[brandnewme]

Hi ladies & John! I haven't weighed in yet, but will probably attempt to in the morning. I say attempt because I still haven't gotten anything other than that darn ERR that my scale loves to taunt me with. Either way, I'm feeling a lot better mentally. Physically it's been a rough day again, but I'm hanging in there. I haven't overeaten, and I've been trying to just *DO* something, even if it's not really 'exercise' per se. I put a lot of thought into the thread about accommodating my weight and I realized that I do probably 99.9% of the things discussed. I don't want to do that anymore. I don't want DH to enable me to do that anymore. Yesterday and today have been about doing things for myself, and not always taking the shortcut. Today, I put off going to the store because I'm getting a cold again. I finally gave in and went to the two stores I needed to go to. I asked DH to run in to the final store and get what we needed and then I thought about it and realized that was yet again accommodating my weight. So I went inside and did the shopping that needed to be done and even helped unload the groceries into the car. When we got home, DH told me that I was going to go inside and sit down and rest and I told him that he needs to stop enabling me to be lazy. I told him I love him for trying to help me out, and for trying to make sure I'm okay, but as long as he's allowing me to be lazy, I'm going to have a hard time breaking my bad habits. I don't want to have to depend on him to do everything for me, because I'm much stronger than that. So, that's my 'kind of' NSV for today.

Since I am getting a cold and have severe medicine head, I'm not going to do any personals today other than to give hugs to those of you who need 'em and of course all of you are in my thoughts and prayers.

[Outland]

Debbie-

I had a few NSV. I was making my lunch for work this morning and all of sudden my pants fell down to my ankles. At first I was like WTH?!?! But then I felt good about it. The other is I can fit into my Kenpo Gee again. I haven't fit into in since 2000 after I got out of the hospital. I hope I can get back into classes soon.

to all

[voodoo1]

Big John what's this Kenpo Gee? Some sort of martial art uniform? Big LOL about your trousers, hope you had undies on!!!xxxx
Brandnewme, oh I know how you feel but we have to make excuses TO MOVE rather than not to move! Yes, I'm doing the same, feel icky, no exercise today, feel icky, won't do ANYTHING... hugsxxxxx
Dolfin, great to 'see' you again, how are you now? I see you & bf are ok now, I think last time I 'saw' you on 3FC you had split up. Great on guys flirting with you! What op did you have, if you don't mind me asking? xxxxx
Nancy, I saw your pics on the pics page, you look AMAZING!!!! Literally HALF the woman you were! WTG!!!xxxxxx
Annie, I loked at your ticker, you are really kicking those pounds into touch! Your hubby is so cute too! I love bikers, hubby is clean shaven & short haired, his hair grows OUTWARDS (an Afro, his hair is wooly rather than silky)rather than downwards & looks so gay with a beard or 'tache (nothing wrong with gay guys, just don't want a hubby who looks gay). I bet he's so proud of you. Thanks, my toe is just about normal now, no pain unless I'm getting up from the floorxxxxxx
Valerie, how's your beautiful guy, Gabe, not hubby?!! LOL Several of the mums at school have horses & I HATE THEM!!!! lol I feel so sick with jealousy, even one who has TWO Welsh Mountain foals (class'c' I think, for her three kids) I wonder how they afford it when they don't work, they have kids to feed & hubby isn't well paid. Thank God I'll be looking for work after Christmas, though most of my wages will go on doing up our house, I will make sure I get riding once a week at least, though getting some weight off before-hand ought to be a priority for me! Oh & how are you, are you still in the same job?xxxxx
Gotta go & put the washing on the line & other stuff, so
bye for now,
xxxxxsharon
ps Ammi, I keep looking for you on msn, I'm on around 9-11 & 3.30-6.30pm. Hope you are wellxxxxxx

[Ratkitten]

Happy Friday all!

