Hey Everyone,
So my weight is driving me nuts. I am so mad, but I need to stay super focused cause I WANT THIS WEIGHT OFF! Sorry to be angry again. I weighed myself this morning and just wasn't happy. Gained 2 pounds. Ugghhh..
LT--So yeah, I don't know what to do about these last few pounds. You're right about the next milestones...to me it's like when you're working out on a treadmill and you're down to your last minute or 30 seconds, and instead of giving it your all, you slow down and walk instead...well like for these last 2 pounds or so, I just give up and either eat more or something. I don't know...just so bummed and feel like giving up. My body is so stubborn. It makes me angry, mad, sad....I can't explain it.
Also, my mom's phone call the other day left me in a bad mood for the next day or so. I just have a weird dysfunctional family. Thank you LT for your kind words. It does make me feel better though... **HUG**
I just wish that I could separate my emotions from my weight loss committment. I mean I just want to lose the weight and not let my anger, frustrations, sadness from everyday life affect my weight.
The past few days I've been contemplating about starving myself, going on liquid diet, or just eating celery sticks. I know that it's not possible to lose weight that way, but the desperation kicks in and I just think that way.
Sorry this is somewhat turning into a journal for me, but I've no idea how to deal the moment. I cancelled 2 events that I wanted to go to simply becuase of the way I look and my clothes not fitting how I want them to.
Last week I was doing so good, and I don't know what the heck happened.
Anyways, I'm glad that you girls have been helping me, and I'll just have to try harder. St. Patty's day is coming up, and I really want to make that goal. I know that it's still possible, even though that might mean trying to lose like 8 pounds by then. Not sure if that's healthy/possible, but I'll try.
On a brighter note...
Congrats LT on your new size! Shopping is the BEST part about weight loss. I love buying new clothes after I losing weight. So much fun! You're losing weight so fast! I'm really happy for you.
