my mom also tries to shovel it in my mouth sometimes...she means well and after all, for mothers, feeding their kids is love in a way. can you chew really slow? or say you are meeting a friend for dessert later on and wanna save up an appetite? i try to choose what is healthiest for myself but it is hard with family. and my mom is a bit overweight as well and eats when she is depressed as well and i am trying to not do that...good luck!!

I just ate 7 chocolate chip cookies........


I don't know how to stop eating... I love food... And I feel bad after I eat, but, it doesn't stop me from eating again as soon as I feel the urge....

Yesterday I had a sugar and fat rampage, and I need to get it off my shoulders so that I can keep my head today. I refuse to spend the day feeling sick and tired, and unable to focus on the conversation or the people around me. I'm going to be sensible with my food, and really limit my sugar, because I don't need another example of how sick just a few pieces makes me feel.

15 chocolates at work (not even a kind that I enjoy)
an entire container of cashews
a piece of pie
3 or 4 pastries
8 more chocolates
1 martini

Okay. I am done with yesterday. On with today. Merry Christmas to me!

I went completely nuts today and yesterday.

Tons of Fudge.
Tons of Magic 7 Layer Cookies
Some Ice Cream
Piece of Cheesecake.

I stuffed myself with so many sweets, I couldn't eat normal food.

Nutritious right?

24 peti fours
A container of dip with chips
A dozen cookies
A bottle of sparkling apple cider
3 or 4 choc covered macadamia nuts
A few hersheys kisses
Half a container of stuffing
2 pieces of choc silk pie

last nite 11 PM
box of 8 felafel sticks - 250 cals
bag of frozen organic peaches - 100 cals
bag of frozen organic strawberries - arent i so healthy. LOL - 100 cals
5 baby carrots - who cares
one apple 80 cal
one lime pop 60 cal
container of mocha meringues - 550 cals
5 other meringues - 100 cals
bag of chinese crackers, 3.5 ozs, abt 330 calories
2 bowls of cereal with almond milk - 700 cals
4 dried tomatoes
5 oz very very bitter chocolate. the 99.5% unsweetened kind. bitter, like ME

shrimps -100
apple -100
pear -30
dried apricots -150
almonds - 500
pizza -200
6 bread sticks - 600
4 pieces chocolate caramels - 320
5 mini snickers bars - 200
1.5 mini twix bar - 100
biscuit - 50
icecream - 50

total: ~2400 cal, eaten in under 2 hours. It's probably not close to Kobayashi's record, but I'm getting there.

Celery and water tomorrow - binge-demon willing

10 slices light wheat bread - 400
10 slices turkey ham - 250
2 tbs flaxseed oil -250
apple -70
ground almond - 100

~1100

I'm new but ashamed, in under 2 hours I ate:

A massive croissant, 4 bowls of crunchy nut clusters, a snickers, a cereal bar, a banana and peanut butter sandwich, 5 slices of buttered toast, and a pack of falafel.

I'm disgusted with myself and people please tell me you're disgusted too. Man I wish I was NORMAL!!

anabow - You are not disgusting!

I understand your feelings of shame. It can be so mentally painful after a binge. But I also believe that those feelings of shame start a vicious negative pattern - shame, binge, shame, binge. In order to get out of the cycle, you need to change that shame into motivation.

I believe in you. Please continue to post.

Last night I had.. a bag of dill pickle crispi minis, a bag of watermelon slices and an entire package of dried figs (probaly 40 in the package).. this was all after dinner and just one after the other.
I think I have figured out why.. so maybe it was important for my healing.

o god...i was doing ok and then for some reason i slipped. earlier today i had :

3 big sandwhiches,
big bag of crisps
packet of chocolatey mini bites
chocolate bar

help.

annabow -- you are not disgusting. one day the binges will lessen and fade away.... hang in there

I am, I had a massive binge the next day but now I'm doing good. All your words are so supportive. Hope everyone else is doing ok!

anabow,

I don't believe that you are disgusting - you are just human. on your binge free days!