Nicole- Time goes by soooo fast, doesn't it? My oldest is turning 9 in January, and I just can't even believe it. It is 22 degrees here right now, and clear. I wish it would just cloud over and snow. It would feel warmer.
Hi guys! Nicole emailed me the link to this thread-you guys must be psychic or something. I'm so glad you've been thinking of me-cuz I've been thinking of you all . . .
I blew it. The whole thing. The single parent gig has blown me completely out of the water. I don't even try to lose the weight I've gained, don't exercise . . . .and where has it gotten me? Exactly where I was when I started. I've gained it all back. I'm so disgusted with myself. I really thought that I had it together. But the stress of the adoption, my quite hellish maternity leave/transition for both me and Josie, and now, though everything is pretty darn good-I feel like I'm just keeping my head above water.
I'm just so tired all of the time. I was sick for over 6 months last year-until I finally went to the doctor and got dosed with massive antibiotics and steroids. So I have no excuse not to exercise. The thought of starting over makes me weary. How can I do that again?
But the last couple of days I realize I have no choice. I HAVE to do it again. I did it before-I can do it again. I sort of needed a little push to get me going-and coming on the board and seeing that I've been missed kinda did it for me. Thank you for that.
So-shopping-wise, i'm not ready to completely change my diet. But for today (and this is going to have to be a one-day-at-a-time thing) I'm going to drink at least 64 oz of water (I haven't really been drinking ANY!) and watch the portion sizes and calorie count of my food today.
I'm a little overdue on the last month for an update on my blog-mostly I think I just have some pics of our pumpkin-patch visit. But there is some good stuff on there if you look back a bit-particularly a personal meeting with Elmo . . . . . Josie saw a little bit of heaven that day!
I'm so behind on everyone and what they are up to-I'd love an update if you don't mind!
Oh Juliemarie, she absolutley darling. I really loved the Elmo meeting pictures. Pure joy.
You know what, I am totally in your shoes. I have gained every bit of my weight back. I have had a pretty tough year. My mom was diagnosed with breast cancer. She had to have a mastectomy, then another surgery to remove more lymph nodes. She just finished chemo last week, now she has to have a little radiation, and she is done. It has been tough. She is doing pretty good now though. To add to that my grandma that I have been taking care of for so many years died a couple of months ago (My dads mom). Now that my mom is better, my dad has gotten really sick. He is in remission for prostate cancer, and has gotten a bad infection in his leg. I am just trying to help take care of them, run my daycare, and take care of my own family. In the meantime, I have completely quit taking care of myself, not to mention plenty of comfort food, as well. I need to find my way back to health, but like you, I just don't even feel like I have the energy to do it. How do we get back on track?
JM, Josie looks so happy and healthy and of course beautiful. Whatever weight you have gained can be lost again. It is worth the investment in your health to make positive lifestlye changes. You don't want to pass along unhealthy habits to that sweet child. So just focus on being healthier and stop beating yourself up for the number on the scale.
Jillian and Kim, How wonderful that you have so much in common with your spouses. My DH is a Taurus. I'm Aquarius.... Not the most harmonious combination, but opposites attract and we complement each other... so it works out.
Katie, doesn't time go so much faster as a mom than it seemed to go as a kid?
Nicole, it does seem like the group is dwindling. I suppose that is only natural due to LAWL closing all those offices and shrinking.
I have a cold and I've not used that as an excuse to eat junk food. So for me that is a victory. I've got to make fewer exceptions to eating healthy if I'm going to see the scale move down instead of up.
barbara--speaking of the centers closing and the group getting smaller..i just got a postcard in the mail from my center telling me that i can get all my weeks back during their open house this past week. it doesn't really look like they're closing anytime soon, so, i'm crossing my fingers and hoping that they are still open when i'm done being prego. i did the majority of my WL without them, but used the center for a jumpstart at the beginning. i laughed when i got the card because i didn't think that they'd still be around after all the closings. guess i was wrong.
Julie - Josie is just beautiful! What a lucky girl she is, and what a lucky mom you are to have found each other.
Don't beat yourself up too much about what's in the past. Nothing you can do about that now. But you have a whole bright future ahead for you and Josie - now there's some inspiration!
On my update front - well, obviously - still here, so still struggling with weight. I changed jobs about a year ago and wasn't running around as much, so I gained some weight back. But, I've been pretty focused lately and am back on the wagon.
Barbara - I do have a lot in common with DH - I guess it is good, but it can be bad too! Actually - he really is my best friend.
Hi ladies!
lI have a favor to ask. Anyone know of a good Healthy Lavosh recipe. My BF is craving it and we are making dinner... any help is greatly appreciated.
Katie-I’m so sorry about your parents health-it’s something I’ve been worrying about a lot lately. There’s nothing imminent-but neither of them are the picture of health and there’s been lots of stress lately with their business. Can’t imagine a world without them . . . .
As for what can we do? I don’t know-I’ve just decided to take it one day at a time and make some better choices food wise and get some exercise. One thing I need to change is this hour of me-time I have when Josie is in daycare . . .I get off between 3 and 4 and usually go home for an hour and get a few things done, veg in front of People’s Court and just enjoy and empty house. And then around 5-I go pick her up. I’m really lucky they’re open for such a long time (6-6:30). However-I should be using this time to go to the gym. I can’t go today-but I will go tomorrow. I need to be better about cleaning on the weekends and after she goes to bed and not save little chores for this hour.
Once I get feeling under control I will pursue the proper menu also. Money’s really tight right now and I can’t just throw out food. There’s no junk food in the house right now-but there is lots of pasta and other high carb stuff-and I”ll work on phasing that out and getting the proper stuff. However-I need to keep my meals family friendly too-so I will be looking for recipes that Josie will eat. (the meals-not the recipes!)
Jillian-thanks for the welcome! I see that you’ve got big news! Lemons . . . .does that mean twins? Congrats!
Barbara-I remember you from last summer-you joined after I returned from Vietnam (and after I had lost my almost 100lbs). Yes-I know I can do it and really-this is the first time in a while that I feel I WANT to do it. I actually feel some motivation inside of me-and maybe a little bit of fear. I’ve had some minor health issues that I have worked up in my head to possible life-threatening things and then have nightmares about what would happen to Josie . . . . yadda yadda yadda . hey-I see you're in Portland too! Acutally-I recently moved to Beaverton/Tanasbourne-I should probably change my location . . . Incredible weather right now-huh?
Congrats on not feeding your cold!
Kim-glad you’re back on the diet-we can all motivate one another (okay that’s what these boards are for right?) And you’re right-Josie is my inspiration (although I need to do this for myself too). I don’t want to be that mom that can’t keep up with her kids. I don’t want her to be embarrassed by me. And I just want to feel good again.
Cecilia-Lavosh? Don’t even know what that is so I’m no help . . . wait-is it those little tortilla, cream cheese, deli meat wraps?
Juliemarie
Last edited by juliemarie; 10-23-2008 at 02:25 PM.
.....you girls are cracking me up.
I'm so disgusted with myself. I really thought that I had it together. But the stress of the adoption, my quite hellish maternity leave/transition for both me and Josie, and now, though everything is pretty darn good-I feel like I'm just keeping my head above water.
