISSES YOU GUIDANCE
    SOMEBODY HAS FAITH IN YOU
    SOMEBODY TRUST YOU
    SOMEBODY NEEDS YOUR SUPPORT
    SOMEBODY NEEDS YOU TO HAVE FAITH IN THEM

    AND THAT SOMEBODY IS ME!
  • THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH!!!

    I'm about to cry!

    I really appreciate all your kind words and wishes. I went to OA last night and between that and ya'll and Peach's article I feel so motivated and at peace with myself for the first time in a long time.

    Thanks again so much. This is really a special place full of special people.

    Love,
    Jennifer
  • Jennifer--sending you all my support and good thoughts in your struggle. I hope that you are able to make your meeting and that it gives you the lift that you need. I can honestly say (without going into detail) that I know where you are coming from. Take care my friend--many hugs! ((((((()))))))
  • Thanks Annie!

    I did go to the meeting last night & it was great. I felt so at home and really motivated. I plan to go to another meeting Sunday night.

    Hugs,
    Jennifer
  • CONGRATS!
    I am sooooooo glad you went to the meeting and glad it went well!

    Hang in there girlie!

    Just take it one step, one day at a time!

    hugs, cathy