kick her in the face! (i'll help you!)

I want to show up all the *****es in school who made fun of me and talked behind my back. I missed out on so many opportunities because of my weight and how I felt about myself.

No more. My 20s are going to be awesome. Whether I like it or not. LOL

I want to make the guy I was dating regret taking "a break for a while"! His life is "changing too much and so much is going on" that he just does not think it is fair for him to date me right now because he "can't give me the attention I deserve." BS dude! Next time you see me you will regret this move!

I want to be one of those infuriating skinny people who complains about shopping in mainstream stores because they don't make sizes small enough for me. I can already fit into kids' shoes and need kid-sized watch bands for my small wrists - might as well have a waistline to match!

I want to be the skinny friend and be able to wear a bathing suit in pictures (by bathing suit I mean *skimpy* bikini!) and to look great, if not better, than my friends in a totally loving way of course! And to be the thin sister, my sister always was thin and totally made fun of me, asking me specifically not to borrow her clothes as not to stretch them out! Can't wait to be able to share a wardrobe, or even to be to small to wear her clothes!

I want to be hotter than all the girls who treated me like **** for being fat.
I want to be so hot the men who treated me like crap for being fat are eating their words.

My Evil Motivation is to look so seriously hot that every person who has ever said "she has such a beautiful face for a big girl" will be like DAM.......... SHE HOT!!

Oh.. so many..

To feel comfortable around my best friend. This girl has never weighed more then 135 in her life. I love her to death, but sometimes when I'm with her I feel the worst about myself.

To show my Dad that I can do it, but that I don't give a damn what he thinks. We aren't close, he was a crappy father growing up and he still is one, and he's never had a problem making it clear how he feels about my weight. I remember when I was a teen he went with me to pick up my Miata because I'd had a new top put on it, and he told the guy, "I don't know why such a big girl likes these little cars." He is the only person in my family who has ever been like that. My mother and I have talked about me needing to lose weight, but she does it in the right way.

My sister is big too. She probably weighs more then me, but I'd love to be the skinny sister. She's said some pretty crappy things about me behind my back over the past 4 or 5 years and I'd just love to feel like I've gotten even by being hot when she's not.

My 10 year reunion is in 2012. If I go, I want all the guys who I had crushes on that didn't pay me the time of day to be drooling over me, and all the skinny popular girls to be shocked at how good I look. I went to a small private High School so everyone knew everyone pretty well.

I want to be hotter then all my husbands friend's wives.

I want to get second looks again. Even though I was over weight when I was younger, I still have a nice face and I wasn't as big as I am now. Guys checked me out back then. I don't want anything more, I love my husband, but it's still nice to be noticed by hot guys.

so now I have another one involving the guy who broke up with me because life is stressfull - He had the nerve to facebook message one of my friends to make sure he could still hang out with them. Can you believe that?!?! I told her to tell him it is a package deal and no me...no them. anyway...I am going to melt off another 20 lbs of butter and then post pics of me and my friends on FB and tag him in them so I can rub it in his face. Little ba$tard has the nerve to dump me with a lame excuse and then still want to hang with my friends?!?!? I don't think so pal!!!

- I want to look hot in a bikini this summer.
- I don't want to be one of those fat mom's who after having kids just give up on themselves.
- I want my husband and daughter to be proud of me, that I can work, take care of the house and myself in order to stay happy and healthy for them
- I would love to be one of those people who can eat anything they want and have a great metabolism. (Yeah right...that's never going to happen!! )

I want to travel, and get hit on by hot exotic men in foreign countries