Debbie, I'm so glad your hormones are settling and a good sleep has you feeling better. Feel free to vent ANY time. I might not be able to give myself hugs when I'm down, but I give good comfy/cheery hugs to anyone else who needs em! As much as I hate to admit it, my exercising helps me pull out of sour moods faster. Geeesh, I hate exercising! hehe. If you can do it Debbie, *I* can do it. We are in this together girl!

Brandnew, those are GREAT NSVs!! It's the little things that add up. Taking control of the tiny things will help when talking to the doc about the big things. I hope you get rid of that cold!! I have some allergy issues right now, but they aren't bad enough to take anything for them.

BigJohn.. you ain't so big now!!!! I saw those great pictures! You are very handsome. Yup, I think that now you are in your Gee, it's time to place some classes into your busy work schedule. Gee, I hope you weren't going commando when your britches fell! hehe. Sorry, but that was the first thought that crossed my mind this morning when I read your post. I have no control over my one brain cell before caffeine kicks in.

Sharon, good to see your ISP has you connected 2 days in a row! How are you doing today? Stay off the floor so you don't push on that foot. I had my metatarsal in my right big toe broken and reset in April. I am 95% healed. I can ALMOST wear some cute clogs I bought last year. Nothing makes me happier than new shoes! Interesting, cuz I don't have that many pairs (compared to my other 3 sisters.. hehe).

Time to get to work!

Hugs and Luv to all, especially the lurkers!!!

Ratkity

[Outland]

Voodoo- Yes it is I posted pics up in the picture thread.

Rat- I've been known to run commando I did have boxers on.

[MamaBplus3]

Hi Everyone!!
Just a quickie before I jump into the car...

John: Your pics are awesome!! You will be knocking 'em dead at the wedding. That is if you keep your pants on!! LOL!!

Sharon: Glad to see you back!! Stupid ISP!! I hope your toe is all better.

Brand New Me: I am glad you are feeling better!! I too have those feelings sometimes...We have a grocery delivery here called Peapod that I have used because I was too lazy to go to the supermarket. I actually have put off shopping because I was feeling too big, which starts the whole eating cycle. I am proud of you for going into the store to help DH instead of waiting for him to do it. And it's great that you are taking back your life!! It just takes baby steps...and from what you said about letting DH know that you don't want him to enable you, you are on the right track!!! Keep it going girl!!!

Catherine: I agree with everyone else...pack the chopsticks in the checked baggage or they will confisgate them. Not that they could ever think you are a terrorist...but with your smarts, and the fact that you live in Canada...hmmmm...(just kidding)LOL!!!!

Well, I am off...Have a Great Friday Everyone...beep,beep!!!

[toofatforu]

well i finally made it through exercise this whole week! something about going to the dr. on OCT. 1 KEEPS PUSHING ME ON LOL

[Heather]

You know, I bet you could fly with the chopsticks in carry on -- you can carry knitting needles apparently!

To be safe, I'd either check them or ask when you check the bag...

[NotTheCheat]

John – You are looking great in your new pics!

Annie – Your losses are amazing!

I have been in a funk for the past few days. I’m not really sure why, but a lot of it is the pressure of my office move next week. There is so much still left to do and so many details. I keep feeling like I have forgotten something.

Another part of it is that there is someone I have started having some feelings for. I don’t want to like this person because I consider him a friend and there are a lot of reasons we wouldn’t make a good match. However, as much as my brain is telling me it is a bad idea, my emotions/hormones/something else is saying yes. The problem that arises is that I don’t think he would be attracted to me at the size I am. This causes a horrible spiral of self-deprecation and doubt that I have a really hard time pulling myself out of. Ugh! I hate it!!! I just wish I had an on/off switch and I could turn all this off for awhile while I continue to lose weight.

I am also upset because the scale is up quite a bit. I had to replace the battery a few days ago, so maybe it had been reading incorrectly for awhile. I also feel really bloated like I am retaining a lot of water, so that could be it. Either way, I am having one of those days where it just feels so difficult.

