Sorry, I'm tired, still bummed and disappointed in myself. I have to get up again...shouldn't take long. My past three stories have all had very nice things said about them, not only from the people I interviewd or their PR people, but also from some colleagues at work....now, if I could just apply myself to the diet, health and weight loss, I would feel a lot better. 
I wish I would just learn to stay away from the beer. It doesn't do anything for me these days but make me feel bad. Last night was awful really. The only reason I went out was because a new guy started on our desk, but it ended up going til late (me, that is) and the same guy who was really, really in my face arguing last time was at it again. It was bizarre. I don't understand it, what his problem is. Maybe his drinking problem...I don't know. That is more what has me bummed out...the fact that I feel lazy and had to cancel riding on top of a horrible evening out. I really don't need this. 
Do any of you get this? Have some colleagues that just seem out to get you for no apparent reason, other than perhaps their own skewed personalities? 
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Caro -- Thank you for your sweet words. They helped me feel a little better. Friendship problems can be awful. That was another part of my feeling so low. I used to really enjoy drinking with this guy. We used to, at least I thought, enjoy each other's company more. I don't know what happened to him, but the last two times out he has been what I consider irrational, saying things I can't believe he is saying, going on and on ranting like saying all these bad things about me and I don't deserve it at all! I think it may be an alcoholic rant...really, sad, but true. I hope your issues don't turn you to bingeing. It will only make things worse. I want you to try to get out and talk to people, even in little ways, and realize that our lives are enriched by so many people and they don't have to be family or lovers or even friends, but often just simply people on the street or in the stores you chat to. I always make a point to say hello and thank you and make a little small talk with people, connect with them. People love it and it really helps me. I don't know your situation. Can you get out of the house and do that? I hope so. Human contact is really important.
jolly -- Thank you too. I loved the happy thoughts. Got them early on today and they did make me feel a lot better. I'm sorry you're having friendship troubles. I don't know the particulars, but I hope you can either work things out or move on and be kind to yourself. Great going on the workout. You're way ahead of the game if you can do that! Keep up the good work!
Shad --
Bravo on the challenges! 
dj -- Hi there!
Good going on your challenges. I hope those blue skies stay out for you. Do you know the song Blue Sky by the Allman Brothers. It's one of my favorites. 
Obsidian, chai, tea, veggie, REDEF (
), Sushi, marble, carla, Fish, mez, Apple, anyone I missed! I've got to get some shuteye. Hope you're doing ok or will get back on track again. We've gotta keep trying! Take care and check on you all later! 
I have no idea what happened, I just know that I was mopping up about 1/2 a pot of coffee at 2:30 this morning! What a way to start the day! Of course, that made me decide to grab 2 donuts holes this morning when I got to work. That was the end of that challenge. Have to start over! Oh well, at least I've eaten a lot less of those things since I started this.
Of course, sleeping didn't bring any challenge ideas to mind...thank God!....if I were thinking about challenges in my sleep that'd be pretty sad. So, I have not decided on what to do. I feel like going super strict again, but think what I really need is something gentle, something to make me look at all the things I DO do, and not focus on what I need to do or haven't done. Focusing on what I do do makes me do better overall. It's usually that way when I'm stressed and overworked, which is what I am now. 
and good luck on exercise. Thanks for the words on the coworker. It's not really about "pushing buttons" at least I don't think so. This guy has always been out to get me I'd say, always looking for an argument, comes on sweet and then does a Jekyll and Hyde switch. All I can say is that he must have major issues. Still, saying that doesn't help me. I am a helpful and gregarious person and always willing to give someone another chance. Also, it's very hard to deal with someone who is so inconsistent. You think they're ok, apologetic, whatever and then, bang, it happens again. There is a lot of underlying anger with this guy, the thinking that he is entitled to things he isn't getting, and it is not unfounded, but falling into a mindset of hate isn't going to help. I don't know why he takes it out on me. Perhaps because I give him a chance and he would it with anyone who did so. Pathetic and very, very draining. 
My best advice, in the short term at least: try to keep your cool (lots of "ohm" and deep breathing), spend plenty of quality time with the cats and Heidi, and stay away from bars and beer for a while. Take your frustrations out on accumulated clutter and delinquent lurking fat chicks who never post any more (nice target on my back, right?). Good luck, old pal. 
And then Carla pops in and....
A couple of weeks ago we were in the low 50's and now we are in the upper 80's. I have not had enough time to get used to it and working out is getting hard. I can only work out in the afternoon when my 2 year old goes down for his nap and it's so hot! Of course, we have no air conditioning, just lots of fans all over the house. Oh well, guess I shouldn't complain. We've been known to get snow in July on occasion so I'll try to enjoy the heat while it's here.
I`m going to get through this, and so are you with the stress you`re dealing with. And we will be stronger! 