| skinnyby25 |
04-08-2010 11:15 AM |
ok, so march was a bad month for me. i had a huge event at work, a wedding, then a vacation. i wasn't off plan the whole time and i ended up gaining a few pounds. i hit my lowest weight at 168, that only lasted for about a day. i don't get it, i was up in the next two days even being on plan. then after vacation i was way up to 175, most of it water i'm guessing. started back on plan this monday and i'm back down to 172. i had a great vacation and ate all kinds of great food, but i felt gross so it was easy for me to get back on plan. plus i haven't had cravings yet, very excited about that because its making it so much easier. my goal for april is to get down to the 160. i am going to start woring out again, i need to firm up. i think my overall weight goal is going to be 150, i'll have to see what my body looks like then. another goal i have, this has been a hard one, is to make better eating decisions. some days if i make a mistake i would think, well screw it, i've already messed up and eat whatever i wanted and go all out. from now on, even if i can't eat exactly on plan, i'm going to eat healthy. if in a couple weeks, i'm craving something i will eat it. if i want a cookie, i will eat one, not four, if i want pizza i will eat a slice not three. u get what i mean, i'm going to stop binging on bad food and eat to live not live to eat. i've done ok with this, but there have been times when i've over ate because it tasted good. i need to stop thinking of this as a diet and more of a lifestyle. i'm mad at myself for gaining back these few pounds, but i know i can lose more and keep it off. i think these next 20lbs are going to be hard, it doesn't come off as fast now as it did in the begining. also my contract is up at mrc, they haven't talked to me about renewing yet, but did say they would in the next few visits. i can't put any more money into it again, you all know how expensive it is. plus, its too far away for me and the weigh ins are not very inspiring for me. i've been on this for about 6 months and i'm ready to be done, i'm happy for the weight i've lost, but i'm ready to lose the rest and look good this summer. so i'm going turn to this board for motivation, especially for working out...i hate working out with a passion. sorry to ramble, thanks for listening and for all the motivation each of you has given me since i joined this board.
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