I think food is soooo comforting. I don't know why. The fullness of it. I guess it fills a void. Although I don't know, I feel happy in my life, so I wonder if sometimes, I want to binge out of habit, a comfort in a behavoir that is familiar to me, like going home. This sounds so weird.
I am posting this now, even though it's only 8 pm, in hopes that thoughts of the shame of reporting to all of you that I have to take back this proclamation will keep me from heading back to the kitchen. =)
Looks like I'm not the only one with the fullness! That makes me feel so much better, thanks for sharing everyone.
Day 30! Last weekend, I told myself that if I needed it, I could binge today (friday, oct. 16th). Sometimes saying that to myself helps me ward off the doom, and I feel more in control.
I don't think I need to give in though. I think I'll be fine today. This thead helps a lot. I'd hate to have to come on here and tell everyone I've given in.
I'm debating what to call today - but I'm going to count it as day 2. I went a bit overboard celebrating a birthday tonight, there was all this sugar - cookies, caramel apples, honey peanuts... BUT i did not continue eating when I got home which would have been a typical response, so I am going to take that and run with it!
In the past two days, I have turned down cheesecake, Chipotle, movie popcorn, and fettucini alfredo, and chosen healthier options instead. I can't believe all that was only in two days! But I'm proud of myself for staying strong. That's two days now without any binges...
Thought about ordering a pizza last night (no, I did not have 5 friends over, just me!) but I didn't. Thought about how long I've gone, and wanted to keep going. 1 month binge-free today! (knock on wood, it's only 9:45am!) Let's hope it sticks.
I ate a bunch of chips last night--right out of the bag. I was/am totally unaware of how much I ate...just ate and ate and ate. It was one of those giant costco bags, so I can't tell by looking at it how much I ate, but it was quite a bit. Enough to feel overfull afterwards.
I felt like a zombie, on autopilot, almost like it wasn't really me doing it.
Hi,
I am getting past my self-loathing from my chip marathon last night. No more binging for me. Eat like a normal person, eat like a normal person, eat like a normal person...
Shoot, today was NOT day 3. I just kinda lost it in the kitchen and I can't even say anything in particular set it off. No reason. Just dug into some apple crisp and muffins. I feel silly saying it, but it's almost still a success since I stayed under 3000 calories today. Sad.
Day 6 is a success! First night of my husband's business trip, five more to go.
Iris, I like to "bake" apples - what I do is core one, pour a little lemon juice and cinnamon in the middle and microwave for about 3 minutes. Delish, and satisfies the apple crisp craving. You can even sprinkle on a little granola and/or raisins and/or fat free vanilla yogurt. YUM!
Mmm - thanks for that suggestion, Ward! Now to get myself to choose that over the sugary, buttery crisp that my housemate made that's sitting in the fridge!
KarenLee, you doing better today?
I'm starting again today at day 1.
Last edited by iriswhispers; 10-18-2009 at 11:09 PM.
