soooo.... very... tired............ How could something the size of a sesame seed zap all energy out of an adult?? My 15-month-old is running a 103 fever so I held her all day, I am not kidding. It is amazing what you can do with one hand. I have two very sick dogs, too. With a house on the market, I am getting a little frustrated. It as if the dogs are in cahoots and decided to get a stomach virus at the same time.
Turns out I am further along in my pregnancy than I knew... 5 weeks. I went to the doctor today to get a referral to a dietician. I said to the nurse practitioner that it I couldn't un-fat myself now and I would like some help with eating so the doctor, really one of the doctors, didn't yell at me during this pregnancy. She was very cool about it. I will get an early ultrasound in 3 weeks due to a weird blood clotting disorder that is so benign but gets me early ultrasounds-- yeah!! I love an ultrasound. I could lay there forever and watch that little bean in there. Anyway... credit moi for being proactive and taking the bull-doctor by the horns. Thank you all for your congrats... I am very excited!
Billblueyes-- I admire your ability to sit in all of these meetings and not eat delectable brownies but instead munch on brownies. you are a wonder. BTW, I am a librarian and we love GOOGLE!
onebyone-- glad you got all your wonderful paintings delivered... and without stress eating... very impressive! To me, that is a major achievement. i love that the mushrooms were censored. That made me smile. good for you for nipping bad eating in the bud before it goes on too long. That is easier sad than done
Wendylan-- i am convinced that gardening is one of the best forms of exercise. I am still sore from Monday and planting 6 or so flats, much less than what you did.
Coastalsue-- I wish I could swim, it is such a great exercise and easy on the joints. Sadly, I can only dog paddle!! I simply am not coordinated enough.
I am sure I missed people. The baby is up again... maybe she doesn't like me being on this thread??
I am so relieved. That is the only word for it. Going back to the first 14 days and NOT dieting is just a relief. I have been so preoccupied with the food thing....do this, do that..Fat Smash, South Beach, even considered Medifast. Giving that up and starting over is such a relief. And guess what? My eating has been pretty darned healthy. I have known for some time, I mean a cuppla years that I was starting to revert back to the old thinking...the worrying about dieting. I found this on the maintainers thread, and I can sooo relate:
"For the past month or six weeks I've been eating a lot like I did when I weighed 277 pounds ... not the same kinds of foods so much (although I will admit to two doughnuts last week) but the same out of control mentality. Technically, I'm only a pound or so up from where I was two years ago and only 6 pounds up from my lowest maintained weight...."
Soo.......thanks to the suggestion that we start over. It is just what I needed to do. Of course the compulsive gardening will help, and no, I have not finished raking my driveway back out of the lawn and flower beds, but getting there. And I have my pretty boy (my beautiful Arabian gelding) all cleaned up and shed out and ready to roll. I will report back one sore but happy chick Monday night after my first ride.
Hi everyone,
Just checking in to say that I am still here...so is sick doggie. I feel exhausted due to the added emotional stress right now.... I ate really well during the day, even made a goat cheese/broccoli souffle for dinner that turned out (recipe from eating well magazine-it was YUM!). But then, I went for the snacks. I told myself today that I was going to keep track of the stuff that I wanted to eat but didn't..that is a long list from today but then I indulged. Maybe I need to do what Mary described-not worry about the food plan right now and get back to doing days 1-14 without truly worrying about the food part.
We have a few fun things planned this weekend-it will be hot again tomorrow so water play is in the cards I am sure. We will stick around home for the most part and go to see Cinderella at a children's theater on Sunday. Nice to have some down time-I hope to relax a bit, enjoy my dd and Henry and focus on Beck from the beginning.
I get so much out of reading everyone's posts...thanks!
The west coast is cooling down-Some part were close or over 100 degrees-that is very hot in San Francisco-since we are 80 miles north of that is was actually pleasantly warm only. Not even trying to go swimming during the week end. It is the only pool for over a 40 miles span-it will be crowded.
Still working on trying to figure how many cals I can have and lose weight-Went into the mayo clinic site and based on my age, weight and very limited mobilty I maintain at 2000 cals so in order to lose between 1-1/2 lb a week a need to be under 1300-1500 cals a day-unless I am swimming that day. I was using different sites to calculate and was more at 1500-1600 cals a day and losing so slow. I really get hungry at night when only having 1300 cals a day. I have to figure a way to learn to continously tolerate the hunger-It really doesn't bother me during the day as busy-but night time is really hard-not as active and then I feel the hunger more, - don't even crave anything in particular-just want to be fuller in order to feel more sleepy. Anyone have some great tricks for that night time hunger.
