My food is half on/half off, and this is the week i need to real it back in...I keep saying that. I am finding though that I'm not eating as much as i think i am, and i panic more readily...thinking i ate WAY too much - but when it comes down to it, it was just "a little too much"...I'm trying to find perspective, and just working on "healthier" through September. I started getting lazy with my snacking choices.
As for my running, picture a 200+ pound turtle slothing it out...a tiny bit at a time. That's me...but I'm not going ot apologize for being slow. I did that for a good 6 months. Too hard on myself...man, i'm still going, it's been a year in October that I started this running thing. I automatically assumed I'd be thin running for a year, yeah, not. What no one tells you is when you start going longer distances - you're starving and want to eat more calories. I've packed on tons of muscle, but i'm still fat - period. Anyway, my struggle for my next race (half marathon in Oct) is to finish on time. They have sweepers so you have to maintain a 16min mile for 13 miles. I'm a little slower than that, but eeked out 3 other races. My times are not getting any faster, so it psyches me out a bit...nervous as it gets closer, but i tell myself - i know how to finish when my body doesn't want to at mile 10, and that's a very important key for me.
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Hi Dee- that's wonderful that you reach out and help troubled teens. I'm sure it's amazingly rewarding and stressful at the same time. I like your idea of just trying to eat healthy through Sept. I need tht as well, I've had too many boundaries, and get panicky if i jump in too quickly.
Denver- I must have just have just jumped out as you were jumping into 3fc. Very nice to meet you and hope your "new house and job" are working out well for you.
Annie- you've come so far!!! Look at you almost at your goal. I'm so proud of you for sticking with it -- ((hugs)) Remember when you were working on going "just 1 min" on your elliptical?
Becky- food journaling...man, sticking with that is such a struggle for me. I hope your schedule is less crazy this year for you, and can't wait to see how you do with everything. Any swim meets, or is the season over?
Foodfighter - hon, go by whatever name you'd like. (hugs) Your comfort is what's important so that you feel safe. Man, I can relate to that "closet" feeling. A few years ago, I sat down and told my husband how much I weighed..the ACTUAL number. I was keeping myself hostage. When I let myself say it outloud, it was so freeing...scary, but freeing. I'm a food addict, so I understand food issues, control, and numbing out, etc. Hang in there...one step at a time -- baby steps.
Hi Kelly, love your avatar...too cute. High school for your son! Is he excited? Mine is in 11th grade and started back Monday.
Cindy- that's awesome about the adoptions!! What a great feeling that must be. As for the "on the road"...most of my training is on the TM, but when I do a race - it feels mostly the same to me. Here's my advice - when you go outside, slow down your pace more - you'll go farther, shorten your stride a little bit, and do intervals outside before you do just that 20 min run outside. Slow and steady...maybe start it outside this time. You're going to get this.

I'm turtle slow hon...I just take it one step at a time still! Trust me, my next half, i'll be at the back of the pack - but as long as you're going forward, you're making progress.
Neurodoc - 3 kids, physician, wife, etc...it's a busy life. WHo does it all? You do and you are...making little changes along the way to accomodate your needs and theres is really all anyone can do. There's no one best way to do it all...just carve out pockets of time to feel your best. Nice to meet you
Maddie- Yeah for school starting soon! Did you like being a principal? Good luck with the sub list...I have a cousin who just graduated with a teaching degree and is excited to start her career. Wow, it was hot up there yesterday! 110F!
Kathi, don't think I mentioned it to you, my son has obsessed on going to college in Charleston. (few years still) - but I smile and think of you. He found a "neat" apartment complex and a college with a voice acting/acting thing that got his attention. I've been watching your journeys, and yeah for the farmer's market. Have been following your bus journeys as well.
Losing It - good luck with your daughter and whatever is going on. Great ob on being down 15 pounds.
Jackie- my son is Japanese obsessed...he was so excited to drink "Japanese Soda" - we pickd up at Epcot/Disney, while he watched Anime...it's the little things I guess. Wow, never really thought about the weather in Japan - hot, humid - neat to know. Where were you before Japan? Was it a big culture shock change? or did you love all the differences?
Yvette- I love that you wrote this - "he gets me"...I get that...i have a husband like that too.

6 pounds is doable...and then we'll take it from there. I think sometimes when i'd work out, I'd be so "into it" then just lose interest...I found running last year and set my sites on a half marathon (did it in March 2010), and having a longer term goal, pushed me to get past that initial hump. I told as many people as i could i was taking on this challenge, and then i didn't want to fail. I've gone to to complete 3 of them now, with 2 more to do this year. Trust me, I'm a roly-poly over 200 pound runner, and it's not pretty...but having a challenge in the distance helps me keep moving. Maybe checking in a few times a week and accountability will help you.
Cheers, Deb