After an emotional weekend (for many reasons), time to hit RE-SET
.But 1st......a few words to those of you who keep mentioning buttery popcorn. My TH (aka "the enabler") introduced me to this luxury and convenient foodstuff, and I, too, would get the cravings when he would simply ask: "want popcorn?" .....drool like Pavlov's dog.... We used to munch on the microwave version....now I can't stand the stuff...Part of what helped curb my interest was knowledge of how artificial the product is....plus burning it a few times!.....If you haven't already....google Dangers of Microwave Popcorn, perfluorooctanoic acid (PFOA), Popcorn Workers Lung, and diacetyl. Yeah, I know, everything causes cancer, and diacetyl is a natural substance in butter....but hopefully this info will give you pause the next time you reach for this stuff....it really is unnatural and unhealthy.....worked for me anyways....
zumba--Thighs rubbing together?!?!?!?! At your wt?!?!?! Nahhhhhh... More likely your bulging thigh muscles reaching to kiss each other in admiration!!!!
Sheila--My goal is also to improve my social network....at work (I work for a large organization) and elsewhere. I've been in a work/kids/work/kids grinding cycle for too long, and my immediate cow-orkers are self-centered bullies and AHs (perdon). I need Toxic relief. This forum definitely helps. All the ladies have been so supportive and non-judgmental. What a welcome relief!
OK....RE-SET....well.....I had my 1 month New Birthday a few days ago and I was not in the mood for reflection or celebration much.....Disappointed because I had not achieved as much weight loss or done as much exercise as I had planned. But.....I did hang on to a 10# loss in the 1st month and I have hung on to the mindset (barely)....I know I can do this, but I clearly need to work harder on training my brain....not letting life events or AHs get to me.....I also need to get religious about exorcise. Stronger in mind and stronger in body. I have been overwhelmed because, frankly, I have TOO MANY big and important goals...and holidays have been adding to that drowning feeling. Sometimes I just get paralyzed because I have so many directions I should be running. At the same time, I have A LOT of weight to lose....& I am too impatient. That Event next summer is constantly on my mind.....sometimes it's motivating.....other times, deflating......I don't want to feel like a Big Failure next summer.....
OK.....money where my mouth is....going to exorcise RIGHT NOW!!!

I didn't get up early enough to go for a walk this AM...the bed was just to cozy. So I told myself, "Well, I'll eat healthy & have plenty of water." ERROR! Ate well til about 7, when I got off work. Ate tons of pizza, had soda (which I haven't had in over a month)...will try again tomorrow.
Subway is pretty decent for a fast food type place. What did you see? Was it good?
I'm holding steady. I should be happy, but compound it with work stress & I'm not. I think I'll toss out in front of a moving bus tomorrow! The stop is basically right outside my door so I won't get too wet or cold! 


And don't let the holiday slips get you down - I've decided I'm going to do my best to get through them, but I'm not going to beat myself up (until January 1st!! LOL)
Weight room here I come!
NEMom 
On top of that, I saw my low weight of 150.0 on December 7, but have not seen it since. I keep bouncing around between 151 and 154. I think I may have been eating too few calories and perhaps the extra I've been eating lately can help me knock this plateau. Waking up with good news from the scale would be the best birthday gift I could get!
Lady, don't worry so much about your weight. Why? Cause we live in the real world (not on the one they used to have on MTV) facing real world issues & problems. Weight goes up, weight goes down. How we handle ourselves is what matters. Do we handle ourselves with as much dignity & resiliance as possible. We are human, we slip, we fall, we mess up...what counts is that we get up, dust ourselves off try again. Anyone who really knows what is going on in your life will be impressed. Know this, you ARE an inspiration despite what you may think or feel. Don't give up! Put one foot in front of the other, next thing you know...you'll be on your way again!