BillBlyEyes-really paid attention to how many raw veggies you eat-much congradulation on that-inspired me to add more to my lunch also. Fun feeliing to solve a problem stumping a group of co-workers.
Redballoon-thanks for the great pep talk and cool graphics- You giving me credit helped. It cans sure feel like many people judge and criticize while what we all really need support and appreciation. Think Beck is trying to teach us to be our own best supporters with all of her focus on giving ourself credit. That has been a wierd slow lesson for me, but getting more postive. Like the other postings said your co-workers' rude behaviors say more about them than who and what you are.
onebyone-glad you enjoyed breakfast-that is one meal I can't skip-plus I love that it so easy to make-cottage cheese, fruit ect -A great cup of coffee and breakfast-great way to start the day. Very kind of you to ask about our houses-all recycled woods-redwood and cedar and made to be functional-Dh fine wood worker makes them and I decorated wiith found/recycled objects. All rather bold and rustic-not quite so represential as a specfic builiding.Use drift woods, old tin, copper, metals-mosic glass as windows. Always wanted to be an artist but not that talented (as you) but really enjoy being a craft person and using power tools and creating things that a nice spirit to them. Since birdhouses a miniture houses they can look so wimsical and charming- great fun. We have few martin birds here on the coast but love thier apartment like houses . We have been accepted by some quality juried show so am hopeful-fun and profit would be just grand. The best of luck for a very successful summer for you-you have a wide range of talents between the painting and jewerly. I have two friends who do their art full time and can earn over $10,000 a show-they really know what they are doing-fly to best show for them. On mushrooms-we are located in one rich wild mushrooming place-I am still too nervous to pick and eat them-but have friends who are increditable at finding and cooking them-yum. Much credit being at your booth all day and ignoring the baked goodies!!
Kuljeanie-great site for the soup thanks! Agree about that giving ourselves credit-very awkard but so important-it is good anti-sabatoging thoughts device-got a ton of sabatoging thoughts always need more positive thoughts.
Wendylan-Your gardening sounds so rewarding. I also get plagued with times of alot of negative self talk-it is such an energy drain.-It seems to go in cycles for me-Life is always better when we feel and know how skilled we are. Much credit for taking care of yourself and enjoying your day.
Kidslibrarylady-much credit for get a referral to dietician now. Sound like one sick household and you are one busy lady nursing your child and pets. Where are you moving to? Soon? I actually swim because I am so uncoordinated on land-too often need a cane for balance but in water I'm an 140 lb ballernina-or so I feel. Again congradualtion on your latest addition.
Maryblu-happy trails to you! Have a fun ride.
Heidi-glad you checked in -supporting thoughts to you and your family. You are coping with alot-be gentle with yourself and glad you have some fun events planned.
sue
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I was reading through your post and thought it was weird to find someone so close to me. I live in Santa Rosa, and am currently hating the heat. I work night shifts and it is super hard to sleep during the day when it is this hot. Plus, I lose all motivation to exercise because the heat drains me so much.
Just a few lines to say hello and good morning to everyone before I drive off to the market. Coaches, I am sticking to NO SUGAR today with a NO CHOICE tacked onto that! Gotta go. Have to figure out what I need to bring and eat breakfast. Will check in again later. Enjoy your day!
Diet Coaches – A recent little success: Was in front of a Dunkin' Donuts serving FREE iced coffee. No line. I thought about whether I wanted iced coffee right then instead of thinking about FREE. Didn't. Didn't even have to find out if it contained calories and if it would fit in my plan. Just didn't want it right then. CREDIT moi.
Sue (CoastalSue) - Just love the image, "but in water I'm an 140 lb ballernina." Kudos for working your calorie intake to find what's right for you. Have you considered a cup of miso soup in the evening to add to the feeling of being full?
MaryBlu - Kudos for "pretty darned healthy" eating. Do you have any suggestions about how to get out of the trap of thinking about food? I keep dreaming that the thinking part will become as small as thinking about brushing my teeth. I manage to brush three times a day without thinking outside of the minute I'm brushing. Even remember to buy tooth paste and tooth brushes without consuming any noticeable time.
