Wahoo! I weighed myself in at work (reliable scale) and weighed in at 177! My weight topped at 276, one more pound to go!
A few (I've lost count) years ago for mother's day, my husband and daughters bought me an exercise contraption. Honest, don't know what the thing is called, but then...it killed me to use it, basically, you sit on it, have peddles & handlebars, and when you do it's thing, it gives you a full body work-out...well, you are also carrying your weight when you use it..no wonder I hated it..WELL, decided to give the thing a try again, and it's fun now!
It's been raining, our road is muddy (the one I make my 3 mile walk on...sometimes I have done laps) and I did 400 repititions on it. I plan to keep doing this for awhile to see what how it does chasing the cellulite away. I've got butterfly arms in a Way that I don't like. My tummy is still gross. It's my tummy, I can say that! Anyway, I am about to go to work and pass out pills...don't worry, it's all legal, but the state inspectors are in for their yearly inspection, and so...I will have a shadow with me all day. Just wanted to share my success...I am closer and closer to throwin a party Be good to yourself!
Did you say you were "passing out pills"? Congratulations on that loss. I have lost 50 pounds and it's taken me 11 months to do so. I have 50 more to go myself. Hopefully it won't be long that I can make my "one more to go" statement. Way to go!!!
WAY TO GO REFUGE! ooops, didn't mean to yell. Then again, your accomplishment is worth shouting about! Congratulations. Tell us how you've gotten all the way there and share your wisdom.
Thanks for the congrats (pattin self on back ) To answer your question, How'd I do it. The first element of necessity was making up my mind...and with finality. I do have a journal, and a web site
You can read my Shedding Weight Loss Journal I need to update it, but I am really busy. The mental issue for me was really hard, because it meant breaking a promise to myself when I was four years old. I was molested, and pornographic magazines were used as a means by which my violator could "justify" my taking off my clothes. I vowed that I would never "look like those women". That was the first thing I had to do. I made the decision that I was not going to allow that to rule the rest of my life. I didn't know how I was going to break out of my fortress of fat, my companion of fear, anxiety, and insecurities. But with the first initial decision to "get healthy", "claim my sexuality" IT'S MINE! and IT Belongs to me. Just as it belongs to every woman and every man. That was liberating. I won't say that it has been easy going....I mean, I literally had a war going on inside me when I would drink my water..I use to take in 8 glasses a year maybe. When I would go on my walks, I had struggles with major anxiety.. a LOT of tears, getting rid of all that anger that has been stored up for YEARS! But, as I would keep pushing up against these walls, the stronger I became, and the weaker the walls or wars became. I felt better and better with each passing month. I have had plateaus, and there was one time that I gained some weight back, during some very emotional times, not sure how much it was, I just new that I couldn't zip my size 16 jeans that I so proudly wore a couple of weeks before. I know I am on the last stretch...I hope that the closer and closer that I get that I won't find myself scared, I worry about that sometimes.
There was a guy at work that kept calling me "sexy"..and after a while, I told him to shut the "****" up. He doesn't even look at me now. So, that kind of attention still bothers me apparently..but hey.. I know that getting my body to it's optimum level of health is going to be AWESOME in the end. I do go into great detail on my web site if your interested. Stop on by. I have pictures in my journal, and there are some pictures of when I was a kid. So, in my opinion...making healthier eating and drinking choices, MOVING that body (even if you have to "sit & be fit" with PBS) and most importantly, MAKING that decision. And you will know it when you have made that choice. Hang in!
Oh, and when I said that I passed pills, I am a medication aide in a nursing home, Lot's of calcium & poop pills
Reading your messages is exactly what I needed to see. I have a 100 lbs to loose and am just starting. I will print your message and use it for encouragment when I am weak. Thank you for sharing.
Wonderful, you have done such a great job. It gives me hope. I had almost 100 lbs to lose and have lost 50. Was getting a bit down and then found this board. It has renewed my determination.
Refuge, I visited your page and I absolutely love it.
I am so sorry that you were exposed to abuse and pornography so early on in life. It breaks my heart that you experienced that. Stories like yours are part of the reason I am a feminist.
I am so happy to hear that you have reclaimed your sexuality. Indeed, it is YOURS and YOURS alone. And no matter what your size, you will always be an amazing inspiration and a totally wonderfully delicious sexual being who brings joy to herself and others.
Thanks so much for setting up that website. It's such an inspiration and an important step for so many women. And as for the sexist men who call you names, well, that can happen if you're any size. But I do understand the fear that exists in being objectified for coming close to the societal beauty ideal. That is something we discussed at TOPS the other night, and apparently it is quite a common fear, though in your case I can understand it goes much deeper psychologically because of your history of abuse.
Your body is yours. Yours to feel pleasure with, yours to experience life with, yours to do with as you please. And because of your inner radience and determination, you have shown so many other women what it's like to live inside their own bodies --- not solely for the pleasure of others.
1 more pound, I will break 100!
Anyway, I am about to go to work and pass out pills...don't worry, it's all legal, but the state inspectors are in for their yearly inspection, and so...I will have a shadow with me all day. Just wanted to share my success...I am closer and closer to throwin a party 
Congratulations!
Did you say you were "passing out pills"? Congratulations on that loss. I have lost 50 pounds and it's taken me 11 months to do so. I have 50 more to go myself. Hopefully it won't be long that I can make my "one more to go" statement. Way to go!!!
Y Thankya (taking a bow)
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