Good morning all,
Pam I am so sorry that that back of yours isn't behaving! Take care as you can. SO many people depend on you. Please take some care of yourself.
I am so sorry that we are facing labor day. The nights here are already in the 40's and 50's. The wind is coming out of the north at times. Fall is right around the corner. Summer is so short.
Melody, I hope the counseling went well. You will probably hear some things that may make you angry. Keep an open mind to the suggestions made. Change isn't easy. When he is charming you. Ask yourself if this lifestyle is soimething that you want your children exposed to. If he can't stay clean you might want to suspend his visits w/ the children. Children know more than we give them credit for.
Het Sue, How goes it with the new job?

Well today I face bankers. Oh my god!!!

Pam thanks for the kind words. I keep telling myself that if it is meant to be it will happen. But I am scared that it will happen. UGH!

Good Morning chickees!

I am full of hope, and strength today! No loser crack head is going to pull me down today! I am very much alive, and loving it! I even put on make up this morning! I am trying to get back to being me again.

Sue_ Sorry about the firewall! I need one of those, except in real life!

Pat- Congrats on the house! I hope it is yours! There is nothing so exciting as getiing your own home, and redoing it, and planning...

(...screw you Josh...)

Pam- Thanks for your support. I am trying not to have those weak feelings about him....it is his way of controlling me, and I will not be controlled anymore. He does not realize it yet, but he has lost me forever...I hope it hurts him like ****...

I have lost 13 pounds in 29 days...and while I am loving it...that is reason for concern. I am more active, and I have cut down on what I have ate...maybe too much...but I don't have an appetite, and food does nothing for me now. I know that will return, so I am trying to make small healthy changes along the way like more veggies, and water, so when my appetite comes back I will be craving better stuff. Also, I have lost weight so quickly that my skin is a little loose...do you know what I mean??..have any of you had this problem? What do you do for it??? I need to start strength training, but I really don't like too...but I think I will make that my goal. It will help ensure I lose fat and not muscle. What is the use of weighing less if you are flabby????

Counseling was good...I go again in two weeks!

You guys have a wonderful day!

I envy you the ability to weight train Melody. I remember years ago how hard it was to get myself started and for a while just as hard to be consistant with it. LOL SO , I even found a great personal trainer and low and behold there I was working out two hours a day every other day and felt great!!!! Loose skin at my age(48) and over 70 lbs down , is a real problem but as I can't do anything about it right now I have researched on the web the muscles involved in my "problem areas" and found the most effective exercise for them. As soon as I can I will be working hard to elimanate this part of my weight loss results. If Richard Simmons can do it with out surgery I will too!!!!! Honey you just hang in there it will get easier and easier and easier. I promise.
Pam

Good morning everyone.
Loose skin sucks at 39 too.
Now for the "negotiations" Am going to the court house today to see about the assessment and taxes. Spoke to one banker yesterday and the other one wasn't in till today. This weekend I will do teh applications and get the papperwork in order.

In my line of work we stress "turning things over to God". This has never been something that is easy for me. Or "trust in God" that waht will or is happening is what supposed to happen. But as I get older and pay more attention to things as they are rather than how I want them to be it really has been true for me. Things do work out.

Pam you are very thoughtful and insightful!

Melody I am glad the counseling went well and you are going back.
Hey Sue!!

Terri how goes it?

Lee it's been too long since we heard from you

Have a great Labor day. I am faced with an in-law gathering on Monday MAJOR UGH!

Pat- That is so true...I am trying to come to grips with my latest folly, and trying to leave it in God's hands...it is awfully hard...sometimes the hardest thing to do is do nothing at all, and wait. I just keep hoping that God will give him exactly what he deserves...not Christian like I know...

I didn't weight train last night...DS had Karate, and I took the 2 little ones in to see their grandparents, they hadn't seen them in a while...so I didn't even get to walk.

Pam, Loose skin does suck, has anyone ever tried a body wrap for that? It is suppose to tighten your skin, but they are expensive...

Sue, How are you hanging in there?

I don't know what I am going to do this weekend...probably go have a few drinks with friends, go dancing, something like that...

Now that I don't have a home of my own to take care of I wander around aimlessly alot...almost like I am lost. I will be glad when things get more normal again...Do you think anything will ever be the same?

He hasn't called since Monday, which makes me wonder what he has up his sleeve...

Everyone have a great holiday weekend...if I get a chance I will stop back in!

Yes I have had the skin wrap and it does help but is not close to exercising. There are no easy ways but Lord the work and effort is so worth it!
Today is my weigh in and last week I weighed in at 287lbs.
I have been doing only protein and over a gallon of water a day in order to keep a little momentium going........the result is.........

I weighed in at 277 lbs down 10 lbs!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just think of what it would have been if I could have exercised!!!!!

I am in a lot of pain but who cares.... it is not a factor to my weight loss. I am overjoyed!!!!! I know I will have weeks where I have to fight for that one pound loss and so what I am getting there!!!! Only 4 lbs to go to have lost 80lbs!!!!!!
Pam

Pam YOU ARE AWESOME!!!!!!
THAT IS GREAT!! What a milestone 80#'s!!
I am sorry about the pain.

