Hello everyone
Red, congratulations on finishing the crunches challenge, you rock!!!

Don't let those pause days on the other challenges get you down, girl!
CBETA, your last few weeks seem quite a bit like my own last few weeks, only I don't quite have such solid reasons as work, health issues and so on... But it'll get better, you can do it!
I'm doing fine, and have been successful for 4 days now, whee! I know that's not much, but seems quite something after not being able to get through day 1 or 2 or 3 a number of times recently...
I'm not feeling entirely fine though... Life stuff. I messed a few things up quite badly, and also messed up the chance to fix them... the worst is that I just can't talk or write about it, so it's eating me from the inside.

Just feel like such a loser and nobody because of that. It's serious stuff, and it'll have serious implications for my future. I feel like repeating "I suck, I suck, I suck" and whacking my own head over and over again, but it's not going to make me feel better OR make things better...
I don't know what I'm going to do... there are only so many chances you can have, only so many times you can fix things up... I've messed up my chances and have nothing to show for the ones I was given... can't expect people who could help with this to stick with me yet again.
And I know it'll spoil the trip because I'll be feeling awful.
Okay Sushi, enough, shut up already...
My tracker isn't accurate at the moment, so I'm trying to be very very very good these days, so that things (hopefully) improve by Monday or Tuesday morning. I want to know how many pounds of me will be going on my camping trip, and I don't want that to be influenced by lack of exercise and poor food choices over the few days beforehand. And I want to know how many pounds will be coming back - hopefully fewer!

I won't be changing my tracker before the trip though, no point since I won't be posting anyway.
I wish I could determine whether I have a chance to meet my mid-May goal, but can't right now, difficult to foresee what will happen on the trip. The last time I went on a big trip, I actually gained 2 pounds despite lots of walking and hiking and activity... I'm bound to feel miserable if I don't meet the goal, so better not focus my mind that much just yet... will need to reasses things after the trip... the only problem is that then there will be just a month to go, and if things go bad on the trip, I'll have no way of meeting the goal... ugh, I'm starting again... shut up, Sushi! Shut up!