Well, I did it. Got to the gym and jogged 5K and did chest/back weights, crunches and even some stretching, which I hate to do because I'm so incredibly tight!
Walked both ways too. I admit I had a sweet bean paste thing on the way back but that isn't that bad. Now, I'm sitting here sucking on these sweet potato candies, which are all natural but again, not that bad. The sweet stuff is going to stop there though, promise!
Special thanks to Crime girl and especially stormy for the encouragement today. I trained at the gym like I used to for the first time in months. Of course, my strength is a lot less but I least I was pushing those weights around. Even the palms of my hands were hurting because all the callouses I had in the summer are almost totally gone. There were still a lot of people doing the traditional New Year's greetings, bowing and such, which I do too, because it's the first time we've met this year so it was nice to be there.
Now, to just keep on doing the same kind of thing over and over. The summer is great because I can fly there on my bike, no heavy pack with clothes, no heavy coat etc trudging home with but, oh well. . .the heat will be here soon enough I suppose. I love the summer. . . Ok, more work tonight, some little meal and I'm hitting the sack. Thanks for your help today, again!
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kjk -- wanted to say again how great you're doing. walking both morning and night and sticking to your eating plan. This is what it's all about, isn't it? Now just multiply that by some more days and the weight will be coming off and you'll be on your way to the new you! wow, you really like pilates? I've never been able to do it long enough to get to like it. I know it's supposed to be real good and all but the video I had was so boring and the books, well, maybe I'll give them another look. do you really think things will work out for me? I need all the hope I can get. Anything to help me believe I'll get away from this horrible place intact and not the worse off for it. I really need that. well, good luck tomorrow, I suppose that'll be when you get up and read this!
crime girl -- you go ahead and sound like a camp counselor all you want. It's what holds us together. Just read your note about the yoga as a stress reliever. what does your friend mean, it's impossible to learn yoga like that, like what?, on a DVD? Of course you can, people do it all the time. All this stuff about fixing the postures etc. etc. it's not necessary, especially in the beginning. You'll have to be doing modified poses because of your weight and if you're as inflexible as me and besides the explanations in the books are usually great. Check out the Yoga Journal Web site for postures and you can learn all you need.
http://www.yogajournal.com/poses/index.cfm Like grass said, you can use mirrors and such. Some people really get carried away with this stuff. I was doing yoga eons ago when I was a kid. Yoga is ancient, people didn't learn it in classes.

People nowadays think they know so much sometimes and it all has to be spoonfed them by "professionals". Mostly it's to help the teachers profit from a lot of unknowing people. I mean, a lot of people in poor countries have never done a yoga like move in their lives but spiritually they're light years ahead of people sitting around in yoga classes thinking they're nearer nirvana! It's what's in your head and the body will follow. Like they say, it ain't rocket science! Ok, just had to let a little steam off there. Thanks and no offense anyone!
Heh, what's this, 942 calories! Man, I would be looking to lunge at someone's plate to grab their food if I were trying to skimp by on 942 calories! I would have this crazed look and keep trying to swat down thoughts of food, food, FOOD!!! You've got to eat, kid! Don't try to go too fast. It'll rebound on you, and you'll be losing muscle as well. Take it nice and slow, move that booty like you're planning to. How tall are you again?
hmm, problems with tennis shoes? Wonder why that is. Have you considered getting fitted by a good running store? I did that in Seattle and they were great. You may have problems with the arches. Some shoes have very pronounced arches and if they aren't in just the right place for your arch, you will be in a lot of pain. And depending on the maker widths vary greatly. I can't wear any Reebok, for example, they're all too narrow and the arches are totally wrong for me. You should find a brand that feels good and stick with it. If you're getting blisters you may need a wide shoe. Nike, New Balance, Saucony all tend to be wide. Are you looking for real tennis shoes? No, right, you mean like crosstrainers or so, right? for your exercising? You can still get fitted at a store that has people that know about these kind of things. If, that is, you're in a big enough city to have speciality shops. Well, let me know and maybe we can help you find something. Shoes cannot hurt! That is the pits!
grasshopper -- You have really been working out, haven't you? Great going! Sorry I missed out and didn't say something sooner. Hope you weren't thinking I was ignoring your accomplishment. I just can't keep up and talk about myself at the same time and I certainly do enough of the latter, don't I. I! I! I! I! Oh yes, as I was saying, really great on the exercise. I know about those mirrors too. I'm pretty sure they put some of those mirrors up they have in the funhouses, the kinds that make you look bigger or smaller than you really are. Strange, I always seem to get the ones that make me look bigger and the little thing with her ribs showing next to me gets the skinny mirror, never fails! So, no way, your "boobs" are no doubt NOT "that big!" not at all. It's always the mirrors, yes, for sure. Take it from me. I know about these things, the tricks gyms play on people and such. . .
Oh heh, sorry about that finger. What's this second skin stuff? And why does it hurt so much? Hope it's feeling better soon.
stormy -- I like the reminder on the rewards for weight loss and I especially like your post, "when I lose my 10 pounds by Feb 14th!" Thata girl!
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Okay, gotta do some more work. Susanne, how are you doing? Please come in here and talk, especially when you feel so down you don't want to do anything. You don't have to have anything earthshaking to say to post here. Just take your cue from me! And, like stormy said to me, it's better to be typing, letting it out, then sitting around eating. I know this is a very rough time for you so please lean on us. Ok?

Things will get better.