Mad, that casino buffet is closed. The only food they have is a food court with pizza, hot dogs, hamburgers and such. They do have good salads. Its usually a non eating day for me as that food doesn't interest me other than a salad occassionally. DH will get a hot dog to eat on the drive home. My weight is usually down the next morning.
We go on off days during the week when its not crowded. The crowds are on Friday and Saturday. We didn't go then even before covid. I. feel pretty safe.
The scale was happy to show me how bad I've been. I'm up to 191. I'm not gap y but I did this to myself.
DH eats a lot of Pastaroni from a box for his lunch. Yes, its pasta, but sauces like alfredo, butter and herb, no tomato. Maybe that's why he doesnt want pasta for dinner. But with chili, he prefers canned to my homemade. I'm not a good cook. I have a few things that I do well, but I never get into involved recipes. He probably wouldn't eat it anyway and we eat dinner together. That's why we end up eating out so much. We usually go around 3 pm. That's between lunch and dinner and restaurants are relatively empty then. I like ravioli, but only meat ravioli, and I buy it frozen in bags. A bag is usually 2 meals for us. I make my own lasagna but I've cut it down to a 9x9 pan for the two of us. That's something he will eat leftover for his lunch but not dinner. He wants a new dinner each night. He cooks very little. If I lived alone there wouldn't be much to eat in the house and I wouldn't bother to go out for it. I would be thin and have more money!
The furnace just came on again. I think he has it set to come on at a certain temperature. The next few days are going to be very cold.



Me, I'm starting over.
I was 191 yesterday but down a lb to 190 today. It upsets me to think where I would be if I had stayed on plan but I don't think that way in the moment. Its as though I am completely out of control. I just keep snacking all day and night. Some is healthy food, some is not. I was down to 185. Up 6 lbs. That's not a fluctuation. I can't even say it was enjoyable. I could justify it if it was a great meal.