So my goal of less weight control obsession isn't going so well yet, however, this isn't necessarily a bad thing. Thanks to comments from members here and others post I've read lately of others journey's I'm having some major revelations of my own.

My most current one is to just stop. mkendrick noticed that I had been "labeling" myself as a weekend binger as if it wasn't a choice. Which is true, I do. So this weekend while trying out my "new rules" I thought about this and used it several times to just stop. Just stop, assess and as loving me pointed out, realize that if what I had just eaten hadn't curbed the urge to binge, nothing would. And I did, I just stopped. The control progress through the weekend, from a horrific Friday, to a pretty good Saturday to a perfect Sunday.

So this morning I was thinking, man how to do I project this forward to future situations, future weekends. Surely it's not going to be that easy. But while listening to IOWL, my new obsession thanks katy, I had a revelation. I have already just stopped some of my other binging behaviors, but I did it so long ago I don't even remember. For example, I used to always eat the birthday cake at office birthday parties and usually go for seconds later when no one was looking and then I just stopped. Now I don't even think about it. I used to raid the candy jar in the afternoons and then I just stopped.

So this is it, just stop. Certainly it's not that simple, but as losermom recently pointed out to me and something that I know saef tells us a lot, this journey is body AND mind. We can't leave out the mind part of it. I often forget that. I forget, because quite frankly it's too much work. But unless I want to do the work, I'm going to continue to struggle. The other part of is, that I'm trying to move away from my obsession, and focusing on the mind can feel like feeding it at times.

So onwards I go. Time to sign of for today as I've already exceeded my allowable 3FC time.