my mom also tries to shovel it in my mouth sometimes...she means well and after all, for mothers, feeding their kids is love in a way. can you chew really slow? or say you are meeting a friend for dessert later on and wanna save up an appetite? i try to choose what is healthiest for myself but it is hard with family. and my mom is a bit overweight as well and eats when she is depressed as well and i am trying to not do that...good luck!!
Yesterday I had a sugar and fat rampage, and I need to get it off my shoulders so that I can keep my head today. I refuse to spend the day feeling sick and tired, and unable to focus on the conversation or the people around me. I'm going to be sensible with my food, and really limit my sugar, because I don't need another example of how sick just a few pieces makes me feel.
15 chocolates at work (not even a kind that I enjoy)
an entire container of cashews
a piece of pie
3 or 4 pastries
8 more chocolates
1 martini
Okay. I am done with yesterday. On with today. Merry Christmas to me!
24 peti fours
A container of dip with chips
A dozen cookies
A bottle of sparkling apple cider
3 or 4 choc covered macadamia nuts
A few hersheys kisses
Half a container of stuffing
2 pieces of choc silk pie
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last nite 11 PM
box of 8 felafel sticks - 250 cals
bag of frozen organic peaches - 100 cals
bag of frozen organic strawberries - arent i so healthy. LOL - 100 cals
5 baby carrots - who cares
one apple 80 cal
one lime pop 60 cal
container of mocha meringues - 550 cals
5 other meringues - 100 cals
bag of chinese crackers, 3.5 ozs, abt 330 calories
2 bowls of cereal with almond milk - 700 cals
4 dried tomatoes
5 oz very very bitter chocolate. the 99.5% unsweetened kind. bitter, like ME
A massive croissant, 4 bowls of crunchy nut clusters, a snickers, a cereal bar, a banana and peanut butter sandwich, 5 slices of buttered toast, and a pack of falafel.
I'm disgusted with myself and people please tell me you're disgusted too. Man I wish I was NORMAL!!
I understand your feelings of shame. It can be so mentally painful after a binge. But I also believe that those feelings of shame start a vicious negative pattern - shame, binge, shame, binge. In order to get out of the cycle, you need to change that shame into motivation.
Last night I had.. a bag of dill pickle crispi minis, a bag of watermelon slices and an entire package of dried figs (probaly 40 in the package).. this was all after dinner and just one after the other.
I think I have figured out why.. so maybe it was important for my healing.
Please continue to post.
help.
on your binge free days!