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Originally Posted by Razorbackbritt
Ok, its time for me to get real. In the last three weeks, I haven't lost anything. I've got issues I need to talk out. Bear with me. :-)
1) I'm tired of the plan. I've been on since September. And though I usually (90%) of the time, am ok with my food choices, when we go out, I'm not. I was home with my family this weekend at our favorite breakfast spot for a lunch Sunday. I got eggs with veggies and fruit....and they have the best muffins. So I ate a muffin too. Then my mom got some muffins to take home! And so last night for dinner, I opted for a muffin and HNS for dinner. I want some more freedom to make the choices I want.
2) I'm happy with my 40 pounds lost. Its hard to stay focused on the plan when I daily get compliments and feel better. I can shop for regular clothes, I can work out easily, and don't have the issues I did when I was obese. I want to be "normal" which means getting to 140 at least. But it seems so far away when its taken 6 months to lose the 40.
So I've got two options: either be happy here and maintain, or get my butt into gear and stay totally on program and lose these dadgum 25 pounds. I guess I'm close enough that I can no longer eat bites and nibbles and lose. I'm learning that the hard way these last few weeks. I know I'm wasting money by having non-loss weeks....but I just don't have my head in the game right now.
I think my weeks end at the end of May...I could lose 15-20 pounds by then if I stick with it. I just need a swift kick in the pants, I suppose.
Thanks for being a place to vent and get insight and understanding. I need to know I'm not the only one feeling this way.
I felt the same way about the program foods at first, and my boyfriend put it really simply for me - he said, "So what I hear you saying is that you're pissed off you can't eat the foods that made you 300lbs." It hit me hard when he said that, but it also sounded ridiculous! I thought, am I really complaining about it? LOL!!!! I think that was the turning point for me.
Don't get me wrong either! I do cheat, not intentionally, but if I have an urge to eat something, I try to eat something that can only help me. Like last night we had a huge party for my dad - we had fajitas for dinner and there were a lot of pies and cupcakes. While I wanted dessert - I opted for extra protein and ate more fajita meat plus a creamy Hot Cocoa.
I'd say (since it is already April practically) kick your own butt and get it in gear.. challenge yourself to see how much more you can lose before you go on maintenance... but those are just my thoughts