Heidi (hbuchwald) - Boy, does your "goat cheese/broccoli souffle" sound yummy. Kudos for keeping you head about water despite the emotional stress; cut yourself some slack for dealing with hard stuff here. Continuing to send supportive thoughts for you, DD, and Henry.
wendy (wendylan) - Gotta love exercise when having fun; Kudos for all that gardening exercise. Your lunch with black olives sounds yummy.
Jean (kuhljeanie) - BIG Kudos for giving yourself credit. I appreciate the discussion about how hard this is. It's hard for me, but because I've forced myself to do it daily for a spell here, it's beginning to feel less absurd. It's good for me to be reminded that I don't intuitively give myself credit for the daily tasks.
You asked, "if i wasn't having a constant conversation in my head about what to "let" myself eat? bill, i know that you're still having those conversations. have they decreased in frequency and intensity over the last six months?" I still think about food, perhaps less than 2 years ago, but more than I wish were the case. DW continues to blow my mind when she mentions that she skipped lunch. SKIPPED LUNCH!!! I'd as soon skip breathing. I'm still hoping that this will decrease more - even though the acquiring and preparing of fresh foods will always take more time than buying prepared foods.
onebyone – Yep, BIG Kudos for rapidly getting back on plan. Rapid recovery just has to be the biggest contribution to long term healthy eating. One meal - even one DAY - can only do minor damage, but a few weeks of over eating while feeling bad about ourselves for over eating can be a real set back. Kudos for finishing up your paintings so you could collect your check, without stress eating, no less. You've really made this transition back to entrepreneur.
KidsLibrarylady - Ouch for all the illness you're taking care of. Kudos for being assertive that you can't "un-fat myself now." (Since you're the librarian, I assume "un-fat" is a word, LOL.) Do you worry that Google is allowing kids to avoid learning about trusted sources? I worry that kids are being fed info by the Google search engine in the order of its popularity; we could spiral into a society where we only read about that which is commonly believed. Or info that is planted by commercial interests.
Readers – "I now know:
• When I’m tempted to eat something I shouldn’t, I need to pull out my list that contains all the reasons I want to lose weight." From the Introduction, Beck, pg 13.
Hello coaches. I'm back from the market. I did well saleswise and foodwise. Stuck to no sugar while there. I went searching for food for lunch and all I saw were baked goods but held out and got a chicken curry on rice with a shrimp roll. Good choice. Credit moi for resisting all the doughy sweet things, even saying no to the "healthy low sugar" cookie offered to me by my neighbour. May go have a nap. Very exhausted.
Started day 5-slow down eating and focus,may need another day at it.I don't eat fast but I do other things while eating like working and reading magazines ect...Ate way too much today,busy with work and work was really on my nerves today.I will check in Sun.
Baby Rn-thanks for the HI-you are right Santa Rosa is our closest big city. Things are cooling down here and hope the same for you all-Rest well and take care of those babies!
This has been a real Oh Well week for me, A week ago I was 300.6 and was determined to get under 300s. I preplanned, recorded, measured had no sugar, white flour, no alcohol and ate between 1250-1400 cals ( did have one day at 1600 and each day I was .2 lb heavier-today I was 302@@#$$%%. that is tough but I have no plans to stop trying. I do get hugh credit for training my brain not to do implusive overeating. One Doc though maybe my meds were slowing down my weight loss-hope not.
BillBlueEyes-Credit for listening to your body and ignore something inspite of being free-Bet it was not the best cup of java. Kind like those cheap hot dog full of fat-just not a good deal at any price. Thanks for the idea of miso-get so tired of teas in the evening. Ps increasing my veggies again today.
OnebyOne-Much credit for success at the market-both in what you sold and what you ignored and did not eat. You loss is great-congradualtion
Wendylan-may tomarrow not be so stressful-Not overeating when stressed is a really challenge for me and something I can continually working at improving.
Diet Coaches A recent little success: Left two slices of sweet potato fries on my plate just because I was already mildly full - even though they were really delicious, healthy enough to be food of the week, lovingly made by DW, and were going to be tossed to the compost if I didn't eat them. CREDIT moi.
Sue (CoastalSue) - Ouch that the scale is teasing you at the the big milestone of twoderland. Kudos for keeping your serenity and staying on plan without the immediate rewards of dropping scale readings.
