FIXED! I put the wrong URL before - what an idiot!

Oh & I totally understand you wanting to keep this part of your life private I know my family read my blog, so I am mindful about what I write there.

I hope everyone is having a nice weekend. I'm off to the movies tonight. I haven't been for ages, I'm looing forward to it (and yes I will keep away from the Candy bar!).

I had a look at your blog Lila and I can really see a difference! Well done!

Lila you are a foxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx! The weight loss is very noticeable and you even look so much younger!!!

Well done lady!

Thanks guys!!
Wow, who cares about looking thinner - I look younger WOOHOO!!!!!!!

you rock lila
i'd love to do a blog but i would talk so much crap i'd probably annoy everyone AND myself
i am going to bookmark it and have a read when jemima has a sleep today

lindor - you are inspirational, i am going to go out of a plane before i am 30, i have big ideas....

oh i am supposed to weigh in....
lets get that over and done with READY

..... damn damn damnh 105.4kg that is my HEAVIEST EVER

now i will firstly 'blame' the humdinger and wedges and sourcream, and then the 2 x maccas yesterday and the tuesday maccas and the wednesday kfc
and then i will BLAME myself for being silly

last night i asked benji to help me get skinny
and he said no worries
no more sweetstuff
no more chocolate
no more lollies
that is the first step in the benji helping kel thing
oh and he said i have to write everything down
so i will do as i am told
and since i have not got into kidzone for jem at the gym today i will walk to racq to buy ekka tickets for wednesday and that will be a fair walk pushing jemima etc

heaviest ever after 3 weeksish at the gym that is hilarious.....

yep lila you are looking FINE FINE FINE!!!


Danni i dont tell anyone about my forum... there fore they cant snoop lol

vonni i can remember midori.... nice drink.. but cant drink it .... brings me up in hives..lol just as well really..

i did find a preservative free drink called bolt.. i didht get hives but it tasted like childrens cough mixture... lol... so just as well really .. i dont need to drink at all ..

well i had a great weekend.. food and exercise wise.. and even all up saturday.. John had to work so i took the kids to my parents house for lunch .. they made scones with nanny and the hadf them with home made jam.... they were very pleased indeed . then Mum gave them both a present.. Cameron got a train set ( we grabbed at toys are us for $5 bargain)and leah got a little pet shop toy and a glittery jellewry box.. ( that she is using for her little pets... lol).
and yesterday we went to a science expo in the showgrounds then to JOhns folks house ... came home and watched movies.. .. we got the Curious case of benjamin button ... and friday the 13th... .
benjamin button was a great film... we both really enjoyed it.. and john actually stayed awake for both films.... lol ( very unusual for him.. he works so hard the poor bugger ).

John aunt sent us a picture she took of the four of us whenn she was over in aus a few months back.. here it is.. i actually like it.. lmao

oh kel.... you ate a load of crap but i doubt its all fat gain.. alot of that would be water retention from all the salt... ... keep on keeping on... you know you can do it.. im in the same boat as you lets behave today ....

maybe if we take this thing one day at a time.. we can get back on track ?? what do ya think?

Aw that's a really lovely photo Amy

And as for you Lila ... what a FOX alright!! You really do look way younger in that second pic. Love the hair colour too

I had a lovely long walk on Saturday afternoon, the boy and I went and did a 1 hour 20 minute walk around the hills and boy I can feel it today.

Unfortunately my diet has gone to pot. I just can't seem to keep it together knowing that I'm not going to be able to eat as per usual this week after I get my teeth done!

So tomorrow is the big day. My appointment is at 11am so think of me while I'm getting my teeth pulled out

I'll come back soon and let you all know how it went.

Kel it wouldn't matter if you spent four hours a day in the gym - you're not going to lose any weight if you include Maccas and KFC in your diet. They are full of fat, salt and preservatives and an average meal contains almost my whole daily calorie allowance.

In fact it would take about five hours of consistent exercise to burn off ONE of their meals .

I work in a very physical job, as most of you know, and the calories I burn at work would equal a few hours/day at the gym - plus I am on my feet and walking all day in steel-cap boots. Even with all of that I gain weight if I eat more than 2000 cals/day.

We overestimate the impact of exercise, and underestimate the impact of food on our weight.

In spite of all the good intentions of the past few weeks I haven't been very disciplined or honest with myself. So it all starts today! I have a new goal of losing 8kg by the time my birthday comes around (it is 17 weeks away).

I am writing everything down, and planning what I am going to eat for the week. It's important to me that I get this right, because I refuse to undo all my good work.

Amy that's a great pic of you - and your hubby is hot!

18 weeks and 4 days until Christmas . . . . eek!

Awesome. Christmas = summer and for that, I can't fricken wait!

Amy, thats a lovely photo.
Kel, it's hard keeping the evil fat fairy at bay (thats what I call my cravings & subsequent lack of self control). If I stay away from temptation (Maccas etc) I tend not to indulge.

But having said that......

I was very naughty lasy night, but I'm not going to beat myself too much about it as it was such a nice meal (French restaurant mmmmm). It was the first proper blowout I've had in months (ok I'm making excuses now).

Back on the weightloss wagon I climb.

I just dont wanna be chafey this year! Ok, ok, ohhhhhhhh kay. There is still time left to get off some flab. I think I have been dilly dallying for too long.

I am entering the hardcore zone.

Will report on results.

Slow and steady does not win the race for me - it just messes with my head and makes me feel like an even bigger failure.

Just like doing a specific "diet" plan like WW or Jenny doesnt work for everyone, the easy does it approach just does not work for me. I have through easy does it lead myself into being fat yet again. I dont understand moderation when I am at this point. I need to rip the bandaid off and be hardcore. I know I can do moderation when I am more in control as I have done it before.

So gotsta do what works for me. We ALL have to work off our strengths and what works for us.

I feel relieved and that is a good sign that I am moving in the right direction

I also have done some thinking with work and I am over the love/hate thing. I keep expecting people to take an interest and care about being there but they dont. So I will have to baby them and tell them what to do every day. I am not going to keep picking up the slack for . . . well, slackers! I would rather tell them to piss off and take on their work and their pay packet than have them taking the piss.

And no more super late nights. I am too old for this sh.it. I cant physically do it anymore. It makes me snappy, snippy, tired, then I get sick physically then I get mentally distressed and no amount of money is worth this.

So no more of that.

I am my priority now. There is no one else to take care of me if I dont. And I cant be there anyone if I am a mess.

So, I have a goal of where I want to be by Christmas - its not a weight goal - I want to be back in these khaki pants that I wore 2 years ago (last year they were too big this year well lets not discuss that). I will still be fuller figured but I will be much leaner than now.

So thats the plan.

heheeh ani I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW
i was SO not going to woe is me too much about my weight this week
i made all STUPID food decisions (except chicken wrap at maccas on tuesday lunch) (instead of quarter pounder)
everything else was stupid - my trainer thinks it has something to do with some irrational thinking due to stopping meds suddenly
but i am feeling more in control today
and have other plans and thoughts making me think long term and how everything i do counts
and as i always have in the back of my mind - the only person i am cheating is myself