As SUnday draws closer I find my anxiety buliding. The dreaded scale. The tape measure. ANd the big "what if nothing happened?"
Understand this... I have, for the last 5 years, been dieting (no crazy stuff - good solid eating - exercise etc) without success. I have had my thyroid tested no fewer than half a dozen times - it is nowhere close to hypo - square in the middle of normal - hormones have been tested - many many things. NO WEIGHT LOSS - as a matter of fact - weight GAIN.
We moved to a new home in July. I did nothing special but had lost about 10 lbs with no effort. My current suspicion is toxic mold in my old house.
This prompted my most recent go at it- I want to try and BELIEVE ME - I am trying _ no slip ups - I have kept my journal and I have had my water and eaten every three hours and done everything right. In theory - I should see a loss on the scale on Sunday.
What if I don't?
I am going to freak the **** out!
I have to see a loss, right? This time has to be different - right? It was the mold right? And I will be able to lose weight now - my body will respond appropriately to my efforts - right?
I an an optimist - I really am - but I have to tell you I am nothing short of terrified to step on that scale on Sunday Morning.