Heidi (hbuchwald) - Waving. Hope you are getting a chance to relax this weekend. Continuing to send supportive thoughts.
wendy (wendylan) - Kudos that you don't eat fast. I read the newspaper with breakfast - always have. I just accept that, and work extra hard at recognizing what I'm eating. Not sure that I'll ever get to the place where, when I'm eating alone, I only eat.
onebyone Congrats on the good sales. "chicken curry on rice with a shrimp roll" sounds yummy. Kudos for avoiding all the sweets that are right in you face.
redballoon - Waving round the world. Since the work week has almost started for you, sending supportive thoughts that you can ignore your boss this week and be able to see all the positive steps that you are taking.
Melissa (BabyRN) - I know that feeling of being so hot that it melts my motivation to exercise - perhaps a bit a bit of cool this weekend. Hope you stick around. Are you doing Beck?
Readers "I now know:
Just because Im hungry doesnt necessarily mean I should eat." From the Introduction, Beck, pg 13.
Hi everyone. Things continue to go well. It's now 13 weeks since I started Beck and got totally back on South Beach. This past week, I felt like I was getting a little sloppier than I wanted munching on veggies while cooking and changing my food from what I planned, so I tightened up a bit. The weight loss is really showing, and I am enjoying it. The increased energy and comfort just being in my body seems to have happened gradually, but the move to a smaller clothes size feels very sudden. I actually enjoyed shopping for a fancy dress for a wedding on June 1. I'm very much looking forward to getting out of the Plus sizes and into the regular sizes though -- it'll be great to have much more to choose from.
DH and DSS are out of town this weekend. I've had fun without them. Had some friends over for dinner Friday night, went to a baby shower in Western MA yesterday, and dinner and a movie with a friend last night. Today, I'm planning on going through my closet, and organizing it so I have easiest access to Spring and Summer clothes in my current size....and the next size down (though I don't have very much in that size) I'll probably end up donating a bunch of clothes...large clothes I don't want to keep...and some current size clothes that are totally out of style, worn out, or just not flattering....I always feel good when I do this....and I'll make room for the new stuff I'm going to buy!
Even with all the activity this weekend and my family away, I exercised both days and my food has been fine. I made good choices, kept the portions where they should be, left food on the plate in a couple instances. That's just how it is...and how I'm working on believing is going to continue.
not much time on the weekends to post but i wanted to ask sue if that maintenance calorie figure includes exercise. reason i ask is that vigorous regular exercise jacks up your metabolism a LOT (my monitor tells me that on days i exercise, i may burn 4 - 6 times as many calories AFTER i exercise than if i hadn't. during a day this can mean 500 - 800 calories more, even if i only exercised for 40 minutes proper. if you're hungry every night, it's possible that the reason you've been losing slowly is that you're not eating enough. if you dropped your calories and gained, this could potentially be your body's way of telling you it's worried about starvation and is in hyperdrive trying to protect your vital organs. it might be worth trying some sort of bariatric monitor to determine what your BMR actually is, instead of depending on an online calculator. my suspicion is that's what your hunger is trying to tell you. i don't think it's a good idea to try and find a "beck" way to ignore it, especially if it's every single night!
will post again tomorrow with day 5, eating slowly and consciously. probably one of the hardest things to do consistently...
My stray book came home this week too! My daughter came to visit, and, much to my amazement, brought my original book back. While she was home we went to an Italian restaurant to celebrate my son's 21st birthday. She pushed back a plate of very rich pasta with cream sauce after eating just a few bites and said, "Something I've learned in the last year is if I eat slowly and really taste my food and stop before I get too full I really enjoy it more than stuffing myself".
I looked at her and said "That sounds like advice from the Beck book, I thought you didn't like it". "Well, I guess I got more out of it than I thought!", she replied. She looks terrific. She's always been pretty slim, but she had put on a few extra pounds for the first time. And until recently, she never ate like a thin person. She binged on sweets and carbs. Wouldn't it have been nice if somebody had given each of us the advice in the book U]before we had developed a weight problem?
She was very cool about it. I will get an early ultrasound in 3 weeks due to a weird blood clotting disorder that is so benign but gets me early ultrasounds-- yeah!! I love an ultrasound. I could lay there forever and watch that little bean in there. Anyway... credit moi for being proactive and taking the bull-doctor by the horns. Thank you all for your congrats... I am very excited!
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