Melody, Things will eventually work out. You will heal and be better because of all the pain.

Hey Sue is your computrer acting up or are you trying to get the kids ready for school? I am thinking of you and hope all is well!

Well , I spoke to teh other bank today. DH and I will have a heart to heart before Tuesday. Make sure thsi is teh house etc. looks at the financial stuff etc. What a big decision.

Have a great weekend

Hello all,

Ahhh, the long weekend is finally here!!!! Yippee!!!!!!!!!... sorry I havent been around much. what with school starting back up for the girls, which means sports with practices, etc....I havent had much time..

Melody---Hang in there girl........I know its tough but you will prevail!!!!! just so you wont feel lonely, I also started counseling last week.........just need to know how to deal with those feelings and thoughts ya know?????

and to add to the prob....my 12 (almost 13) yr old has been giving me trouble and I got so mad I told her to go live with her dad!!! YIKES!!!! I didnt think I would ever say that to one of my girls but she made me so mad it just slipped out and now she keeps throwing that in my face and oh, yeah, let's not even talk about her dad right now,,,I am also very angry with himmmm shoot, no wonder Im in counseling haha

hope everyone has a good long weekend...I will check back later during the time off..........take care.........

Hi girls working my hiney off but i wiah that that also diaapaeard while doing ti. not much except work here and staying totaly OP, and still exercising not as much time but still going at it. so hi to all melody i am still thinking of you. and great with the exercise pam great news on the loss i am so proud of you you are losing virgine fat!!! and blasted past those bloks so great how is dh thinking of this???

terri my dh is in the dog house too and i have been thinking some very mean things too. it must be inthe air. i can not go further b as i have to run.

Pat i am praying for your decision. if it feels right and younow inyur heart it will be hard but well worth it if this is the house. good luck on the decisison. i am right there behind you!!

Hubby is tickled pink!!!! I reminded Mom and Hubby of just how sceptial they were when I began. The snickers and , comments , sure you are , weve heard that before and for real reasons. I said see I told you it takes practice to get this thing down pat! Onward and upward!
Pam

Good morning all!
The holiday is over and the kids are back in school, the leaves are falling from the trees and cider is being offered.. We are on such a schedule.

Well house news...
First thank you for all the well wishes and prayers. We met with the lady last night and agreed on a price. I'll tell you, it went so smoothly that I was stunned. No hagling! We have never done this before so we really didn't know what to expect. She was writing things down on a piece of paper. She started to talk of other things and I said we probably should try and agree on a price first. So she stated what she was asking and we countered with a price 2000 $ less and she wrote it down. And we went on takling. then she started talking about what she should list in teh aggreement and I thought I better make sure teh price we offered was OK and she said yes. I was stunned! ANd then she was so agreeable about other things. So... she is having her attorney draw up teh purchace aggreement . And once that is signed we just need to get the paperwork to the bank and wait to see if they are OK with it!
So we are on our way to teh next step!

Doing OK program wise. A couple of minor slips.
Pam- I am glad that your family is proud of you ! that support is so important!!
Sue- You have been doing so well, with all teh stress and still doing what you need to do! teh kids must be going back today huh?
Hey Terri glad to haer from you. Boy you have had some emotional stuff going on! how are you doing with it all?

Lee , How are you?

Melody how was your weekend?
Hello everyone else
Well it will be a phone and paperwork day!

Thanks again guys!

Hello everyone!

Weekend started off bad. EX tried to kidnap my 4 year old!!! And he got everyone in his house to lie for him, so the cops couldn't do anything!!!! If you want to read a detailed account of what happened go to www.shesgothelp.com, under abuse issues on the message board. I have been talking to another woman there. Sunday I took the kids swimming, and we had a picnic. It was a good day. Monday we just hung out. My 4 year old is really traumatized, and I feel so bad that he was put through that. I go to court today for our DVO review. I am scared. He told me he was going to try to get visitation with the children without supervision, and that scares me to death...after Sat., there is no doubt in my mind he is truly evil. I want him out of our life.

On a brighter note...I lost 2 more pounds!!! Down to 194!!!! Isn't it great!!!

You chickees have a great day! Congrats on the house Pat! Terri, I'm thinking of you! Pam, Congrats on the loss! Sue, Keep up the great work! I love you guys!

Oh Melody, he will try and control you through the children, but make no mistake it is not his love for you that prompts this typw of action but rather his desire to punish you for getting free of his control. He doesn't even care about your son. No parent who really loves their children would tramatize them in that way. He is a self, self man who only ares about what he wants...period! I hope the judge can see what is going on . Document every thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God Bless
Pam

Melody OMG how horrible!! get an order of protection for you and the kids. then if he gets close have him arrested. have them talk to your sonm for proof!! what legal rights does he have for the kids?? I can not get to the link as the puter is having problems. I am sure hs is trying to do that just to hurt you. fight back!!!

My sister had to go through the similar thing but he did take her daughter 15 years old and poisend her mind but now he has take off and can not be found!! but daughter hs turned againster her mom so it would be futile for them to try and find her.

Oh Pat congrats!!! way to go. hope things go smoothly. i knew that if you were ment for that house you would get it!!!