[Kate109]

HI everybody!

I am binge- free for 5 weeks now - quite a big deal for me. I felt terrific in the first weeks, lost weight etc. and my mind was clearer and my depression lifted a bit. But since a week or two I feel as if I would slip back into my old habbits. I havenīt have a relapse until now, but I am in that part of the relapse- thing where you feel that the ground is slippery, your feet canīt find a place to stand and your doing a lot of things with your arms to avoid falling down.....

So I KNOW that I have to change a few things in order to feel good again and to avoid a full- blown relapse. But I have problems with my motivation. University is stressful, so my mind and body react with tirednessm my mind is cloudy, I canīt concentrate and I feel overwhelmed by everything.
The steps I have to do are:
1. Healthier food choices- I ate to much crap in the last weeks.
2. Exercises- I havenīt exercised regularly in the last weeks

Does anybody have a suggestion? Anybody been in that situation before and successfully came out (please donīt mind horrible grammar)? What about schedules? I love to plan, but plans never work for me....

I am a bit whiny today...Iīll try to hide under my blanket the last days, but somehow that couldnīt be the right way.

Kate

[Misti in Seattle]

Actually I think you have your answer... healthier food choices and exercise. That's what works. As for the motivation, I think that is where we often mess up... by expecting to HAVE any! Motivation is a feeling, and our feelings are fickle... come and go. Keeping this up has to be a decision we make; just like you get up and go to class (I assume) whether or not you feel motivated. It has to be a choice we make.

Hang in there!!! And just come out from under those blankets and move that butt!

[ellis]

Kate, I agree with Misti. It's so hard, but when we're feeling that way we just have to make a little extra effort. You know you'll feel better if you exercise and eat well.
I always remember one of the members here saying, "I hate exercise, and the whole time I'm tying up my running shoes I'm thinking, "I hate it, I hate it, I HATE IT!!". But I tie 'em up and exercise and feel better afterwards."
There's nothing wrong with not wanting to do it. Admit you don't want to do it, and work through it, knowing that it's good for your mental and physical health.
(did that make sense? I'm only on my first coffee... )
Big hugs, sweetie...

[MyThreeTots]

I agree!!! Do it first and the motivation will follow. We just CAN'T always be all thrilled and happy about getting up and exercising. Yuck. You are already doing so well. And you're smart to see a relapse coming BEFORE it gets here! Way to go!

p.s. Your grammar is excellent. So is your command of English in general. I can not imagine going on a German board and trying to make a single person understand me. They'd all be like, "What the heck is my3tots talking about?" LOL!

[Kate109]

Ok Girls, I did it. I finally managed to throw myself on the hometrainer- and cycle for 30 Min. I donīt love it, but I am glad itīs over and I feel better after I did it.
Maybe the trick for me is to do my exercises in the morning, after brushing my teeth. I am not such a morning person and my brain needs a certain amount of time and coffee to wake up. So I use that sleepy state of my brain to exercise- not so awake that I could think of an excuse....

Thanks for the kick in ..... I guess I needed it.
Oh, and I did better with food yesterday

Kate

[Misti in Seattle]

Good for you, Kate! I am proud of you! I was the same yesterday... I did NOT want to get out there and do my water aerobics but I knew that once I got out there into the pool I would be fine and sure enough, I did them for a long time and even enjoyed it. Getting started is the worst part... there are a zillion excuses running through our brains why NOT to do it! You go!!!! Keep it up.