[AlyssaJoy]

Have any of you had the 'skinny dream'? That's the one where you dream you're suddenly the thin self you've been working so hard to attain? I've had that one numerous times over the years; even before I started losing weight. I love that dream!!

Well, for the fist time ever, last night I had the opposite dream! I dreamed I got on the scale and I was heavier than where I started out before dieting. And then (still in my dream), I was looking in the mirror without my shirt on, and, let's just say, my image reflected my gain, too. I looked sort of disfigured!

Let me tell ya, I was so happy to wake up and realize it was all just a nasty dream.

I think I know where this odd dream stemmed from. I used to do Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred awhile back, but, truth be told, I hated it! It did work well, and I lost weight and toned while on it in a big way, but I'm sorry to say, I just don't like 'her' that well.

I quit 'The Shred' after three months and started on my own workout routine, which is definitely less vigorous. I'd sweat my brains out with Jillian, and I'm not a natural sweater (low thyroid), but I don't sweat much, if at all, by jogging on the treadmill and working out with weights.

I guess I've been wondering and hoping I'll not lose the muscle tone I gained with Jillian and my weight loss stall out. I think a little fear had crept in there; hence, the nightmare.

I'm good now, and I'm holding onto faith that all will be well and my body will do what it's supposed to do.

Do you ever fear your weight loss will stall out, or your body will rebel and not allow you to achieve your goals? I have to chase those thoughts away sometimes.

Love,

Alyssa

[LiannaKole]

I've had that dream! The skinny dream is one I had a few times when I was bigger and longing to get smaller. It was awesome! I was slender and could wear whatever I wanted, and I knew it was a dream and it still felt amazing! It was really, really nice until I woke up and realized it wasn't true.

Then I began losing weight and that dream hasn't recurred (though it was never regular at all). I did have a dream just a few nights ago that I'd become very large. I had a camel toe belly that hung to my knees, huge thighs and arms, I couldn't cross my legs and barely got my knees to touch, couldn't fit anywhere and everything flapped as I moved. I've never been that big in reality, but it sure was horrible in my dream. Very uncomfortable (but a little fascinating in a morbid kinda way once I woke up).

The thin dream is more fun at this stage in my weight loss journey. I think more now about how I might have become if I didn't stop my gain. If I'd kept going at my rate, I'd be 300 lbs in my 30th year. I don't want that. I'm actually still afraid of it.

And yes, I do have the fear that my weight loss will just quit and I'll be stuck and even gain a ton. It's not fun, and it's a fairly recently developed fear. Every little plateau I hit has my blood running cold with thoughts that this is it, this is where it stops and I get stuck. It hasn't happened so far. I'm glad you brought that up - it's nice to know I'm not alone in that. I'm working to minimize that fear (though a little fear of stopping or backsliding is good I think).

On a more positive note - I'm so with you on making my own workout routines. I can't stand cardio videos (strength training is okay); my own routine is much more sustainable and enjoyable for me. If I don't like it, I won't keep doing it.

Great thread!

[AlyssaJoy]

Originally Posted by LiannaKole

Every little plateau I hit has my blood running cold with thoughts that this is it, this is where it stops and I get stuck.

LOL! I've felt exactly this way!! LOL!

And as for the cardio videos, yeah, they end up driving me up the wall after awhile. hehe! I blame myself for my low tolerance, though. I just don't want to hear the same goofy words, day after day, week after week, while I'm trying to focus on my workout. It makes me crazy! And I'm sorry to say, Jillian's 'bruiser-tough girl' attitude () doesn't appeal to me, even though I highly recommend her workouts.


Alyssa