
SaxGirlsMom.
You know you will not bore us if you tell us how you got here. We are here to listen to everything and anything. I know most of my family have no clue as to why I am overweight, my issues with it......I don't know if I could ever really tell them. I am getting better at "owning" my feelings and being very honest as to why I am here.
Like, this afternoon, I went to pick out a fabric for our sofa, traffic was bad I found nothing, nothing really to eat at home except the leftover brownies I had made for my bosses birthday. What did I do, out of impulse I put one in my mouth. Before it all could go down I spit it out. It was if I had lost myself

for a minute. Crazy. It is when I don't have my guard up and am distracted I make these poor decisions.
This has taught me a lesson always to keep alternative snacks on hand at all times. I have been trying to clean the pantry and use everything we have, well now I am at the bottom of the barrel and I don't go shopping until tomorrow so I resorted to brownies. After spitting it out I ate a teaspoon of peanut butter instead. Protein, no flour.
Just as Oprah preaches, our weight loss issues are connected with other issues in our lives. Mine is connected with money. Food can give me gratification at a cheaper price than those very cute shoes or jeans I want to get into. But it is all cyclical if I eat that cheap food I have pushed myself physicaly and financial further away from those shoes or jean. Maybe everytime I resist temption I should pay myself 2.00. I was planning on a little reward every 10 pounds. That might help me fulfill that promise to myself.
Did great on the water. Peeing like a race horse today.
Amanda