Finally, as I was getting ready for work this morning I was flipping through channels (I like to watch music videos while getting ready for work) and I stopped on America’s Next Top Model for a bit since it was on MTV. They were talking about this one girl and saying how she was a plus sized model. Ummm… there was NOTHING plus sized about this girl. She looked totally normal. It really disgusted me that a woman of her size was considered plus sized in any world – modeling or not.

I think I just need to put on some music and get into packing boxes and stop thinking about all this stuff. Sometimes it just doesn’t help!

[Outland]

Nancy- Dude would be stuipd not to like you period. I wish I had one of them on/off switches too. I also find I need to recalbrate my scale after changing batteries or moving it to get correct readings. Maybe you can do that to to yours?

[MetaChick]

Brandnewme - Congratulations on those truly wonderful NSVs. There was a time in my life many years ago in my early twenties when I had become so unaccustomed to movement and effort that I would take my car to a corner store that was literally around the corner. I'm really, really proud of the mental work you did yesterday and the efforts that resulted. Way to go!

Catherine - I'm glad to hear too that you've decided to be gentle with yourself in during this period of upcoming stress. Hopefully your travel will be far more fun and relaxing than you imagine. As for the normal eating stuff, I'm convinced it's within the reach of almost all of us barring those who have a true medical condition that scrambles hunger signals. I say that because before I found myself doing it there was no one who would have rejected the idea that I could more than me. It was only when I did a complete paradigm shift - stopped framing my eating in terms of willpower and self control - that I found I needed neither to manage my food intake and lose weight. All it takes is an iron focus (in the beginning) on internal signals of hunger and most importantly satiation. They whisper at first, but they are there.

[MetaChick]

Nancy - I'm sorry you're having a blue day. As far as the 'plus sized' model goes, we just have to accept that we truly live in a diseased society when it comes to this stuff. Thankfully, the vast majority of the people who matter know it's foolishness as well.

I absolutely believe that you will continue to make progress and ultimately succeed in your weight loss goals, and when and as you do, do you think you would trade what the extra fat taught you and the layers and layers it added to your character over the years for a retroactive life without obesity? I don't think I would. We are what we are, and there is much to be grateful for. Some future very lucky man is going to get a wonderful Nancy who wouldn't be who she was but for the extra weight she carried once.

I know for me I've turned all that off for now. In part because of a really bad emotional burn early this year, in part because I'm not who I want to be yet. Part of that is rooted in physical appearance, but it is as much about how that weight affects my ability to fully participate in life, be that real or imagined.

[endthereign12]

hello and thanks for the support on my weird dr visit. it helped to write it out and get it out.
battleax; thanks.. i hope to show a wt. loss to everyone.

ratkitten; I can tell you understand about drs. thanks for the support.

debbie54; thanks for the encouragement--I hope you are doing alright. stay strong.....

John;Its always a good sign when you pants fall down. (except in public and unwanted) you look good...

to everyone else--- i am cheering for you!!!!!!!!

[dolfingirl2000]

Hi Everyone~~

A really quick NSV--my mother had bought me a pair of pants for when my drains and stuff come out--they're stretchy but they're a size 12/14 and they actually fit me! I know they're stretchy but I really didn't think they would fit yet. I am so excited.

We ended up going out to the Texas Roadhouse in North Dartmouth, MA. The last time I went there I was over 300 lbs. and I felt very self conscious. Plus I had ordered steak tips and they were AWFUL! Tonight my bf and I both ordered the 8 oz. sirloin. I ordered a sweet potato and mixed veggies with mine. I also ate 3 of those delicious rolls with the honey cinnamon butter. I am NOT beating myself up about it though. I hardly ever eat bread and sweet potatoes are good for you. The food was excellent and the service was pretty good even though the place was rockin'. If you have the chance to go, see if you can get Annie as a server. She was very nice and she did a good job.

