Well, my mood is rapidly plummeting. (wish my scale numbers would plummet as fast as my mood can!)

Just feeling down about everything... Really personal stuff I can't get into here (but trust me, it's absolutely heart-breaking)
Then there's the hard work of weightloss weighing heavily on me (no pun intended)
Keep thinking back to how I lost a TON of weight a few years ago in a VERY unhealthy way (let's just say "self-medicating"), and I am finding myself kinda missing those "good times"...
And the weather is just so HOT and I HATE hot weather 'cos I HATE my tattoos and long sleeves and pants are so HOT.... And lasers are SO expensive and I never see myself having enough money to get these scribbles off my body.
And my boyfriend lives 400 miles away and is at a BBQ right now with friends and family and I wish I was there with him, but my moving down there is suuuuuch a far away goal..
And a buncha other stuff is playing with my head too.

UGH!

I want to eat, eat, eat. And I know it's a psychological thing, but my stomache is actually growling LOUDLY! Yet, I KNOW I don't NEED to eat because I've eaten enough--but I guess my brain being in this space is trying to trick me, and it's making my tummy growl? Very frustrating.

Just hating things right now. A lot.

And the worst part? I had typo'd and left off the "s" in my post.. It's tattooS... 10 of them. All over me. So STUPID!

Thanks for the hug

JUst a quick stop in again~

Love2b150~so far still in the clear on no more falls~thank God!
But man there scary & painful!However my hubby did fall face first on his short hiking trip in the woods today~He said it hurt like crap~I thought since he was ok ~Oh goody they say bad things come in 3's ~he took my 3rd fall for me I hope LOL(I know I am awful) Oh & the peanut butter thingy~I am over it again for a few weeks~I notice I want it also when I have done more of a workout or harder chores so Maybe I am burning more calories on those days(Just wishful thinking ~LOL)BAD PEANUT BUTTER!
As for tattoos~I do not have any But my hubby has several & wants more at age 37 ~I beg him not too~Not that they look bad ~I just always say think before u do But noone ever does we all make mistakes. He wants to get his whole back done as a cool faced tree with each of our 3 kids & My name hidden into the tree~And before he started growing his hair back out He wanted to do his whole head up~LOL~I was freaking but I personal think he's hot with them~I am a good girl with my sweet But bad boy type man!(& no he aint an ex con for those wondering~LOL~Just a recovered alcoholic~He's a good man with bad boy looks that plays guitar and bass ~Of anything from Acdc/guns n roses/to slayer/iron maiden ect.)~hehehee & I am a prissy sissified girl~Were total opposites! So cute though together I think~he is in my avatar pic with me!)

Same to u Mermaid~We all make mistakes ~just do your best~If its hot where u live show them tattoos~Who cares what others think about them & Just do not look at them if u don't like them~U gotta stay cool in this heat.It's 89 Here in OHIO Today maybe 90's!
As for the food cravings Just do what I do (other than my peanut butter days)Eat the lowest calorie items u have in the house if u over eat & drink tons of water ~Water will feel u up quickly! BEST OF LUCK TO U TODAY! SENDING A HUG TO U!

& NEVER GIVE UP~EVEN IF U GIVE IN~& No Thats not an exscuse~Just always start back over & do better the next day~Noones perfect.

Nearly forgot:
OH & SHAN AWESOM JOB GIRL ~6.5 wowza! U never fail to amaze me!

Kaelah~glad things are going well for u!

kdm.misspriss,susie,jdonato, & everyone else~In a hurry Or would write all names! HUGS ~Hope your all having a super day!

Hello ladies!!

I've missed these challenges; life just got in the way of online socializing...
We're all well here, things are going as thing go. When I've been down and out lately I've been trying to remember that things always change, and eventually, this too will pass. The weight has been steadily coming off, although for the past month I've been at about 165 and not really dieting. I'm back on track counting and using my food journal. I'm pleased that I didn't gain during my time not counting and using the journal - I hope this means that once I've peeled off the last 10 (or more? I'm still not really sure where I'll stop, I'm pleased with my size and shape in general now, but I do want to make a few improvements to how I look in the altogether, because hubby certainly does request the altogether look an awful lot. ) I'll be truly ready to maintain. I plan to journal steadily for the first few months of maintenance and then on and off as needed. I'll have a weight that requires immediate daily journal work and restriction, and a weekly weigh-in, I imagine. I did keep weighing while I wasn't really on track, but it was starting to seem natural - if I pigged out one night, I trimmed down the whole next day, and so forth. Anyway, although I didn't make weight progress, it was a learning experience in many ways and fairly positive.

I'd like to be 155lbs by Labor Day. It's entirely doable, should I manage to avoid any more plateaus (intentional or otherwise). I've been mainly using circuit training, yoga and walking, and had dropped to 1200-1300 calories daily before I stopped counting... which I expect was why I stopped counting. I'm back to 1400, and feeling good and expect I'll still make progress that will make me happy.

MASSIVE HOWDYS TO EVERYONE!

Joining in

I began Jillian Michael's 30 Say Shred July 5 -- I'm on Day 7
I plan to begin Jillian's 30 Day Slim Down August 6 (after 30DS is complete)

So basically my goal for labor day is:
Complete The 30 Day Shred AND 30 Day Slim Down by Labor Day!

September 7 is when Jillian's NEW 30 Day Shred It with Weights is released -- that's a whole new ball game!

That's the thing, I DON'T care what other people think of my tattoos--Because actually, everyone tells me how they're not that bad, or nice, or they like them, or whatever. But THEY don't have to live with them, it's MY skin on MY body and I HATE THEM SO MUCH! And the more weight I lose, the worse the hatred gets. When I was 140, I thought "Man, this bangin' bod, covered in SCRIBBLES!"

I just hate them. So much. Hate.

But I'll stop ranting, 'cos I could go on all day.

m3rma1d -- Do you have sleeves? (tat sleeves I mean)
Or just a few here and there?
I got tats on my wrists about 2 years ago

Thanks Love2b!

Whenever I am feeling really down and eant to just eat something, I take a walk, etc... Somehow the exercise makes me feel better...probably the endorphins. I also think getting alone helps me clear my mind. Thought this might help m3rmaid. Sorry you are down.

Just a run by posting -

130 minutes (16 mile) bike ride today. Felt great.

Also, I went into old navy and bought a XL - and it looks good! Could I really be moving out of XXL?

Have a great weekend all!

Oh m3rma1d, I am so sorry to hear you are having a bad time! Your posts always make me smile so I am distressed to hear you are not in a good place! (No pun intended!) Sending good thoughts your way! Wish my sons would read and listen to your regrets about the tats - would probably be way more effective than me telling them!

Anyway to the words of encouragement I got before about the undelivered scale - I am not really all that patient but I know this not weighing in is good for me! I tend to be a little lax with my plan when my weight is down for a day and that is not a good approach! On a historical note I used to do the same thing in college to some extent: drink regular beer if I was 115 or lower and light beer if I was over 115! That of course was a long long long time ago but what a head case I have been for along time!!!!! LMAO now at the thought of that!