leaves - welcome!
sum - AWESOME on the weight loss!
It is awesome both your kids want to be doctors. I know this may not be an option you want to take, but I want to throw it out there regardless. When I went to school, my parents had just filed bankrupcy (I blame my dad) and no one would touch them with a loan. Obviously they didn't have any money, and well, unfortunately, my dad was an owner/operator so his gross income was grossly inflated (they don't consider operating expenses and taxes.) I was on my own. But, being on my own helped get me through. I was able to get a couple of scholarships and I was able to obtain a few grants. I did have to take out a few loans (which by the way, I highly recommend staying AWAY from Sallie Mae at ALL costs!!!!! I'd be happy to explain later if you'd like.) But, my scholarships and grants got me through community college for the first two years, you know, to get the basic required courses out of the way. After that, I transfered to a university. My scholarships and grants covered a little, but that was when I had to take out my loans. But...I had knocked away 2 years at community college AND had saved what would have amounted to $90K had I went straight to the university. Sure, I didn't WANT to go to community college, but sometimes, you have to do what you have to do. Anyways, after all my grants and scholarships and all, the next year and an half at the university only cost me $50K....I crammed as many classes as I could in as short of time as I could and was working full time to boot. I managed to maintain a 3.9 AND get a dual major AND pass the LSATS to move onto law school. I don't know how law school would have went though, although I do know I was accepted with a substantial scholarship that would have put year one at only $18K in loans. I never made it that far however. I got pregnant and decided I'd rather be a mom than an attorney. Funny how life likes to do that to us from time to time.

My point is, if there is a will, there is a way. I personally have my college debt, but given the circumstances, if I wanted to go to college, I had to do something about it. It sucks, but well, I learned a lesson on how to care for myself I would not have learned otherwise. And I learned Sallie Mae is the spawn of all things evil.

I know this has to be stressful for you
ALL - thanks for your support over that...thing...the other day. The more I think about it, the more he pisses me off. I mean, seriously pisses me off. I used to be thin. I used to be athletic. I used to not have to worry about dieting or exercising or any of that. But life has a funny way of messing up a good thing from time to time. All it took was a dietary issue of lacking minerals and vitamins and one really bad car crash to cause me to pack on 140+ pounds. And it has taken me a little over 10 years to come to grips with it and want to do something about it. It could have happen to anyone. I guess what upsets me so much about it is, I didn't have a sour ourlook on obesity. I mean, aside from me, my entire family was obese, so I never really had a reason to call anyone out on it. Despite that, upon gaining the weight, I started hating myself and dug myself into a pit of dispair as I suddenly had to change what I was eating and was forced from a very active lifestyle to a VERY sedative one. Once I was mobile again, I was so down on myself, I didn't do anything but put more food in my maw and get lazier. If my situation had happened to him, someone who truly that disgusted, would he had been able to come to gripes with it and do something about it? Probably not. Yet he thinks he is better than me? Than all the people I know actively trying harder than they have ever tried at anything before? Yeah...no. The more I think about it, the more it REALLY ticks me off and wants me to keep going to prove to everyone like him that I AM better and if I am, so is everyone who fights this battle with me. I know it is petty. It just irks me. I mean, seriously. It is attitudes like that that help keep the epedimic the way it is because so many people fear public ridicule. Just...gah!
Delphi - You seriously do rock. I mean, just wow. I can't do more than an hour but half the time, can't even get that far. And I try. The fact you have so much on you and you still did it...just wow. True inspiration right there.
And...I am sad to announce my scale it slowly creeping back up. I mean, I was insanely busy this weekend, what with my mom breaking her leg and having to run a million errands for her and having a birthday cake I had to go out, but I never really deviated from plan. I had half a cupcake to make sure that the cake I was making for the birthday was up to par, but outside of that, I really was on plan the entire time, despite my time restraints. I can't help but wonder if it is true that some people gain weight just by looking at food. Either that or I am retaining water. Shouldn't be this late in the game, but I guess weirder things have happened. Regardless of the reason, it still sucks. BUT! I did have a NSV yesteray...I dropped two X's! I finally caved and bought some new clothes and found that I can now shop in the Misses (granted just barely) and can fit in a 1X!!!! Now that I am in clothes that fit, I am feeling pretty dang woohoo!