I was kind of bummed out a little though. We ended up sitting at a little table in the middle of the room and there was a big party on my left. There was a woman at that table who is as big as I used to be. I just felt so sad for all of the time I absolutely wasted by being fat. And I felt bad for her because even though she was enjoying herself with her friends, I know that she's probably going to go home and beat herself up for the potato skins, the chili and all the bread I saw her eating. I was her not too long ago and seeing her made me realize that I never want to go back to that again. I'm so scared that I will--even though I'm feeling pretty motivated right now that fear is always there.

Debbie--I'm glad you're feeling a little better today. Your son will eventually "wake up" it'll just take time. I know that's not really any consolation because it hurts while you're going through it, but have faith.

BrandNewMe-- Don't underestimate your NSV's again--they matter and they add up. I'm proud of you so keep it up. You're on the right track.

John--Please DON'T post us a picture of you with your pants around your ankles. I'm so happy for you. Your pics are great, by the way. I'm going to be looking into a martial arts class in a couple of months--I don't know when the doctor will give me the okay to actually do something like that. Do you have any suggestions because to me they're all karate and I don't know the difference. Thanks and keep up the good work.

Nancy--hon--you are beautiful! You have a gorgeous smile, (nice teeth matter ), you have pretty eyes and hair, and on top of all that, if you're the same way in "real life" as you are here, you've got an awesome personality. When the "right guy" comes along he's going to be very lucky indeed.

Sharon--even though I'm still almost 90 lbs. away from my goal weight, I had a tummy tuck. You can read about it in a thread started by endlessly called "another odd question". I know I still have a lot to lose, but this really was the right step for me. Yes, my BF and I are finally back on track after a really tough time. I still hurt, but I don't regret staying with him and working it out because our relationship is better than before. I actually talk to him about my thoughts and feelings where before I used to bottle them up. And he's talking to me too. We're being open and honest and we're doing things together now--I truly feel thankful that I didn't leave. Thank you for remembering and asking.

Great to see your internet connection was working again. Hey, I might faint if I see you here tomorrow--that would make what? 3 days in a row? I say if you can ride before you lose a little more weight then ride! No more of this waiting around for life to approach you girl--Grab it with both hands because you riding is one of the things that brings you great joy (if I remember correctly) and it will give you great motivation. I'm glad you're toes feeling better.

MetaChick--you always have such nice things to say to everyone. You're "dabomb" baby.

Rene-- Stupid doctor! Sometimes they are so insensitive and that just stinks. Let's hit her on the head and knock some sense and empathy into her. Don't let her get you down.

Annie-- I'm glad that everyone else was able to talk you into staying and posting. This place would not be a wonderful without you. And I remember the days when I was losing like crazy and you weren't and I felt bad too, but you know what? We here know how hard it's been for you so seeing you losing and happy about it and gaining all of this confidence makes us happy for you.

Catherine--good luck on your trip. Over preparing might drive you a little crazy but at least you know you'll have almost everything that you need. Have fun being your hubby's "medical escort". Isn't that how you put it?

Ammi--where are you? I miss you and hope you're still feeling better. I didn't post to you here, I sent you a message through MySpace. I wanted you to get "bombarded" with the love that we all have for you. This place wouldn't be the same without you.

Okay, I have to go. You all have a wonderful night and weekend if I can't get back here. Sorry if I didn't mention you, but I had to go by what showed up on the page and on my holey memory.


Vicki

[Outland]

Vicki- don't worry I wouldn't post those pictures for free.

As for which style of martial arts I suggest going and visiting the studios and dojo's around you. Meet with the owner or head master most places they are one in the same. Most let you do a class or 2 for free or a low price to try it out. As memberships can run into the 60.00 range. Even if you don't know what you're talking about talk to the owner or head instrustor see if they know what they are talking about see who they trained with how long they been doing it. What degree they are. In kenpo there are 10 degree's of black belt. See how clean the place is and how its maintained.

Think of it as finding a personal trainer

Think about why you want to learn a martial art and what you look to bring away from it. How much time do you have to devote to this? How far do you want to go? Kenpo has yel,org,purple,green,blue,brown,black. The higher you go the longer it takes.

This can also be a family thing as well. I've seen many family join. Its great for kids.